Mind's Alike // LokixF!mReader

Part 13 - Making Excuses

We walk down the halls to the balcony, I feel the wind smack my face the fresh air definitely woke me up.

We stand staring out to the city 'so why did you drink all those years ago?'

I smile nervously 'it was many things abandonment, people's thoughts, feelings... I was overwhelmed and my child hood being what it was... I hated myself... and one day I decided maybe drinking would clear my head... it did whenever I was drunk everyone's voices became quiet...'

He nods understandably 'so you just used it as a way to distract yourself?'

I nod 'yes... I got it under control though, only drank on rare occasions and never as much as I did then..'

'And tonight? Was it because you were alone?'

I nod 'I was alone them years ago... my childhood... I know its stupid because it was an event and obviously you'd all be back but I just didn't know what to do with myself... it felt like all them times I was left out for being the 'strange one' the 'embarrassment'

He nods 'why not say? Or call? I would have stayed...'

I look at him with furrowed brows 'you would have stayed?'

He shrugs 'believe it or not your annoying ass is interesting... would have been much better company than some old men donating money to a charity as if that will solve the worlds problems...'

I smile 'I'll have to remember that next time... can't believe the God himself finds my ass interesting' I say giggling

He sighs 'not like that...'

I smirk 'sure... I believe you' I say winking

He rolls his eyes 'I think you're still slightly drunk...'

'Maybe or maybe you are making excuses' I say playfully

He shakes his head 'go to bed..'

I nod and give him a quick hug, he tenses at my actions. I let go and give him a quick smile before going.

Lokis POV
She walks away giving me a smile before hand. I stand there a moment thinking about everything, maybe I did like her? Or was it just curiosity? She was interesting for sure her telepathic power being unmatched by anyone I had ever met. Her pure skill in many different areas, her interests, her hobbies.

And the hug... what was that about? No one on the team has ever done that, other than Thor and only rarely considering I don't like physical touch from others. Yet I never pushed her away... was there something there?

I walk back through to the living quarters where majority of people had left, guessing they went to bed.

'There you are reindeer games... where's y/n?' Tony asks

'She's gone to bed as will I be...'

Tony raises a brow 'she ok?'

I sigh 'she has a bad history with alcohol stark...'

He furrows his brows 'what do you mean? An alcoholic?'

I shake my head 'not sure either way I think maybe be wary about it...'

He nods understandably 'sure... you two have got closer...'

I roll my eyes 'we just understand eachother...'

He smirks 'right...'

Y/N POV
I lay in bed and groan frustrated I couldn't get comfortable, I walk out into the hall and lay on the sofa on the floors shared living room.

I think about the nights events, Loki. He truly read me like a book and I felt like he understood me more than anyone ever had... and I was starting to understand him more, he just didn't open up as much which made it extremely difficult to understand what kind of person he really was.

The next morning
I groan sitting up. My head hurt... after not drinking that much in 5 years I felt like hell. I stand up slightly dazed and head to the shower.

The shower helped make me feel fresh, I put on some sweatpants and a jumper and head downstairs.

I see Tony sitting at the kitchen island as I grab a coffee'morning..'

'Morning..' he replies

'Talk to her..'Tony

I turn around and raise a brow 'do I want to know what I'm about to get lectured on?..'

He sighs 'are you an acholic?..'

I stare at him wide eyed 'Loki spoke to you..' I say remembering our conversation

He nods 'so?'

I sit down sighing 'No... not in the sense alcohol controls me... I just went through a faze where I thought it was an easier option... last night was the first night in 5 years I had got drunk..'

He nods 'should I be worried?'

I groan 'no you shouldn't... I can't believe he talked to you..'

Tony looks at me dumbfounded 'no y/n it's good he did... why didn't you talk to me? Anyone? You've broke your sobriety...'

'I'm not a drunk stark, it's not part of my history I'm proud of! You think I opened up for the fun of it?'

'No I don't think you did but things like this we should know... you could hurt yourself... do something you'd regret. Addiction is a slippery slope...'

I stare at him 'I'm fine... now leave it alone. I've got it under control'

He nods hesitantly before I walk off to the couch and lay down to rest.