In Every Hues

Chapter 29

Kiss

"Y-You fell for me?"

My chest was in rapid beats, his words were echoing inside my head and I couldn't help but to stare at him. May sumisilip na ngiti sa labi niya nang mapansin ang pagkataranta ko.

"That time, yeah." He was still stifling a smile as his eyes looked drunk. "I was so ready to confess it to you, but I guess I was too late..." He shrugged.

My heart was racing too fast. I could only stare at him, I couldn't afford to move. Nagsimula nang uminit ang pisngi ko at hindi ko na maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko.

Basta ang alam ko lang, masaya ako. Pero may halo ring lungkot. Hindi ko maintindihan.

"I get that you got a crush on her. Nasaktan naman noong malaman nalaman kong kayo na." Napapaos siyang humalakhak.

It was so hard to take in. Biglang rumagasa ang alaala ko, sa mga reaksyon niya kapag si Hannah ang topic naming tatlo.

Palagi siyang nauunang umuwi. Lilingon pa na parang ayaw umalis. I didn't notice that, because I thought it was normal since he's overprotective of me.

Hindi ko maiwasang pagkurutan ng dibdib. I wonder what he was really feeling at that time.

Fuck, I wish I fell in love with him back then, too!

"Siguro hindi para sa 'kin yung oras na 'yon. But somehow, I regretted that I didn't protect you from her. Hindi mo sana naranasan ang bagay na 'yon."

I licked my lower lip and stared at him quietly. Matapang niyang sinalubong ang mata ko na parang ngayon ang tamang oras para masabi ang lahat ng 'to.

"I also thought that I guess it would be better if we remain friends, right? It was the safest way to keep things at place. Walang mawawala." He shrugged and gave me a downward smile.

"Uhuh..." My jaw clenched. "Friends, huh?"

I want this love instead, Trev. The only thing we risk losing is the chance of not being together.

"But things didn't go the way I planned to. Despite hurting or I guess, that love." He chuckled as he quoted it in the air. "Envy started to ruin you inside my head. That was my downfall, Yolo. It overcame my love."

He cocked his head to the window, resting its side against it as he smiled. His eyes were full of emotions I couldn't even name, like it was so hard to say these things to me.

"You didn't regret having feelings with me, right?" bulong ko.

Nangingiti siyang tumitig sa 'kin. "Nope, why would I?"

"Does that still stand, baby?"

He chuckled and his hand went on my shoulder, gripping it a little. Saglit akong natigilan, ngunit ibinalik ko ang sarili sa pamamagitan ng pagngisi.

Ah, heck. One touch and I'm on my knees.

Hindi matanggal ang ngiti ko dahil para na akong kinikiliti. Ang sakit na sa panga, pero hindi ko pa rin matigilan. Even my cheeks were burning that I have to poke my tongue against it.

"You haven't noticed because you had no idea. Nobody got the idea." Umiiling siyang tumawa. "You're straight, Yohan, I knew that I would never stand a chance."

"You do have now..." nanghihina kong bulong, halos magmura dahil sa mga sinasabi niya. "And if you're going to fall for the second time around, I would be in it, Trev."

Umawang ang labi niya at napatitig sa 'kin. I nodded to tell him that I'm serious.

"But I know you moved on..."