Scared to love

Chloë's POV

Shit, they know. "No clue what you're talking about. Maybe she was talking about someone else?", I try to lie. "Matthew said the same. So you really don't know anything?", he asks me. I shake my head and try to avoid looking in his eyes. "You're lying aren't you?", he says after a short silence. "Look even if she said something, it's not my place to say something. I could hate her guts but even then if she would tell me she's pregnant and ask me to stay silent about it I would. I'm sorry Jake but I'm not talking about this anymore", I say before walking to the bathroom. When I get back in the room Jake is gone and I start feeling guilty. Maybe I shouldn't have been so harsh, he was just trying to help his friend. I don't know when he returned but only in the morning I notice him laying next to me.

"You bitch! You told him! When I told you, I hoped you would keep it a secret! You're a horrible friend!", Alice screams on the top of her lungs when she barges into our room. "What are you talking about? I didn't tell anyone anything!", I defend myself. "You clearly did you bitch, how else would he know?", she yells. "Alice I swear I didn't tell anyone", I say. She tries to come at me but both Dakota and Matthew enter our room and pull her away. "What happened?", Matthew asks. "Your roommate is a horrible person! She can't even keep a secret for a few days", Alice cries as she's still trying to come closer to me. Matthew looks confused at me and then at Dakota and Alice. Suddenly Alice her expression changes and she looks at me with a stone cold look. "I know why you did it", she states. "You just did it for money didn't you? I bet that you promised Dakota to tell him a secret if he gives you money, that's why you did it! You're just a pathetic poor golddigger without anyone that loves you! You were so jealous you had to ruin it!"

My mind stops working and I can't function anymore. I'm stood there frozen in place and the only thing I feel is a tear rolling down my cheek. I get a flashback to when I was younger and when my parents used to do these kinds of things on a daily basis to me. She hit all my weakest points at once and I don't know what to do or feel. I don't know how much time has passed when I feel hands on my shoulders. They're warm, big and strong hands that lead me to the bed so that I can sit. I'm so out of it that my vision turned blurry and there is this ringing in my ears that just won't stop. Someone is waving their hand in front of me but I can't focus on it. Her words keep repeating in my head like a broken record. I know that she never saw me as good enough, yet this hurts way more than I expected. The person left me alone in the room, but I see two shadows appear some time later.

"Chloë, angel, please answer us", I hear Jake pleading. I find it in myself to regain the focus in my eyes and look around. "Oh thank God, I thought we lost you", Matthew sighs when he sees me move. "Are you okay angel? You were acting weird for quite a while", Jake asks me. "Yeah I'm fine, I'll get over it", I say as I wipe away the tears from my cheeks. When did I start crying, have I doing that the whole time? I try to pretend I'm fine when the boys look at me with a sad look. "I'm going to get ready, I'll see you guys in a bit", I say before getting up from the bed and walking towards the bathroom. When I arrive there I look in the mirror and I'm shocked to see my reflection. My eyes are red and swollen from crying yet I only remember that one tear falling. I get ready and decide to look if there is a gym nearby to distract myself from this mess. I find one about 10 minutes from where we're staying, so I sneak downstairs and try not to get noticed while leaving. I manage to get out of the house without anyone noticing and I start walking towards the gym.