Jahnnie Drabbles 4✿

☆Johnnie's Overwhelmed☆

Request: SaturnMoon714

[ Johnnie is feeling overwhelmed and depressed and his boyfriend Jake is there to help him feel better by taking care of him and making sure he gets the care and necessities he needs <3 ]

TW: depression, mention of bad hygiene, not properly taking care of self, anxiety, mental illness, overwhelming feelings, crying, self conscious, bad self image issues

Please skip if uncomfortable

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"Hey Baby?" Jake called as he walked upstairs after being out for a few hours. He is heading towards Johnnie's room, realizing that Johnnie (once again) hasn't left his room.

For context, Johnnie has been not leaving his room, not sleeping or eating, not bathing or taking care of himself at all for the past week or so. And Jake is worried for his boyfriend.

Jake's words went straight to Johnnie's heart, he didn't even respond to him as he was currently in bed, under the covers. He was just staring at the wall in front of him, he didn't have the energy to do anything else.

"Baby?" Jake said again as he opened the door. Noticing the lump of blankets. He smiled sheepishly and shuts the door. He approached Johnnie and sat down on the edge of the bed. Placing a hand onto Johnnie's back. "Honeyy..."

Johnnie felt Jake's hand on his back, he let out a quiet hum in response but still made no attempt to look at him or say anything. His mind was too tired to think about anything else than staying in bed.

"I think it's time to get up." Jake spoke softly. Rubbing Johnnie's back for a moment before he grabbed the blanket and pulled it off his boyfriend.

Johnnie groaned in annoyance when the blanket was taken away from him. He wrapped his arms around himself, shivering slightly as the cold air hit his body.

"Ugh... I'm cold.."
He mumbled, still not looking at Jake.

"Baby, you're worrying me. You haven't slept, you haven't ate.." Jake brought up with worry in his voice. "You've been in bed all day, actually for the past week or so."

Johnnie just curled up into a ball, not responding to Jake's words. He felt guilty for worrying him but he didn't know what to say, he just couldn't bring himself to get up and take care of himself. He felt so useless and drained.

"C'mon, my love, talk to me. I'm scared." Jake said softly as he rubbed Johnnie's back again in soft circles. "I want to know what's going on."

Johnnie felt tears well up in his eyes, his voice shaking as he spoke. He knew he couldn't keep it from Jake forever, but he was scared of admitting how bad it was.

"I-I don't know what's wrong with me.. I just... I just can't do anything..."He mumbled, his body trembling as he tried to hold back the tears.

"That's what your brain is thinking, but i know you can do so much. All you need is a little help. Let's get out of bed first, okay? Can you do that for me?" Jake asked softly.

Johnnie was hesitant for a moment, but the look in Jake's eyes made him give in. He slowly sat up, shivering slightly as the cold air hit his bare arms.

"O-Okay..."
He muttered, rubbing his eyes tiredly as he avoided looking at Jake, embarrassed by his current state.

"You can look at me, baby. I'm not gonna judge you for this." Jake smiled, sitting on the bed and wrapping an arm around his boyfriend.

Johnnie finally looked at Jake, a few tears rolling down his cheeks. He leaned into his embrace, hiding his face in Jake's shoulder as he mumbled."You're gonna think I'm pathetic..."