Jahnnie Drabbles 4✿

☆"I Miss You."☆

TW: depression, regret, heartbreak, overthinking, anxiety, meltdown, throwing of objects, smoking, drinking.

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Jake is staring up at his ceiling in his bedroom. Thinking about his ex-boyfriend Johnnie. He couldn't sleep. He hasn't been as happy since he lost his best friend and lover. He lives alone. He doesn't go out, he just falls further and further into depression.

He glances at the phone on his nightstand. Picking it up, he stares at his background. It was still a photograph of the two kissing.

Jake continued to stare at the photo for a while, feeling a mixture of sadness and nostalgia.

He couldn't believe how much he missed Johnnie, and how much he wants him back.
He remembered all the happy moments they had together, the laughs, the tears, the love they shared. It was all too much to bear.

He put the phone back down and rolled over, staring at the ceiling again. He couldn't help but wonder what Johnnie was doing at that moment. Was he still mad at him? Did he still love him?

"Fuck." Jake abruptly sits up and grabbed his phone. He opened up his contacts and stared at Johnnie's phone number.

Jake stared at Johnnie's phone number, his finger hovering over the call button. He hesitated for a moment, his heart pounding in his chest.

He wanted to call Johnnie so badly, to hear his voice again and try to make things right.

But he was scared. Scared that Johnnie wouldn't answer, scared that he would hang up on him, scared that things would never be the same between them again.

Finally, he took a deep breath and pressed the call button, waiting anxiously for Johnnie to pick up.

Johnnie's phone rang, and he looked at the caller ID. Seeing that it was Jake, he hesitated for a moment, unsure if he should answer.

He had been avoiding Jake for weeks, still hurt by their breakup. But a part of him wanted to hear his voice again, to see if there was any chance of reconciliation.

He finally answered the phone, his voice quiet and cautious."Hello?"

"Hey," Jake spoke softly into the phone. "I miss you." He admits as he leaned back in his bed. His eyes depressingly staring up at his ceiling.

Johnnie's heart skipped a beat at Jake's words. He hadn't expected him to say that, especially after everything that had happened between them.

"I miss you too," he replied, his voice trembling slightly. He was silent for a moment, trying to gather his thoughts.
"Why are you calling me?"

"To apologize. I shouldn't have reacted that way at that party." Jake bit the inside of his cheek.

Johnnie's grip on his phone tightened as he listened to Jake's apology. He was still hurt by what had happened, but hearing Jake's remorse made him feel a glimmer of hope.

"You shouldn't have," he said quietly. "But it's not just about that party, Jake. It's about everything that led up to it. You've been distant, and I've felt like I don't even know you anymore."

Jake's heart began to ache, "I know, i just- i shouldn't have pushed you away, i shouldn't have yelled those hurtful things to you." He was on the verge of tears.

Johnnie could hear the pain in Jake's voice, and it made him feel even worse. He wanted to comfort him, but he was still hurt himself.

"I don't know what to say, Jake," he said softly."You really hurt me. I thought we were in love, but then you started pulling away and acting like you didn't care. I felt like I was losing you."