The only boy I can't have

Eleanor

This was a fresh start. I can leave everything behind me. All the pain, the tears. I looked down at my wrists and pulled my jumper up to my shaking hands. The scars would never go they will always be there as a constant reminder of what happened what I tried to do.

"Darling" my mom snapped me out of my day dream "We are here - Jacob already moved his stuff in" I went to protest.

"I know I know, but he wants to be here with you. Your his baby sister and he was having none of it when I told him you would be fine alone" I groaned. I loved my older brother more than anything, he was a permeant shoulder to cry on but he insisted that the house mum and dad are renting for me so I can avoid the stress of dorms is now also to be his home so I'm not alone.

I feel guilty, dragging him away from the hockey house all his friends - there is no way he would enjoy being stuck in a house with me and my best friend Lola.

Bile rose up my throat, flinging the car door open I held my blonde beach waves behind my head.
Wiping my mouth in the most unladylike way, I received the dirtiest look from a bunch of sophomores walking past - the Taylor college of California was right behind our house.

Technically freshman weren't allowed to love of campus for there first year. I'm an exception of course. Because of what happened.

"OMG BABE!!!" A mop of brown silky hair covered my face as someone who I soon discovered was my best friend Lola Pearce helped me up. She looked gorgeous. As she always did. Smoothing down her pale baggy jeans she looked at me with a smile.

Gold necklaces decorated her neck matching with her new nose ring. "This is new" I pointed to it. She batted her long black eyelashes and winked "Mom said there was no way I was getting a nose ring under her roof" she giggled "and I always listen to my mother"

Rolling my eyes I grabbed her hand and pulled her into a big hug, chatting as we walked into our house.

On the left there was the kitchen, simple with luscious plants wrapped around and on the left was a massive lounge with 2 large sofas, one grey one ferny green covered in blankets of all different shapes sizes and colours. Down the middle were the stairs - me and Lola went up.

On one side there was a bedroom and a bathroom and the other 2 bedrooms across from that.

"Yo little sis!" Jacob emerged from the room next to the bathroom pulling me into a bear hug.

He had the same permant careless smile he always did and he ran a hand through his blond locks "By the way that one has an en-suite so claim it while you can..." I sprinted "CLAIMED" I yelled with a giggle.

*****

After setting up our rooms for a couple of hours, all 3 of us came to bid mom and dad goodbye.

Mum dapped her eyes with tissues - the glamorous women she was wouldn't dare to smudge her mascara.

She sniffled "I will miss you.Darling if IT ever gets bad again it's only a 3 hour drive I will" I cut her off "it won't" I smiled deepening the hug. She looked down at me with a concerned smile.

I turned to my dad "darlin' I will miss you so so so much you will always be my special gorwl" his county accent was always strongest when he was teary. " I love you dad" I smiled sadly at him. We were thinking the same thing. But it won't. I won't let it get bad.

*****

"Hey" Luke walker my brothers childhood best friend walked in to our kitchen and was riffling through our fridge .

I stood there in shock - sure I had seen him since he went to college but each time I get a shock.

Lola hit me hard and waggled her eyebrows in a say something then kind of way. She rolled her eyes. "Hi Luke how are you" she said sweetly.

He grunted a reply. I was still stuck in a trance. Luke was tall, broad and gorgeous with luscious brown hair and hazel eyes. Stubble framed his chiseled face. But I didn't like him - yes he was gorgeous and made me feel warm inside but he was an arse hole.

He never said anything to me or would show any kind of emotion but for some reason Jacob loved him - I guess he was the calm to Jacob's storm? he was a sworn enemy. Kinda.

"Oh for fuck sake" Lola muttered "JACOB YOUR BOYFRIEND IS HERE" Luke turned and rolled his eyes. Jacob came down the stairs in jeans and a ripped blue T-shirt.

"Very mature Pearce" he mocked "you know me wills" she drawled back.
They argued like siblings but I know that they would die for each other.

"Eleanor we are going to a thing at the hockey house - if you need me phone me- acctually phone Luke he is more likely to pick up" I locked eyes with Luke but I quickly looked away embarrassed.
"Okay enjoy"
Jacob laughed "we will"

Me and Lola spent the rest of the evening eating every single item of junk food there is and watching crappy rom coms. Not soon after we finished the Cinderella story with the gorgeous chad Micheal murray , Lola was snoring next to me. I chuckled and picked up my phone.

LUKE - are you all good?
sent 11:43pm

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