The only boy I can't have

Luke

ME - are you all good?
sent 11:43 pm

I don't know why I messaged Eleanor.

I don't know why she has been on my mind all evening, well all day actually.

Waking up next to another topless cheerleader- normally I think shit I've got to get out of here but today my mind went straight to Eleanor and her beautiful blonde hair and the way it curves in and out, her freckles that sit on her button nose under her piercing deep green eyes.

Fuck this wasn't good.

I watched the whole hockey team and a bunch of puck bunny's screaming chug chug chug chug as Benji and Tom held some poor rookie up as he 'drank' a whole water cooler full of some kind of beer. "Come on captain cheer up" Benji shouted to me - the gentle giant who maybe wasn't the smartest but made up for it in personality. I shook my head and put my middle finger up to which he held his head back and laughed

Jacob was right in the center of the chaos.

He always was too be fair. I think that's why we make such a good match.

With a grin from ear to ear he looked at me and rolled his eyes when he saw me away from the madness with my coke Zero.

My gaze softened. He would miss the hockey house. I would miss him and so would all the boys.

I know why he "had" to go or rather why he felt he had to go. Ever since it happened he was always worried about Eleanor. Jacob cared about her some much even before it all took place. My mum used to call the tweedle de and dum.

I know Eleanor had said she wanted Jacob to stay at the hockey house but still he was having none of it.

Telling them all I was sick of there b.s, I headed up to bed with Eleanor still on my mind. Not that i would get much sleep with the blaring music and the sound of fucking in the room next to me. To be fair to them, this was very much on the calm side for their parties....

She had read my message 3 minutes ago but was still typing. Maybe she was thinking about me too..

ELEANOR - yep all good thanks x
Sent 11:56 pm

ELEANOR - btw don't listen to whatever Jacob is telling you - I'm fine now so I don't need looking after.
Sent 11:57 pm

Ouch she's feisty toady.

I remember Eleanor when it all happened. She was a shell of the girl she is now. I worry about her. It's true.

She has come so far - but hey I guess that's what happens when your family force you into every therapy and rehab in the state.

*****

"RISE AND SHINE BEAUTIFUL" Jacob bashed my head with a pillow and I let out a loud groan "bro did you not go home last night" I pushed myself up and headed to my bathroom "yes I did it's 12. we have practise in an hour my good sir" he called out behind the door. He's such an idiot.

Letting the water run cold I held my head underneath trying to manage my thoughts. I needed to get Eleanor out of my fucking head I don't need distractions, no I don't want any distractions.

It was easier to forget she existed when she was 3 hours away, but now she was at arms length. It's just a matter of whether or not I want to grab her.

ME - I know you are.
Sent 12:37 pm

AUTHORS NOTE ❤️❤️❤️
Sorry for the short chapter! I just want to get the not as interesting stuff out the way xx
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