DANCE WITH THE DEVIL

Part 18 - Can you help me

Morning

I woke up alone- in bed and saw Kinn's side bed was empty, and I felt my eyes swollen and red.  

I dragged myself to the shower and looked at myself in the mirror. 'I'm just pathetic,' I thought. I was frustrated with myself, I became the thing I hated the most, a dependent omega, who clung to alpha. I slept with him- last night and not because he wanted it. I wanted it; I wanted to feel safe. In the end, Kinn was right: I couldn't even protect myself... So, how could I possibly protect my family?

Kinn entered the bathroom, and I could see his glare reflected at me through the mirror. "Why are you up so early? The doctor said you need to rest,"

"I want to go study,"

"But I can't go with you to class today- I have a meeting," he said.

"So?"

"I will talk with Big to give you a ride.... and protect you,"

"I don't want to," he's trying to take control of my life.

"Porsche, stop being stubborn,"

"I can go by myself,"

"What if someone tries to harm you again?" Kinn touched my hand gently.

"I don't care," I shoved his hand away roughly.

"Big will stand far from you, so you do not need to worry,"

"I don't want to!"

"What's wrong with you? We were fine yesterday."

"Nothing!"

"Porsche, let me help,"

"I don't want your help!"

"Then stay home today!"

"I didn't want to go anyway!" I stormed out of the bathroom and back to bed. Kinn followed and pulled the blanket.

"Your behavior is intolerable! No matter what I do, you're always angry at me!" he accused.

"That's right! So take your mark off me!"

"Are you angry about that? You are the one who came to me and asked me to mark you!"

"Don't play yourself morally, you did it to fuck me!"

"Porsche, you are exaggerating!"

"Am I exaggerating? So why would you marry me? Mark me?"

"Stop!"

"Ever since we were little-you wanted to compete with me! And fucking me gives you the win! Right?!"

Slap!

Kinn slapped me, "I'm sorry... I didn't mean to,"

"After all, I'm your whore?!"

"You don't," Kinn's gaze changed; his eyes looked at me pitifully. I must look pathetic.

I started undressing and taking off all my clothes, "Come on fuck me," I touched Kinn's chest with my hand. "fuck me!"

"Stop," Kinn raised his voice and hugged me.

"After all, what else can I do but open my legs whenever you want?"

"I didn't mean it," Kinn looked away.

"Really?"

"Yes, I said that out of anger!"

"You think I believe you? You think I..."