Jahnnie Drabbles 4✿

☆"I Miss You"Pt2☆

Request: SaturnMoon714

[ Jake has a meltdown because he still feels bad for hurting Johnnie even though they're back together :') ]

Tw: depression, meltdown, anxiety, self doubt, Overstimulation, sensory overload , panic attack, brief s/h

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It was late at night. Jake and Johnnie were sleeping and cuddling together when suddenly Jake woke up in the middle of the night. He looks over at Johnnie, admiring his slept in makeup face as he rests.

Before he felt a sudden ache in his heart. He still feels bad for hurting his boyfriend a few weeks ago. Since they recently moved back in together and forgave each other. However Jake still feels bad. He quietly and sneakily exits the bed.

Johnnie was sleeping peacefully, his arms wrapped around Jake's pillow, holding it tight. He was still asleep, unaware of Jake's sudden departure from the bed. He stirred a little, mumbling something in his sleep before snuggling deeper into the pillow.

Jake's hands began to shake. He felt it coming on.. he didn't know why really. His emotions stirred more into his head and he kept shaming himself. He ended up sitting in the corner of the room. Hitting his head on the wall and grabbing at his hair.

Johnnie suddenly woke up from the noise. He sat up, rubbing his eyes as he looked around the room. When he saw Jake sitting in the corner, his heart dropped.

He quickly got out of bed and rushed over to him, his expression full of concern."Jake... what's wrong? Why are you hitting yourself?"

But Jake wasn't.. there. He was still hitting his head and now starting to hit the sides of his head with his balled fists. He started to hyperventilate.

Johnnie's eyes widened in shock and fear as he saw Jake in such a state. He quickly grabbed Jake's wrists, trying to stop him from hurting himself.

"Stop it Baby! Please, stop!" He pleaded, his voice filled with desperation."You're hurting yourself, you need to calm down!"

Jake hides his face into Johnnie's chest, hyperventilating before he lifted his head and stared at Johnnie. "I'm sorry i just had a dream about you breaking up with me- and im so sorry for hurting you last time- i don't deserve you and im so sorry Johnnie, i didn't mean to make things awkward between us i swear and I'm sorry for fighting with you before in the past I don't know why i was like that and-"

Johnnie's heart ached as he listened to Jake's words. He wrapped his arms tightly around him, holding him close as he spoke.

"-Hey, hey Jake, shh... It's okay. I'm not going anywhere, I promise. I'm here with you, and I forgive you. You don't need to apologize for everything, alright? We've moved past all that."He gently stroked Jake's hair, trying to calm him down.

Jake started to calm down from his hair being petted. Before he lifted up his head again, he looked on the verge of a meltdown.

Johnnie noticed the look on Jake's face and his heart sank. He knew that Jake was still struggling with his emotions.

"It's okay, just breathe," he said softly, his voice gentle and soothing."You're safe here with me. I'm not going to leave you, I promise. I love you, okay?"

Jake's breathing became more rapid and erratic as he struggled to control his emotions. His body trembled, and tears streamed down his face. He was visibly distressed, his eyes darting around the room as if he was trapped in a nightmare. He was overwhelmed with guilt and anxiety, unable to process his feelings properly.