Mind's Alike // LokixF!mReader

Part 44 - Im Pulling You

'HEY!!'

I wake from my sleep startled immediately raising my hand. I see Tony in the door way holding his up in surrender. I lie back down and sigh.

'Tony what the fuck?!'

'Well- I - I thought maybe you two had umm slept together...'

Loki pulls away the duvet revealing our clothed bodies.

'Ahh... well what are you two doing in the same bed then?'

I sigh 'I fell asleep on him Tony, don't think the man had a chance to get out'

He furrows his brows 'he could've shoved you?'

I throw a pillow toward Tony

'You need to get up, Coulsons here. You know your dad who thought you were dead...'

I sigh 'fine, now please for the love of god go annoy someone else'

He nods walking off, I turn to look at Loki who was a lot closer than I had thought.

'M-morning..'

'Good Morning darling...'

I felt odd. Not only had I never slept next to someone or sorry on top of someone, it had been years since I had slept in a bed. I felt weird.

'Now I'm no mind reader of yours but if I could hear am I right in saying your mind may be going a million miles per hour...'

I shake my head 'no just... this is weird... not you umm I'm going to get up...'

He nods, I could feel his anxiety.

'It wasn't you, I just- I've never slept next to anyone before... or been in a bed for so long, it just felt unnatural..'

I feel his anxiety wear away and sigh in relief walking steadily through to the bathroom. My leg absolutely throbbed.

When I come back through from my awkward shower I notice Loki is gone and the bed is made. I slowly make my way to the elevator and go to the common area.

As I step out I'm immediately faced with everyone... Bruce, Steve, Bucky, Wanda, Clint, Sam, Thor... my brother and dad.

I gulp looking at them, I felt alien.

'Can you all act you know... normal?..'

'No can do... this is super weird...' Sam replies

I breath out a sigh 'fine, I'll clear it up. Dying was peaceful, yes there's some sort of afterlife but very... odd, I'm just the same as when I died nothing changed and I did not meet God... is that all?'

'Yeah that answers it for me...' Clint states walking off

'Ok why are you all here still?'

'Lady y/n we had thought you died...' Thor states

'Well thanks to your brothers link I'm here...'

'Y/n can I talk to you?' Coulson asks

I look at him a bit surprised, he sounded plain like there was no emotion, no feelings. I nod following behind.

We make our way onto the balcony and stand there.

'You have any idea how much that hurt? Seeing you on that table lifeless?' He asks

'I'm sorry...'

He looks at me slightly angry, hurt, confused.

'Why did you go off, do this by yourself? I wanted my son but not if it meant loosing you in the process! We could have found another way but you decided to do this on your own on your terms'

I stand there slightly shocked

'Well y/n? Why?! You died!'

'But I came back...'

'And if you hadn't?'

'I was linked to Loki, I'm fine...'

'But if you wasn't?!'

'Then I'd be dead and I would have stayed that way!' I argue, I understood he was hurt but it wasn't exactly my choice dying.

He sighs 'exactly you would have died... and I may have gained a son but I would have lost my daughter, my child who I stupidly agreed to do this whole mission out of- greed.'

'It wasn't like that, you and me wanted him here. I wanted to know him as much as you'

'But it was my job y/n mine to make sure you are safe and well. I failed! You died!'

I step back, we stand in silence for a moment. I could feel all these feelings piled up in him, I was confused I couldn't tell what was what, what he was actually thinking.

'I'm pulling you from this...' he says calmer

I look at him confused 'from what?'

'The avengers, missions... this isn't the life your meant to have'

I look at him hurt 'this is my family... this job is were I fit in, were I'm not looked at as the strange girl!' I argue

He shakes his head 'I'm your family! I don't care how you are looked at, you are not staying here and ending up where I saw you last... this isn't the life I want for you!'

'But it's my life, my friends, my home! You want to take that all away!'

'I want what's best for you... even if it hurts. I will not see you the same way again'

I look at him, never had I seen this side of him. The anger, the demand. In this moment I couldn't understand him, this decision he was trying to make for me like it was a 6 year old having ice cream for dinner.

'I'm not leaving... this is my life. You can either be there for me or leave... just know I would not have changed anything... I would have done it all again if it had meant I got the slightest chance to know my brother...'

He looks at me angry 'if this is what you want then have it but I'm not sticking around to watch this again...'

He turns away and walks to the door 'if you ever decide that this isn't your life my door is open... I love you...'