Mind's Alike // LokixF!mReader

Part 62 - Two Lonley Souls

We walk out from the hall, my chest hurt. Was he right in some cruel way? Loki would never be fulfilled with me, I would hold him back.

'What was that actually about?' Loki asks in a hushed tone

'Nothing... told you I'd mess up' I say brushing it off

He looks to me unsure before I'm embraced into a hug with Frigga

'It's lovely to meet you dear... I have heard great things...'

I smile gently 'it's nice to meet you too, the boys always talk about you' I reply

She smiles widely 'you all must attend our feast tonight, given you boys have returned and you have brung a guest'

Loki rolls his eyes 'must we mo-'

She nods 'you must... now go show y/n here around, I'm sure she will want to see everything we have to offer...'

Thor offers his arm and I take it 'where are we off to?'

'The warriors three!' He booms

Loki rolls his eyes, I grab his arm and pull him along to follow.

We head towards another hall where we could hear voices ringing out from.

'Friends!' Thor booms

They all come over a collection of hugs exchanged Thor swings his arm around my shoulders.

'This here is my Midgardian friend lady y/n...'

Lovely to meet you lady y/n Thor has spoke such good things about you, I'm Hogun'

I do a little curtsy and smile lightly 'lovely to meet you.'

'She is tiny! Lovely to meet you m'lady, I'm Volstagg!' He booms

I do the same and smile and curtsy 'tiny?' I ask turning to Thor

'Don't worry lady y/n I spoke the same on Stark'

I giggle lightly, Thor was a character for sure.

I feel my hand lifted and a kiss planted on it 'lady Y/n Thor forgot to mention your beauty... an honour it is to meet you, I am Fandral,..'

I laugh lightly 'a true heartbreaker I'm sure...' I say

A woman approaches laughing 'something like that... I'm Sif'

I smile 'a woman, thank god' I say

She laughs 'trust me I feel the same, are you a warrior?'

'I-'

'She is of the Avengers, one of the most powerful...' Thor booms

'We must duel!' She says excited

'Sif I don't think now is the time...' Loki responds

She rolls her eyes 'fine, we must soon though!'

We all chat for a while, they talk on there wars and fights they had been on together. I found it amazing, they were all amazing beings and had so many stories to tell.

Loki had been quiet the whole time, he was clearly uncomfortable. I turn to the table 'Loki wasn't there that place you wanted to show me?' I ask

He smiles 'yes, we will catch up to you later Thor...'

I smile 'it was lovely meeting you all... I'll see you soon'

There's a collection of byes, I follow Loki out the room.

'You didn't have to do that..' he says

I nod 'I know... but you seemed left out, at least this way I get to do what I came for and see all the places you love'

He smiles. We continue walking through the halls until we arrive at this massive door.

'After you...' he says

I look at the door excited and push it open. I'm greeted with a massive space filled with ceiling high shelves and grand velvet furniture. The shelves collected with books almost spooing over.

The grand chandelier light the room up leaving a warm glow to linger. 'This is- is amazing!'

'Beats Starks..' he replies with a smirk

I smile widely 'for sure!... don't tell him I said that'

He nods 'go, pick anything you want..'

I run off like an excited toddler in a candy store. I brush my hands against the spines of the books there were so many. All were fascinating.

I stop on one 'you know this book?' Loki asks

I smile 'WAS as she slept that Cupid came, His bow and arrows taking, That she might feel his power in dreams Who scorned his weapons waking...'

'Well.. carry on...' Loki says

I sigh and turn to him 'As o'er her sleeping form he poised The shaft that oft had missed her Her beauty touched his roguish heart- He only stooped and kissed her.

Since when, upon her fair soft cheek, Love's amorous imprint keeping, A charming dimple marks the place Where Cupid kissed her, sleeping.'

He looks to me 'you are full of mystery darling...'

I smile shyly taking my hands off the books 'as a kid in a foster home I used to read a lot... anything, it was an escape. A way for me to escape reality and dream of something more...'

He nods 'I used reading for similar reasons... Thor was the golden boy and I was the outsider... my mother was the one to introduce me to this space... a room filled with words, feelings... opportunity'

'Two lonely souls...' I say

He looks to me 'well we found eachother...'

I felt his body inching toward me, the space between us closing in. My heart fluttered at the man in front of me, the man my heart wanted.

I shake off my feeling and step away, he may have been the man I was supposed to be with but I wasn't the woman he deserved... Odin was right he deserved more... an opportunity.

'Y/n...'

'No we can't keep doing this... I'm broken, I will ruin you, you deserve opportunity, someone better...'

He looks to me confused 'why are you saying this? I want you y/n... everything that comes with that, the hurt, pain, insecurities... there is no one better for me your smart, powerful, beautiful... where is this coming from?'

I look at him sadly he's feelings were true but that didn't change it, it didn't change the fact I was wrong for him.

'No where... you're truly an incredible man, I just I can't put you through the trauma I carry... you need someone who understands this all, someone of status, power... someone worthy of you...'

His green eyes glass over, I feel the pain that radiates off him, the anger. 'Why are you doing this?! Why push me away?! Why ruin every relationship you build?!'

'Because Loki I'm not good! I'm not an all powerful being that does right, I kill, murder! I'm not fit for a god, the script is wrong! I am not your soulmate! And nor should I ever be'

He steps back, I feel my heart drop.

'Me and you are not alike... your life here is different, we are different... I'm not built for this, for love... you know that...' I state

He stands there, I feel a number of feelings mixed. Some may have been my own, never had I been more confused and overwhelmed. Nothing had hurt as much as this. Me hurting the man I wanted even if I knew it were for the right reasons.

'Stark was right... your not our y/n...'