DANCE WITH THE DEVIL

Part 39 - I'm willing to lose like that if it's you

Warning!

The content in this chapter will be somewhat mature. Still struggling to write romantic parts, hope you like it.

Kinn POV

For four hours, Porsche was all over me like a madman, as if trying to break me apart. He kissed me hard, filling the air with his scent, which made it impossible for me to control myself.

"Porsche... I love you..." I said.

"I know..." he replied.

I admit that I tried to get out of him that he loves me too, but I know that I will agree to work for it.

I flipped Porsche onto the bed and spread his legs to make my way forward, kissing his neck, but when I reached the nape of his neck, Porsche pushed me away.

"Don't touch me there..." Porsche asked softly.

"Okay, I'm sorry..."

"Kinn, I'm sorry..." he apologized, his face downcast.

"For what?" I asked, holding him close and kissing his chest through his shirt.

"For this... and if there are days when I pull away from you or treat you poorly... please forgive me, don't distance yourself from me."

"Porsche, I would follow you to hell if I had to."

"Mr. Theerapanyakul... I'd drag you along even if you didn't want to come," he said with a faint smile.

"Kinn..."

"What?" I said softly, I knew he wanted to say something that would be hard for me to hear.

"I want to marry you," he said.

"Me too." I was happy momentarily when I saw his expression, which was sad, and I already knew what he wanted to tell me. "But you'd like me to not mark you... wouldn't you?"

"I am sorry," he said again with the same sad expression.

"Don't be sorry; as long as you're by my side, I don't care about anything," I admit that I do care, but I don't want to pressure him, I want him to be with me.

I think this was the first real, honest conversation we ever had.

"What do you say we take a walk on the beach?" I suggested, feeling it would do us both good.

"Hmm, but let's go for another round first..." Porsche teased.

***

Porsche and I walked along the beach as the water touched our feet. I have to admit, sometimes I wonder if the reason Porsche sleeps with me is because he's trying to forget everything that happened at Ling's house. Most of the time, I'm the one who initiates when we sleep together. I'm afraid to ask him if it's true. I hate myself for even having these thoughts... but even if he doesn't love me, at least he's by my side. Holding his hand fills me with so much joy that I think I might lose my mind.

("Ahh.")

("Ah") We heard sounds in the distance.

"Do you hear that?"

"It sounds like a hurt bird..." I said.

"Let's go check it out," Porsche suggested, and I followed him toward the sounds.

"I think it's coming from over here..." Porsche said.

"What the hell..."

Tankhun and Arm were doing something I wish I'd never seen... This image is going to stay burned in my mind forever. Porsche grabbed my hand and ran with me away from the scene.