It was now the night before Caitlin had to leave for Switzerland, her flight was early in the morning so both girls planned on having a early night. Katie hadn't opened up again since that night, infact she had been more closed off than ever. Caitlin didn't know what to do, she knew this was Katie's way of coping, but she also knew what Katie was capable of doing when she isn't in the right mindset, and this really worried her.
"What do you feel like for dinner tonight babe" Caitlin asked as she sat on the couch beside her girlfriend. Katie didn't answer her question , instead she excused herself as she was "Tired". Caitlin knew what was happening, but bringing it up would only cause arguments and that was the last thing she wanted before they leave each other for 2 weeks. Caitlin made pasta for herself and Katie and brought it up to her room, only to find Katie sound asleep at 7pm. Caitlin walked over beside her bed and gently shock her awake. "Kates it's 7pm?" Caitlin said in a worried tone. Katie still half asleep opened her eyes "Sorry babe, I'm just really tired from training and stuff, make sure you wake me before you leave". Caitlin walked away a little hurt they weren't spending there last night together.
The next morning Caitlin woke up, and got ready. Steph had texted saying she was 5 mins away, so Caitlin walked over and gave Katie a kiss on the cheek waking Katie up. "Are you leaving?" Katie asked Caitlin in a panic, "Steph is 5 minutes away, but I'm all ready". Katie instantly woke up at the thought of Caitlin leaving and walked her to the door to say goodbye. For a moment both girls stood in silence just taking in each others presence, as they said there goodbyes Caitlin was in tears not only because she wouldn't be seeing her girlfriend for 2 weeks but also because she knew Katie wasn't well and she wouldn't be there to help. Just as Steph arrived and Caitlin walked out the door she turned to Katie. "Kates I know your struggling but please don't shut me out" Was all she said before getting into the car with Steph. Katie didn't sleep anymore that day, she spent the whole day in her room, alone.
(Flashback)
Growing up Katie was always around so many people, having 10 siblings running around, you were never alone. So when Katie made her move to London to play for Arsenal, all of a sudden there was no one around her, there was this uncomfortable silence that led Katie into a spiral. She started self-harming her first year at arsenal, no one noticed and once she adapted to her move it stoped. She started again toward the end of her relationship with Ruesha. After the break-up it started to get really bad, Katie started to restrict her eating after some targeted comments Ruesha was making. One afternoon after training, Katie was getting dressed in the change room, when Caitlin walked in. Caitlin instantly noticed the cuts all along Katie's wrist. They held eye contact but no words were spoken. Fast forward they started dating, both girls never spoke about it as Caitlin didn't want to trigger it and Katie hated talking about her feelings, so they both left it.
(Present)
Caitlin arrived in camp that afternoon and spent some time with her two best friends Alanna, and Mackenzie. After dinner Caitlin went up to her room as soon as she could to ring Katie. "Hey babe" Katie smiled as she spoke but it didn't reach her eyes, "I miss you, what did you do today" Caitlin replied , "I had to pick up a few things before I leave but mostly just watched movies and packed", Katie lied, caitlin knew but it wasn't worth pushing. "Have you had dinner yet" Caitlin asked again avoiding Katie's lie, Katie hesitated before she spoke "Uh yeh just some um chicken and rice" Katie lied again slightly embarrassed that Caitlin knew she hadn't been eating. "Kates there's some leftover pasta from last night in the fridge, heat it up and eat it, I want you to eat it on facetime with me". Caitlin spoke with a calm stern voice. Katie didn't say anything she just looked at Caitlin and did as she said. When Katie came back with her food Caitlin could tell she was struggling to eat it, so went and grabbed an apple and started eating with her. Caitlin started talking about both girls up coming games to distract Katie, it was working, until Caitlin had a knock on the door.
"Cait let us in" Alannah spoke on the other end of the door. Katie could tell Caitlin was stuck on what to do so spoke " It's okay babe I was going to head to bed anyway, goodni" Caitlin cut Katie off before she continued " No, stay there I will be back" Caitlin almost yelled as she got up to answer the banging on the door. "WHAT" Caitlin yelled out of stress, surprising herself and her two best friends. "Oh we just came to check on you, see if you were okay since you left dinner early" Macca spoke "I'm glad we did, your cleary not" Alannah added. "I'm fine I just wanted to catch Katie before she went to bed", Caitlin let out a heavy breath she didn't know she was holding, Macca and Alannah gave each other a concerned look before Alannah spoke "alright chick, come get us when you finish up on call". Caitlin just nodded as she shut the door.
Katie didn't eat anymore after that, "I'm sorry for ruining your camp, I'm going to go to bed now, talk later. I love you" Katie spoke, "Don't be silly Kates, thankyou for eating, I'm proud of you, and I love and miss you so much" Caitlin said before ending the call. Caitlin didn't want to talk right now, she was to worried about Katie, so instead of texting Macca and Lani to come over she went to bed. Both girls didn't sleep that night.
A/N ahh. I have so much i want to write about this camp, so I'm going to keep going with this little story. Once I finish I will get to some of the ideas. Hope you are enjoying so far x
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