Querencia

Twenty Nine

You're beginning to feel less like a friend and more like home - faraway

Carrie's POV

"Car, you okay?" Princess asked knocking on the door. She was a girl in Ss2 that I was friends with.

"I am good, I just have bad cramps" I replied.

"Okay then I'll see you tomorrow then" She told me before leaving.

I felt so pathetic, was I going to run forever. I felt my self spiralling down that same hole like 3 years ago. I was still sulking when I got a text.

Demon incarnate - 8:06pm

Guess what baby, I will be in school tomorrow 😏🤪🙂

I shuddered in fear as dread washed over me, he was going to be back tomorrow. I felt the need to numb this pain, I managed to buy drugs from a guy. I bought Oxycodone. I needed something as strong as morphine to numb my pain. I took a tablet of morphine and Oxycodone and swallowed. The effects kicked in almost immediately. I felt lighter, no, I couldn't feel at all. I felt untouchable, I was going to start taking this every single day.

"I feel so drowsy" I mutter to myself smiling foolishly.

I managed to haphazardly keep my drugs where no one can see it, before passing out flat on my bed.

.....

"Wake up sleepy head, school starts in an hour" Bisi said ripping the sheets off me as I groaned loudly.

The effects of the drugs had not completely faded, so I still felt numb a bit and I liked it. I laughed to myself earning looks from my friends.

"Oops" I giggled.

"O..kay" Avery said feeling creeped out "that's totally normal, I guess".

"You guys shouldn't wait for me, I am coming late for assembly. I have something to do at the health bay first" I half lied.

"Hmm" Chika replied straightening her hair.

I stared at the straightener Chika held in her hand.

"Stop please just stop, please" I cried as he pressed it to my skin and I screamed.

"It turns me on when you scream, scream more" He chuckled pressing it more onto my skin.

I was thankful to the drugs because it numbed me from feeling as I had this unpleasant remembrance. I felt oddly okay and I knew it was not permanent but I craved it so if I can't get this naturally, I substitute with drugs.

"Babes you good, you've been staring at me" Chika said.

"Sorry, I was just fascinated by the new hair length" I lied.

I smiled at her before gathering my stuffs to the bathroom.

....

When I was done with freshening up, the room was empty and I was happy about that. I popped the pills in my mouth after dressing up. I felt ready for whatever happens today.

After helping the nurses, I dragged myself to assembly, boring shit. As I walked, I felt like I was floating on cloud 9, damn I was high as hell. I tripped and felt but luckily someone caught me. The face of the person was blurry.

"Amanda" Kamsy called

"Kam Kam, hii" I giggled stupidly

"Are you high or drunk which one sef?" He asked and I regained my senses for a moment. I wriggled out of his hold.

"Nope, I just wanted to see your reaction" I replied trying to keep myself steady.

"Hmm" he muttered before helping me to walk "Talk to someone that can help you, Carrie. We are all here for you".