The only boy I can't have

Eleanor

It had been 2 weeks since I had got hammered at the hockey game and spilled my deepest secrets and feelings to Luke fucking walker. UGH.

It's safe to say that I am avoiding Luke at all costs even if it means missing a lecture - this happened the other day - he was waiting outside the south building for me!! No Psychology for me.

On a better note, me, lola, Ollie and Mia have formed some kind of friend group you could say? Either way it's been tons of fun. We went out for boozy brunch which was my suggestion obvs ( I know I'm a Middle Aged women trapped in a 19 year olds body) and it's going super well.

On an even better note me and Jacob made up.

2 DAYS AFTER THE PARTY

Swoosh
The door swung open.

Lola looked at me confused - Jacob hadn't been home for 2/3 days why would he be back now?

Me with my curling iron and Lola with her slippers we both crept down the stairs

"HI YA!!" Lola screamed kicking the intruder right in the balls.

"Owwww"

Shit

"JACOB" Lola screeched "OMG I'm so sorry" she helped him up whilst I sulked in a corner uninterested in this arse hole and whether he still had both of his balls.

"I'm okay" he mumbled gently pushing her off

"Eleanor can we chat, please" Jacob said after seeing my irritated face.

I sighed and walked into the living room throwing myself on the sofa crossing my arms. He cleared his throat and followed me.

"First I just want to say I'm sorry"
I scoffed and he started again

"No listen - I am just worried about you okay? You had mom and dad watching over you and now it's just me." I opened my mouth to complain

"I know 'you don't need looking after' but regardless of what happened in high school I would still be looking after you! It's just that we thought you were getting better and you weren't and i can't let that happen. Please forgive me I said some hurtful things and I regret them but I don't regret looking after you!" He exhaled loudly

"AWWWWWW" we both turned to Lola

"Cmon babe you have to admit that was kind" she said to me with her hands on her hip.

I bit my lip anxiously. I was hurt and what he said cut deep but I could never stay mad at him.

"Fine - I'm sorry too" I sighed as he pulled me into one of his signature bear hugs.

At least that was sorted

Two weeks later
Jacob was giving me a lift to the library but he said he needed to stop at the hockey house first and claimed it was urgent and couldn't wait.

I liked the hockey house.

I liked how busy it was and every time I went round I liked chatting to Kyle and Benji - Luke and Jacob's closet friends.

Sat on the kitchen counter whilst Benji was making me a coffee I was chatting away to Kyle.

He pushed his dreads back to show me a tiny scar on his forehead

"Fuckkkkk" I said slowly

"And that is why young lady you must never try to body surf at a party after too many shots" he waggled his finger at me.

Benji scoffed passing me my coffee and I thanked him. "I don't think she we planning on it bro - also you are 6'3 and she is .... Small I'm sure someone would catch her"

"Well I don't know benj you see-" Kyle remarked

"Hi" a deep husky voice said

Fuck
It was Luke

"Yoooo cap what's up " Kyle said doing that weird man clap greeting all guys do

"Not much I just need to speak to-" he turned his big muscular body towards me and our eyes met looking deep into each others souls my heart pounded and I gulped deeply.

"nosorrygottogothanksforthecoffeebenjibyekyle"
I spat out running away

"JACOB IM JUST GONNA WALK BYE"

Not waiting for a reply I sprinted out the house. He was the last human on the earth I wanted to see today I shook my head and smoothed my grey joggers down, tightened my slicked pony tail and zipped up my navy hoody preparing for my 40 minute walk to the library - fun!