Scared to love

Chloë's POV

It hurts so much seeing her after almost a year. "I never stopped loving you baby, I don't know why I said that", she says. "No you're wrong, you never loved me in the first place", I correct her. "You never played with me when I was younger, you were either too busy or too tired. You never helped me with my homework, you never taught me anything, not even about periods or stuff like that. You took care of me, but you didn't love me. If you would've loved me, you would 've called me the day you found out that I left your place, but what did you do instead? You turned the whole fucking family against me! You're not my mother, he's not my father, and I don't have a family anymore. Don't ever think I want to be associated with anyone that used to be my family, you're all dead to me", I yell, remembering every bad thing they ever did to me. "Baby-", she tries. "Stop calling me baby, it's disgusting", I snarl. "Chloë, you can't do this to us, to me. I tried, I really tried, but your father-" "You know what stop talking. You're just as bad as him, you were always telling me I couldn't do, say or wear stuff because he wouldn't like it. You never fought for yourself, for us or for me. You would shut me down when I did but guess what, the day I left home was the best day in my life. Now leave this place and never come back, or I'm calling the police", I say while walking towards my room. "You were a horrible mother", I say before entering my room.

I enter my room and I start feeling weak in the knees. I walk to my bed and I start bawling my eyes out like a little kid. Some time later there is a knock on the door, and when I don't respond, the door opens. "Angel?", I hear Jake's voice. "Are you okay?", his voice breaks when he sees me curled up on my bed, staring in front of me. I want to talk to him, but my voice is gone. When he sees this, he comes to sit beside me on the bed and pulls me on his lap while hugging me. "It's okay angel, you don't have to say anything", he whispers while stroking my hair. The tears start falling again because of this and I can't help it. I cry in his arms, feeling helpless. He doesn't say anything but he keeps holding me in his arms. I hear the door open again so I guess that Matthew is now here too. I hate that they have to see me like this yet I can't stop crying. "She never loved me Jake, nobody ever did", I sob when I find my voice again. "Maybe they didn't, but we do angel. We love you like crazy", he shushes me. "Besides, you know too much about us already, it wouldn't be an option for you to leave us", Matthew tries to lighten the mood. I have to smile from that. Jake looks at me and whipes the tears from my face. "There she is", Jake says when he notices the smile on my face.

The boys convinced me to watch a funny movie with them to cheer me up, so I'm sitting on the couch, squeezed between the two of them. "My head hurts", I complain during one of the breaks. "I'll get you something for it", Jake says as he walks away. He comes back with a glass of water and some medication, which I take immediately. "Thanks Jake", I say. "No problem angel", he responds. We continue watching the movie, but I guess the crying tired my body out too much, because I don't remember seeing the end of it. I suddenly wake up because of something, or rather someone moving. I open my eyes and look right into Jake's eyes. "God I'm sorry", I say while trying to get up. "It's fine, go back to sleep", he says. "No no, I should get in bed", I reply. Only then I notice that my legs are draped over Matthew's lap. "Oh God, I'm so sorry", I apoligize to Matthew. He laughs before saying that I shouldn't be worried about it. "No I am worried about it, so I'm just going to go to bed. Thanks for the support guys, I owe you one", I state before walking to my bedroom again.