Seducing Mr. Antisocial |WARNING: R-18|

Chapter 17 Part 2

Pumikit ang binata at isinuklay ang mga daliri sa buhok nito. "F*ck it."

Her world spun and her knees felt wobbly.

A virgin. A f*cking virgin.

"You were...you were..." Hindi niya matapos ang sasabihin niya.

Rumagasa sa isipan niya ang lahat ng mga sitwasyong kasama ang binata. Ang pagkailang nito sa kanya, ang pag-tense nito kapag malapit siya. Goddamn it. Of course he was a virgin! And she practically molested him!

Inis na tumalikod ang binata at tinungo ang grand staircase. Hinaklit niya ito sa likod.

"Don't you dare turn your back on me. We're talking about this!"

"I don't want to talk!"

"Evan!"

"Yes, fine! You're my first, goddamn you." Hinila nito ang braso at kumuyom palad sa galit.

Wala sa sariling nahawakan niya ang noo. Parang may sumuntok sa kanyang sikmura "But...but..."

"But what?" he roared.

Pilit niyang hinanap ang mga salita, at pinaglabanan ang prustrasyon sa sarili niyang tiyan. "You didn't...you didn't act like it was your first time."

"Thank God." Napuno ng uyam ang asul nitong mga mata.

"Stop it! This is not a joke! You should have told me!"

"Why the hell should I tell you?" he shot back.

"Because you should have!"

"Oh yeah? Says who?"

"You think this is funny?" Hinampas niya ito. "It's not! Goddamn it, you should have–"

"Goddamn, Lavinia. Why the hell is this big deal? So what if you're my first? Bakit natin kailangang palakihin 'to? It's done! It's f*cking over, not let's f*cking move on."

"You were good at it," she hissed as if she didn't hear his words. "I didn't think you were–"

"At least you thought I was good. Now f*cking drop it."

She shook her head and clenched her teeth. "I should have known. I should have... But you didn't act...You're too goddamn good to be a virgin so I didn't think..."

"Thanks," he said, his eyes weary, but his lips curved into a small smile. "I was really worried about that."

"That's not a compliment! You should have told me!"

"Why the f*ck would I do that?" Bumalik ang inis ni Evan. Napuno ng prustrasyon ang malaki nitong bulto, at umigting ang matitigas na mga kalamnan nito. "I'm not exactly proud I was still virgin at twenty nine. Not when it concerns you. And yeah, it has something to do with my fragile masculine ego. Now I'm done talking about it."

"Why?" she bit out.

He laughed viciously, his icy blue eyes glowing like cold flame. "Are you seriously asking me that? In case you haven't noticed, I'm antisocial. I don't like being around people. And I'd never thought virginity was a burden. Not until I met you anyway. And then you came, and I wish I wasn't, so I wouldn't be so goddamn awkward around you! F*ck! I'm not talking about this!"

Pulang-pula ang mukha nito. Sa galit o pagkapahiya ay hindi niya sigurado. Pareho siguro.

Ginising siya noon.

Hinihiya niya ito sa ginagawa niya. She was treating him like a child. Na para bang hindi nito alam ang sitwasyong pinasok nito. Insulto iyon.

But still...

Nagtagis ang kanyang mga ngipin.

Pakiramdam niya ay pinagsamantalahan niya ito. She was older. More experienced. And she took advantage of his inexperience without even realizing it.

Marahas siyang umiling. "Okay. Okay. Let's talk. Let's talk like civilized adults–"

"What the f*ck is there to talk about?"

"The fact that I probably corrupted you?" Humakbang siya at inis na tinusok ng hintuturo ang matigas nitong dibdib. "Took advantage of you?"

Nanlaki ang mga mata ni Evan at tinitigan siya na para bang nasisiraan na siya ng ulo. He laughed. The bastard actually laughed at her.

"You bastard! This is not funny!"

"Well it f*cking is," he snapped. "Nasaan ka ba nung ginagawa natin 'yon sa may ilog, sa kitchen, sa k'warto ko, sa beach, sa sala? Wala ka ba do'n? In case you haven't noticed, I f*cking enjoyed it. I'm an adult, Lavinia. I may not be as liberated as you are, not as smart as you are, but I know what I'm goddamn doing. I'm not a f*cking child!"

"That's not the point! You should have–"

"I said stop it!"

Pinigilan niya ang pagnanais na sumigaw sa prustrasyon. Think, goddamn it. She needed to goddamn think.

"Fine." Nagtaas siya ng tingin kay Evan, pinilit ang sariling maging risonable. "Fine. You're an adult. You make your choices. You're responsible for them. It was consensual. Nothing wrong with that. I'm sorry for insulting you. Hindi ko sinasadya. I was just...rattled."

"Good. Now drop it and swear never to bring it up again."

"Sure. Fine." Niyakap niya ang sarili dahil parang nilalamig siya.

Evan swallowed, his blue eyes still dark from frustration. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to lash out at you."

Umiling siya. "No, it's perfectly understandable. You're angry. You're insulted. It's my fault. Partly your uncle's too. But he's just worried about you."

"I know."

Nanatili silang nakatayo roon, tensiyonado pa rin, puno pa rin ng prutasyon.

They were adults. There's no power play here. Walang na-agrabyado, walang nang-agrabyado. Perfectly healthy. Partly ay tama ang tiyuhin ng binata. Mabuti ito para kay Evan. She had to stop feeling like she molested him just because it was his first time.

"Lavinia."

Itinaas niya ang titig kay Evan. Nakatiim bagang ang binata, at pilit nitong niluwagan ang nakakuyon nitong mga palad.

"Are we okay now?" he asked.

Nang hindi siya umimik ay inabot siya ni Evan at dinala sa dibdib nito. Gusto niya iyong labanan, pero wala siyang magawa kung hindi ang yumakap din dito.

"Tell me we're okay," he murmured, his hands restlessly running up and down her back. "I'm sorry...this is just..."

Humigpit ang yakap nito at isinubsob ang mukha sa kanyang leeg. Mariin siyang pumikit at sumiksik din sa dibdib ng binata.

"I'm sorry." He hugged her tighter. "Tell me we're okay."

"I think you still should have told me."

Umungol ang lalaki, at marahang pinisil ang kanyang katawan. Binuhat siya nito, at umupo ito sa may unang baitang ng hagdan. She curled into him, drowning herself in his warmth.

His heart thudded beneath her cheek. Thud. Thud. She closed her eyes concentrated on his heartbeat.

"Evan?"

"Hmm?"

"Did I come too strong on you? Made you uncomfortable? Did I–"

Umungol ang binata at inibaon ang mukha sa kanyang buhok. "I thought we swore never to talk about that again."

Bumuntong hininga siya at pumikit.

Magulo pa rin ang isip niya, pero ayaw niya munang isipin lahat.

Did you make it clear to him it won't last?

Kumuyom palad siya sa dibdib ng binata.

No. She'll think about everything later.

"Evan?" usal niya.

"Hm?" Pinaglaro nito ang mga daliri sa kanyang maalong buhok.

"I'm happy I'm your first."

Humigpit ang yakap ng lalaki. "I'm happy, too."