Jahnnie Drabbles 4✿

☆Johnnie's Overthinking!☆

[ TW: overthinking, anxiety, panic, worry, panic attack, racing thoughts, crying episode, freakout ]

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Johnnie couldn't sleep tonight. His mind is racing on Jake Webber. He hides his face into his pillow and mumbles in self doubt, "fuck, he's never gonna love me like that.. why do i love him like that..?" He sits up and messes up his emo hair, huffing.

Jake had heard Johnnie's mumbling and he slowly sat down next to him, gently putting a hand on his shoulder.

"Johnnie...?"

"Gah!?" Johnnie exclaimed in anxiety as he realized. "Wh- when the fuck did you come in here?! You didn't knock on my fuckin' door!!"

Jake chuckled softly, gently rubbing his back to try and calm him down.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. You were just mumbling and I wanted to see what was wrong..."

Johnnie scoffed, "Nothing. Okay." He bickered as he pushed Jake's hand off and crossed his Arms.

Jake's eyebrows furrowed, and he gently grabbed his chin, forcing him to look at him."Don't give me that bs. You're clearly upset. I can tell."

"Get the fuck off my back!" Johnnie huffed as he got off the bed. His hands visibly shaking as he was holding back tears.

Jake stood up and followed him, gently grabbing his arm."Johnnie, stop. Please. I'm just trying to help."

"Well I don't need it!" Johnnie freaked out as he felt himself start to panic. He steps back and hit his back against the wall. He slides down it with shaking hands.

Jake's eyes widened in worry as he saw him start to panic. He quickly knelt down in front of him, gently grabbing his hands to try and stop them from shaking."Johnnie, look at me. Please. You're okay, I promise."

"No!" Johnnie raised his voice as he pinches his tatted hand, trying to calm his nerves but be continues to have a panic attack. Tears filling his eyes as they rolled down his cheeks.

Jake gently grabs his wrists to stop him from pinching himself."Hey, don't do that. It's okay, you're okay. I'm here, just focus on me."

Johnnie lashed out and squirmed, "LET GO OF ME! I SWEAR TO GOD!" He screamed.

Jake held onto his wrists firmly, not letting go. He was worried about him, and he didn't want him to hurt himself."Johnnie, I'm not letting go. Calm down, please."

Johnnie continued to lash out and freak out on Jake. "JAKE NO YOU DON'T GET IT! YOU'LL NEVER GET IT! I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING OR WHY I FUCKING FEEL THIS WAY!"

Jake was starting to get frustrated. He just wanted to help him, but he wasn't letting him."Yes, I do! Just let me help you, dammit! I'm not going anywhere until you calm down!"

Johnnie began to bawl his eyes out and panic. "no.. no.. no you don't... No.. no you won't.. you won't love me.. you don't love me.."

Jake's expression softened as he heard Johnnie's words. He gently let go of his wrists and cupped his face, making him look at him."Johnnie, look at me. I do love you. I love you so much."

Johnnie lashed out, pushing Jake back. "Stop it! Stop lying to.me!!!" He overthinks as he shakes his head. "I know you don't love me like that!!"

Jake stumbled back a bit, but he quickly regained his balance. He looked at Johnnie with a mix of concern and determination.

"I'm not lying to you Johnnie! I'm being serious! I love you more than anything, and I don't care if you don't believe me!"

Johnnie covered his face with his hands and continued to hyperventilate. Crying and pleading, "stop please stop please.. please stop lying.."