Mind's Alike // LokixF!mReader

Part 63 - My Heart Wants You

Lokis POV
I watch as she leaves, my chest felt heavy. She had practically said she could never love me. That she couldn't be with me.

A few hours had been and I was dressed in my finest wear for the feast. I hear a knock 'come in...' I say tiredly

My mother walks through 'you look handsome my son... have you seen y/n, she looks like a true princess...' she says

I sigh 'no... it doesn't seem as though she feels the same...'

She laughs 'Loki dear you must be joking... your soulmates. Whatever has happened will pass, the gaze you both have is of love not friendship...'

I groan 'mother... she's-'

'A complicated girl... a woman who's been through many traumas, pain... a girl who has never been loved...'

I look at her shaking my head

'Give it time, she will come around and once she does... don't let your stubbornness get in the way...'

I roll my eyes 'fine...'

'Good now come, it's time'

I link with her arm as she leads towards the hall. It was pact, full of different faces, friends, royalty. Odin approaches with a woman and an older man.

'Son this is Princess Nausicaa and her father Arete..'

I bow 'good evening...'

'Why don't you spend some time together... this is her first time on Asgard and I wish for her to feel welcome...'

I nod hesitantly, I had nothing against this woman I just didn't want to be chauffeur for the evening on best behaviour.

We sit and have small talk, she was interesting and as was her culture however my mind kept playing on y/n.

As we talked I look around and spotted y/n she looked gorgeous... she did truly look like a goddess.

I hear a glass ting and look towards it, Odin was ready to make a speech. I roll my eyes he was gonna start bragging about the kingdom, then about his sons mainly Thor and then something to make everything interesting.

'Greetings to my people and those that have joined us from other realms... the 9 realms continue to thrive and evolve as time passes. A great honour it is to be able to watch us grow together.

My sons have came home for a visit unexpectedly continuing to thrive on Midgard... and also bringing a Midgardian with them...'

I furrow my brows, every new guest had honour, their title known, a welcome given but he had completely missed it.

'I have some good news to share my son... Loki, he is soon to be wed as he courts the famous princess Nausicaa...'

I stare at him, what in the nine realms. I look to the woman only now had I noticed my colours on her, she looks at me with a sorrow look.

'You knew?!' I question hushed

'I'm sorry my prince...'

I couldn't believe it, Odin had set an arranged marriage. I look over to y/n, her face was puffed, her eyes shinning in the warm light. I felt her pain, her anguish.

Everyone applauds and cheers, the music starts to play, I look to where y/n once was and the space was empty.

Everyone begins to dance and celebrate as I make my way to Odin.

'What in the nine realms have you done?!' I ask annoyed

'Brother...' Thor says hushed

I turn to him annoyed 'did you know of this?!'

'No! Of course not, let's take this into the hall though brother..'

I nod storming out. 'So why?! You knew I have a soulmate!'

'She's broken Loki, not of any royalty, a mess... not deserving of a god...'

I look at him with daggers, this is where she had got this from... he made her feel those things 'I am the one who is not deserving of her! You planted the seed in her head to make sure we didn't get any further to ensure this power move would work. I will not be some pawn in your game!'

'Then you are no son of mine...'

'Father!-' Thor goes booming

'No.. it's fine. I never was... one day your senses will come to realise that you are a power hungry fool, you underestimate her and me...'

I storm off down the halls, I try to reach her but I couldn't hear her.

I continue to roam the halls when I feel this warm presence, a presence that belonged to one woman.

I walk into the courtyard, there she sat next to the fountain that was surrounded by flowers and plants. Her head low, I walk into the yard.

She turns to face me, her face stained with tears. Her eyes heavy, I could feel her heart, it was raw, pained, torn..

I sit on the edge of the fountain with her 'y/n... I know of the thoughts my father planted... he's wrong, you are the only one for me, my soulmate...'

She looks at me tiredly 'I am no match for you Laufreyson... this is your opportunity, that woman... she could be a great wife, a great partner for you...'

I nod 'she could... but nothing could ever match to you... if even the slightest part of you wants me don't throw it away on a whim you think I'd be happier because I wouldn't'

She furrows her brows 'you don't know if you'd be happier because you haven't given it a chance...'

'Like you have with us? You know why I wouldn't be happy?'

She shakes her head

'Because I can't love someone when them feelings already exist elsewhere...'

She shakes her head 'you don't love me lo... you don't know me... the raw parts of me. The things that have happened...'

'I may not know them but I know in over a thousand years of existence I have never felt this way... I have never cared for someone as much as I have you. I love you y/n... if you don't then fine I will stop, I will leave this but if even the slightest part of you feels the same tell me, let me back in...'

She sits there stunned, no words could form.

'My heart wants you, I want you... in all my years of living a life where love was unheard of I have also never felt this feeling for no other... the pain when we are apart, the feeling of home your bring with your touch... I do love you but that doesn't mean I'm right for you...'

I take her hand and bring it to my chest 'does this feeling not feel right? Do you not feel the connection we share?'

She looks up towards me, I grab her jaw lightly and pull her in for a kiss. It was deep, passionate. I pull away and look into her eyes.

'You are the only right being to exist for me... my heart beats for you, I breathe for you, I would trade places to bare your pain... you are more than enough for me. You are the one who makes me better, let me do that for you...'