Jahnnie Drabbles 4✿

☆Over-Apologizing☆

Request: emogxilbert

[ Johnnie feels over apologetic and is overthinking every little thing and Jake is there to help ease his anxiety ]

cw: anxiety, extreme worry, anxious behavior

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For the past few weeks, Johnnie has been on edge lately. For every little thing and is constantly apologizing. At the moment he is sitting on the couch, fidgeting with his rings as he watches Jake come inside the house.

Jake immediately noticed that something was off, the second he stepped into the house and saw Johnnie on the couch, fidgeting with his rings.

He quietly closed the door behind him, before approaching the other and sitting down next to him, wrapping his arms around him gently.

Johnnie got startled and immediately pulled back, "Oh shit- hi! I didn't see you even come in, I'm sorry I should've responded to your text earlier I don't know why i didn't.."

"Hey, hey, hey, relax."
Jake gently placed his hand on Johnnie's thigh to stop him from pulling away even further."I don't care about that right now. I can see you're stressed. What's wrong?"

"I don't know, I'm sorry" Johnnie apologized again as he got up. "It's nothing really okay?"

Jake watched as Johnnie stood up, and quickly followed suit. He grabbed Johnnie's wrist gently and pulled him back to the couch."No, it's not okay." He said firmly.

"Sorry!" Johnnie apologized again and looked down, sitting next to Jake again on the couch. "Don't be mad, i just don't know what's going on I've been anxious and I don't know why, fuck, I'm so sorry."

Jake let out a sigh, gently pulling Johnnie into his lap so that he was straddling him. He gently placed his hands on the other's hips, his touch soft and reassuring.

"Stop apologizing. I'm not mad at you, I'm just worried." He said gently, using one of his hands to lift Johnnie's chin so that they were making eye contact.

Johnnie blushed at his boyfriend's touch, looking up at Jake with a sigh. His eyes get teary. "No I'm sorry for feeling this way,"

Jake's heart ached at the sight of Johnnie's teary eyes. He gently brushed his thumb across his cheek, wiping away a tear that had escaped.

"Baby... don't apologize for feeling a certain way. You can't control how you feel." He said softly, pulling Johnnie closer to him and wrapping his arms around his waist tightly.

Johnnie tucked his face into Jake's shoulder. "I feel bad because I'm doubting that you really love me and I'm sorry."

Jake's grip on Johnnie tightened when he heard those words, a mixture of shock and sadness washing over him.

"Why the hell would you doubt that I love you..?" He asked, his voice filled with concern and a hint of hurt.

Johnnie pulled back and stepped away from Jake. His hands visibly shaking. "I don't know! I'm just getting to much in my fucking head and I'm gonna ruin everything!"

Jake felt a pang in his chest as Johnnie stepped away from him, and the sight of his shaking hands only made him more worried.

"No, no, no, no. You're not going to ruin anything." He said firmly, getting up from the couch and walking over to Johnnie. He grabbed his hands gently, trying to soothe the shaking.

Johnnie sniffles, "But I've heen doubting you.. i doubted myself because i don't think i deserve your love and affection and i feel bad and I'm so fucking sorry just don't be mad at me."

"Baby, listen to me."

Jake cupped Johnnie's face in his hands, forcing him to look up at him. He looked into his eyes with a mixture of concern and affection.

"You deserve every ounce of love and affection I give you. You're the most amazing person I know. And it's okay to have doubts, but I need you to trust me when I say that I love you, and I always will. Got it?"

"Okay I'm sorry," Johnnie whispered the apology over and over with tears in his eyes.

Jake sighed, his heart breaking at the sight of Johnnie's tears. He pulled him into a tight embrace, wrapping his arms around him and gently rubbing his back in soothing circles.

"Shhh, baby, it's okay. Stop apologizing." He whispered, pressing a kiss to the top of Johnnie's head.

Johnnie sniffled, "Im sorry for crying and making a big deal out of this shit.." he sniffled again.

Jake gently ran his fingers through Johnnie's hair, continuing to hold him close.

"You don't have to apologize for crying. And you're not making a big deal out of anything. Your feelings are valid, and I'm here for you no matter what, okay?"

He said softly, placing another kiss on his head.

"Okay" Johnnie looked up at Jake with smudged makeup from his cries. He nodded a little before he pecked Jake's cheek.

Jake's heart skipped a beat as Johnnie pecked his cheek, and he couldn't help but smile softly at the action.

"Come on, let's get you cleaned up, baby."
He said, gently leading Johnnie towards the bathroom.

Johnnie is shakily breathing from his anxious crying as they reached the bathroom. "So you really do love me?"

"Of course I do."

Jake replied without hesitation, sitting Johnnie down on the edge of the bathtub and grabbing a washcloth. He ran it under some warm water before gently beginning to wipe away the smudged makeup on his face.

"I love you more than anything, baby."

Johnnie felt butterflies. He smiled timidly as Jake is wiping his makeup off his eyes.

Jake smiled back at him, his heart melting at the sight of Johnnie's timid smile.

"You're so beautiful, you know that?" He said, gently tilting Johnnie's chin up so he could get to the last bit of makeup.

"Even without makeup?" Johnnie asked as he is looking up at Jake with now no makeup on.

"Even without makeup."

Jake confirmed, admiring the sight of Johnnie's bare face. He gently ran his thumb across his cheek, looking at him with love and adoration."Especially without makeup."

Johnnie blushed as he get up and hugged Jake. "I love you, I'm sorry for doubting you." He apologized again.

Jake chuckled softly, returning the hug and holding Johnnie tightly against his chest.

"Baby, it's okay. You don't have to keep apologizing. I forgive you, alright?"
He said, resting his chin on top of Johnnie's head.

"alright" Johnnie glanced up at Jake with a smile rising across his face.

Jake couldn't help but smile back, his heart fluttering at the sight of Johnnie's beautiful smile.

He gently tilted Johnnie's head up again, his fingers under his chin, and pressed a soft kiss to his forehead.

"Can we go cuddle downstairs on the couch?" Johnnie asked softly as he placed a hand onto Jake's chest.

"Of course we can, baby."

Jake said, intertwining their fingers together and giving Johnnie's hand a gentle squeeze. He began to lead him back to the living room, still holding his hand.

They enter the living room and cuddled on the couch and watched movies and eventually dozed off in togetherness.

The two boys continued to sleep soundly on the couch, wrapped up in each other's arms.

Happy that they got this all sorted out.

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