Mind's Alike // LokixF!mReader

Part 28 - Smash

In the elevator I hear tons of thoughts start to flood my head, random people.

'I wonder if I'll see Grant.. that's if his wife let him go. The hag'

'This girl will be mine'

'I need a drink fucking mikes here'

'Stark could be a good hook up, he seems like the perfect guy to get knocked up by...'

I tense up, I wasn't even down there yet and I could hear and feel people already. The elevator comes to a stop and we walk out, noise echoing around the room, music blasting, heels, people yelling to comunicate over the music, singing. Maybe I was going to regret this.

Loki pulls me through the crowd making our way to where the boys were.

A thought floods my head as I brush into someone.

'Fuck Joan, I'm sleeping with her tonight'

I slow down a moment as Loki continues through, I look at the man who's thought came to my mind and flick through his memory's, he had a wife... Joan and a daughter the idiot.

I walk up to him, he smiles hungrily 'what's up good looking..'

I sigh 'righttt sorry but I couldn't ignore this feeling you gave off, the feeling being jerk...'

He furrows his brows and laughs 'what? Sorry but I was just throwing my shot..'

I smirk 'I know Joan, lovely woman... at home with your daughter... Valarie right? What a disappointing father and husband you are...'

He looks at me wide eyed 'you know Joan...'

I nod 'yeah... I used to work with her... shame her husband is looking for other fish when he's already caught the best one'

'And what are you gonna do? I'm just a guy..'

I roll my eyes and grab his arm.

'Go home and be a good dad and husband, don't disappoint them again...'

He nods walking out. I catch up to the guys smiling.

'Where did you go?'

'Just cleaning up Tony's dumbass guests'

'Hey! Some of these are good people'

I hum 'I think you need a better judgement...'

'Lady y/n you look incredible!' Thor exclaims

I smile 'thank you Thor... see better judgement'

Tony rolls his eyes.

I continue to hear everyone's thoughts and feelings. When I'm dragged out of my haze.

'Y/n what do you think? Steve vs Bucky? Who wins?'

I stand there a moment 'Bucky... he was trained by mass killers... Steve is hesitant a lot of the time'

'You know Roger's is my favourite right?' A voice speaks from behind me

I turn and smile 'something I cannot relate on...'

Coulson smiles

'I said I was sorry ok?'

I look at Roger's brows raised 'just because you're not my favourite doesn't mean I hate you... god such a people pleaser...'

'Want to go talk?' Coulson asks, I nod hesitantly walking with him.

We sit outside on the balcony in awkward silence.

'So did you want to talk about your life? I can imagine it was hard...'

I sigh 'it was... but that's the past...'

He sighs 'your avoiding...'

'No I just don't feel comfortable talking about it'

'When are you going to open up to me? Our last talk you barely told me about you... I want to know things about you y/n, get to know my daughter.'

I sigh 'right but our last talk was the first time meeting you, I know your my dad but I don't know you... I've known the team for a while and have barley opened up to any of them... I prefer to move on then dwell'

I stands there looking at me 'I want to know my daughter and yet she won't give me the chance, you know how happy and proud I was to find out I had a child... that there was a piece of your mother still here'

I shake my head 'I'm not ready and sorry to disappoint but I'm nothing like her... and I'm nothing like you... I'm different to everyone. And you can't fix that with a shoulder to lean on'

He sighs 'no I can't fix it but I can understand you more, what you've been through. I can at least be there for you'

My head was pounding with noise, feelings. This is what I was so nervous about, I couldn't even think straight.

I groan 'fine my god, you want to know. I was abused, every home I went to whether it was emotionally or physically I always came out more damaged more broken. And you weren't there! I always depended on myself, always missed out on things i wished I could have experienced just because I was different, because I was feared. Understand me more now?'

He stands there in utter silence just staring.

'Glad we had this father, daughter time. Do with that what you want. You wanted to know your daughter there it is.'

I walk off the balcony back into the crowded room. Hearing all these thoughts and feelings consume me. Old memories rise up, ones I didn't want to feel. I see a waiter holding a tray of drinks and make my way to him.

'Sorry Mr Stark requested we don't serve you...'

I roll my eyes pulling out my purse '1000$ for the tray...'

He nods taking the money.

I down every single one and place the tray down, I see Wanda and Nat at the bar and make my way to them.

'Hello gorgeous girls...'

They raise their brows 'hello dear...' Nat says patting the seat next to her.

I sit down smiling 'so have I missed anything?'

'Not much just a little disagreement...' Nat states

'No its not a disagreement as its true, Nat and Bucky?'

'Smash...' I say

They look at me confused 'no together...'

I laugh 'oh my bad, yeah you'd be like Harley and joker..'

Nat and Wanda give me another look 'ok what are the faces about?'

'You seem slightly different... you ok?' Wanda asks

I nod 'yep fine... so you and Bucky?' I ask

Nat groans laying her head down on the bar.