Mind's Alike // LokixF!mReader

Part 99 - Talk To Me!

Present day
'Ok... y/n this is the end of the session... do you feel as though you've said everything or would you like to do another hour?'

I shake my head 'nope I've said what I needed... thanks doc'

She smiles 'I'll be back at the end of the week to see you again' she says before walking out

I sit there hands in my face, I felt lost. I wanted to be a good mum, I wanted to feel love, have family.

'Looney...' Tony says coming in

I look up at him 'I'm sorry' I say sitting up wiping my face

He comes over and sits next to me 'hey don't do that, no apologising. I can't imagine what you're feeling... I just want to be there y/n, you need to know I'll always be there for you... and well the baby'

I smile lightly wiping my eyes 'I know... I'm just sorry I've taken it all out on you all... this pain, this 'bond'... it hurts and the worst part of it, what if he does never come back?-'

'Y/n-'

'No. Say he has run off, this all scared him, he doesn't love me... I'm going to be bringing up this child living with this pain, this part of me missing...'

He sighs and just hugs me, all I could feel was comfort, a feeling of peace. 'Y/n you have always lived in pain, just this time you have a reason to live with it...' he says pulling away

I smile 'cheeseburgers?' I ask

He smiles 'yes... maybe you are like me'

'I get cravings tony and all you eat is cheeseburgers...'

'Yeah yeah try blame this on me and the baby, I know your game'

A few days later
I wake up to the sound of thunder, I run to the window and see the bright light I had been waiting for.

I run up to the roof, the cold wind hitting me the wet ground on my bare feet from the rain that poured down.

I see a figure but it wasn't him... 'Thor?...'

He walks up to me his whole aura felt off, I could feel pain, anger, regret, grief and guilt. 'Lady y/n... I'm- I'm sorry...'

I stare at him 'what is it?'

'I- I lost him... and Hemidall and asgardians...'

Nothing he said felt true, this was a lie 'lost him? Wh- what do you mean?!'

'He's gone y/n...'

'What happened? Why did you have to go?! Why did he?!'

Thor rests his hand on my shoulder 'y/n please... can we go inside and talk... your gonna get ill'

I push his hand off me 'no! Talk to me! Tell me!'

'We went as there was a threat... when we got there Hemidall was being attacked and he said my mother was in need of help... Loki said for me to go as he was already being attacked... when I got back they were both gone and asgardians were dead... I searched- I just, I couldn't find them, they were no where...'

'He's not dead Thor!' I say angry

'Then where y/n?! Where is my brother! My bestfriend! Have you tried reaching out?! Have you received a reply?! They're gone!' He yells full of anger

I slap him right in the face out of anger all I could feel and see was red. All this time they were gone, all this time and this is what I got told? This is what happened? I refused to believe it.

'Y/n?' I hear my name called

I turn and see Tony standing behind us and look back to Thor 'he's not gone. He's not- he's alive... ok? I would have known, I would have felt it!'

'Y/n... I am sorry'

I look at him fuming, this wasn't denial surely. 'Take me there...' I say

Thor furrows his brows 'lady y/n your with child, it's not safe the-'

'Thor I'm not fucking around. If my partner is missing I'm finding him, I won't give up on him'

'Y/n... Thors right you can't go, it's too dangerous' Tony states walking up to us cautiously

I stare at him 'are you going to stop me?'

'Y/n-'

'Don't y/n me. Are you going to stop me? If it were pepper you would go no?' I turn to Thor 'or if it were Jane? What you'd stay home, drink some tea, talk about your feelings?' I ask fuming

I look between them and there was nothing but a defining silence. 'So I'm going.'

Tony sighs '2 weeks max, if you don't find him that's it. She comes home.' He states to Thor

Thor nods unsure of this whole idea but I wasn't giving him a chance to change my mind.

'Let's go then.' I say blankly walking toward where Thor once landed

Thor walks over 'lady y/n... please reconsider this...'

I look at him angered 'I will not... I won't give up'