Jahnnie Drabbles 4✿

☆"Scared To Love You"☆

cw: anxiety, self doubt

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Johnnie has been distant from Jake. In his head, his anxiety has been getting worse and worse, and worse. He hardly even leaves his room to even greet his boyfriend Jake anymore.

Jake’s been noticing the change in Johnnie’s behavior. He’s not stupid. He knows that something’s wrong. He’s tried everything to get Johnnie to talk to him, to open up, but it’s just not working.

So today, he had a plan. He was gonna make sure that Johnnie couldn’t avoid him anymore.

Johnnie was in the kitchen, getting something quick to drink when he heard footsteps. He tried to ignore them as he closes the fridge door after grabbing a water bottle.

Jake followed him into the kitchen and wrapped his arms around him from behind, leaning his head against his back

Johnnie sighed as he pushed his boyfriend Jake lightly back and then went upstairs, still avoiding him.

Jake pouted at the light push and followed him upstairs, not giving up.“Cmon.. what’s wrong, love..?” He asked, still trailing behind him .

"Leave me alone," Johnnie replied as he walked down the hallway.

Jake continued to follow him, not leaving him alone as he said“Nope. Not until you tell me why you’re being all moody.”

He caught up to him and wrapped his arms around him again, pulling him into a tight back hug.

Johnnie huffed, "Jake, no.." as he pushed him back again. This time, his hands are shaking as he walked down the hallway and into his room, shutting the door and locking it.

“Hey! Don’t slam the door on me!”
Jake exclaimed and went to open the door, but found it locked. He groaned and knocked.“Let me in, baby..!”

Johnnie is sitting on the floor. His hands shaking as he looked at the door. "No, I can't..!"

Jake was getting worried now. His banging on the door got a little more frantic as he pleaded with him

“Babe, please.. please open the door. I’m sorry for whatever I did. Please let me in..”

Johnnie sighed, "No, I can't. You didn't do anything wrong it's my fault." As he stared at the door with teary eyes.

Jake paused for a moment as he listened to his boyfriend speak. He then pressed his forehead against the door, a worried expression on his face“What do you mean it’s your fault? Can you please just let me in so we can talk?”

Johnnie sighed, knowing Jake wont budge. He gets up and unlocked the door and opened it.

Jake stumbled forward a bit as the door opened suddenly, and he took in the sight of his boyfriend standing in front of him. He looked at him up and down before noticing his shaking hands

“Babe..”
He mumbled softly and quickly stepped into the room, shutting the door behind him and grabbing his wrists gently.

Johnnie sniffled, "No.. dont call me that.." he shakes his head as his voice sounded anxious.

Jake frowned and gently pulled him closer, looking at him with a worried expression. He wrapped his arms around his waist and pulled him into a tight embrace, resting his chin on his head“Shhh.. don’t say that.. I’m always going to call you babe, baby..”

"No, don't say that either, especially not that!" Johnnie cried out as he is trembling in Jake's arms.

Jake’s eyes widened a bit as his boyfriend started crying, and he hugged him even tighter. He was beyond confused and worried, trying to figure out what the hell was wrong.