stars will fall - byler

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i stuffed my backpack with the bags i needed for my first period class. i wanted to wait for will to get here, just to see him. i planned on talking with him during lunch because it wasn't the time now. i just needed to see his face. my head had been aching all morning and i've never felt so deadly sick, but i couldn't skip school today. i had to see will.
but it felt like i had been waiting there all morning for him because he never showed. maybe he was already here and just came before me..
i turned away and headed towards my class, algebra 2.
i sat down next to lucas, seeing a gleeful expression on his face.
-"what are you so happy about?" i asked.
-"nothing, i'm surprising max today for our anniversary."
-"oh, right! that's today. how many years has it been now, 2? 3?"
-"3."
-"shit.. time flies. what's your plan?" i asked but before he could answer, the classroom door shut and the teacher interrupted our conversation. we sat back in our seats and listened to the teacher, forgetting about our previous conversation.

after class, i walked into the crowding halls and looked around for will. i usually walked down this hall with him after first period since we're going in the same direction, so i decided to wait. just to see him for the first time but he never walked down the hallway. did he skip today? that's not really like him, but i know he's really crushed about what happened. i really don't blame him either. if he did, i'll just swing by his house after school to talk with him. hopefully he doesn't freak out on me...

...

after i left spanish, i looked behind me for will out of habit to wait for him but then remembered.. i cursed under my breath and walked by myself to the cafeteria, seeing half of my friends already there. lucas and max were acting extra touchy and lovey when i approached, grossing me out.
-"can you guys please get a room?" i groaned while sitting down across from them.
-"we could always take it to the janitors closet." max joked, but i could tell she was being partially serious.
-"gross, dude. is that one of your normal spots?"
max and lucas grinned at each other and laughed at my reaction.
-"you guys are sick. i hope janitor paul catches you."
-"he has once.."
-"remember when we hid in the trash cans that one time?" max laughed with lucas.
-"what's so funny?" el asked while approaching behind me, taking a seat next to me as dustin followed shortly after her.
-"nothing, please don't repeat any of that." i sarcastically begged as el ran her hands up my back. i tried to avoid eye contact with her, but it was difficult. she kept nudging me, forcing me to look at her. knowing she's getting in between will and i's relationship really pissed me off. it made me resent her, even though it wasn't really her fault. it's mine.
-"hey, where's will?" dustin asked me, making all of them wait on me for an answer.
-"what?"
-"isn't he living with you now? why isn't he here?" dustin rephrased.
i forgot they don't know..
-"oh, right.. he isn't feeling well." i lied.

as i was eating lunch at my table with my friends, i noticed troy and chance walking past us. they both glared at me the whole way down, not breaking eye contact for a split second until they fully past me. i looked behind me and my eyes followed them to their table. i kept staring at them, trying to figure out what they were looking at.. suddenly they started laughing and looking back at me. i quickly cocked my head back and tried ignoring the feeling of eyes burning into my back. but i couldn't stop wondering what they were laughing at.

the bell rang shortly after and we stood up and walked towards the exit, throwing our trash away on our way out. el held my hand as we walked down the hallway. she rested her head on my shoulder and looked up at me briefly.
-"do you think we can go to the coffee shop up the road after school? i really want to try their new drinks." she asked.
before i could answer, we turned the corner and saw a crowd of people surrounding the lockers. it took me a while to realize they were surrounding the area of my locker. i let go of els hand and jogged towards where they were looking and that's when i saw it.