Mind's Alike // LokixF!mReader

Part 91 - You Look Like Shit

Lokis POV
The last few months I could feel the change in y/n's energy, she was more tired, less focused. Our connection was showing me all the things she would usually hide.

She had just got back from a mission with spider kid and whilst he was full of energy and bouncing off the walls she had to dismiss herself to go to bed.

We all sit down for dinner, y/n's seat empty.

'Where's trouble?' Tony asks sitting down

'In bed... again...' I say with a suggestive tone

Tony sighs 'she's still seeing Dr Rayner right?'

I nod 'yep...'

'Maybe it's this stuff with her grandfather, it's been months. It would put anyone on edge, she's probably always on edge...' Nat states

I sit up 'you think that's what this is? She's in overdrive?'

She shrugs 'their last interaction wasn't exactly pleasant... you know with her almost killing him and him playing mind games and-'

'Ok Nat think they get it...' Bucky states

Tony rubs his face 'maybe we go back to two sessions...'

I nod 'as long as it works... she can't be in constant state of worry'

Y/n POV
I hear a certain someone come into the room, I look over and smile lightly. He comes sit on the bed taking my hand.

'Hello darling...' he says

'Hey...'

'Did you get some sleep?'

I nod 'yeah... I don't know what's wrong recently. I'm just- oh I don't know..'

'No talk with me y/n, what's bothering you?'

I sigh 'I'm just always tired, I'm struggling at even focussing on someone's thoughts... I feel like I'm just loosing this power, like I'm weak...'

He nods stroking circles on my hand 'do you think you maybe... got a lot on your mind?'

I shrug 'maybe... there's Peter who I'm constantly on edge about, always worried about his safety and my grandfather... he's just, he's disappeared'

He nods 'I think maybe whilst this search is still going on maybe you should pull back on missions with Peter... I can take over a few for you...'

I sigh 'why is my brain like this? I'm meant to be strong not weak'

'... you just worry, you care... for someone who's telepathic it's a lot. And you may be having a rough time now but it doesn't make you weak... I can feel how much strength you still have. This will pass but for the meantime let me help you...'

I nod hesitantly, this absolutely sucked. I wasn't even on main missions and I was this tired, this vulnerable... for someone who's done everything herself almost her whole life this was odd and embarrassing. Would I be like this until my grandfather was captured again? Is this the way life was going to be?

I wake the next day and head to the coffee shop where me and Elijah usually meet, I sit down yawning.

'You look like shit...' he says

I fakley smile 'thanks.. just what I needed'

He laughs lightly 'I'm sorry, you just look... like death? Maybe?'

I shrug 'feel like it too...'

He sits up 'what's wrong? Are you not well?'

I sigh 'I don't know Elijah! My head feels like I'm being stabbed a hundred times over and like I'm constantly being spun on a wheelie chair!' I snap

He sits back awkwardly'I'm sorry... I just I'm confused. Even when I was well, practically dead I didn't feel this way... all the times I've worried and overthought before. I don't feel like me...' I say calmer

He sighs 'have you spoke to Loki? Or Tony? Or maybe even dad?'

I sigh 'Loki's taking over some of my spider mission stuff, as for the 'dads' no idea, guarantee they'd pull me if they knew how bad it was...'

'The 'dads'?... actually never mind. I think maybe take some time off, I'd agree with them'

I roll my eyes 'no. And only because you're going into dad mode.'

He smiles 'maybe... can't believe we've only got 21 weeks left...'

'Only?! She's already been pregnant since Christmas'

He laughs 'before Christmas she's 19 weeks... almost half way...'

I look at him shocked 'I thought it was like a couple of months then boom! Baby!'

He shakes his head laughing lightly 'oh little y/n you're so naive... baby's don't arrive within a minute'

I smirk 'no they take that long to conceive...'

He groans 'gross y/n... I was hoping your attitude had gone with the tiredness...'

I smirk 'nope. Never.'