You saved my life

Part 47

Kokichi pov:

The days went by quicker than I thought and I got more nervous each day. Me and Shuichi decided to go to the house on Saturday. And as the day came I just sat on my bed for like 2 hours. Yeah I know, pathetic. But well. I stood up and ate something and after about 3 hours shuichi picked me up. „Morning Kichi. How did you sleep?" Shuichi asked me softly while he hugged me. I sighed and decided to answer honestly. „Not so good to be honest, but that doesn't matter" I said quietly and broke the hug. „It does matter kichi."
I looked at him for some moments before taking my jacket and putting it on. „Let's just go, okay?" I muttered. Shuichi stared at me with a small worried but still soft look. He took my hand and nodded. „Okay." I looked down at our intertwined hands and suddenly felt a bit guilty. We started to walk in silence until I spoke up. „I am sorry.." „For what?" he asked confused. „For..talking to you like that. I'm not used to..someone caring about me and-"   „It's okay, don't worry about it. I didn't want you to think that I'm upset," he stopped walking and continued, „I'm not upset in any way. I just didn't talk because I didn't want to overwhelm you or make you feel uncomfortable." I looked at him, my eyes a bit wide and I couldn't help but blush a little. He laughed embarrassed at my look. „Don't look at me like that..please." „Why?" he smiles and kisses my forehead. „I-It's cute." I blinked a few times, then I laughed softly. The mood definitely lit up and so we went to the bus station. We sat down and waited for the bus. Shuichi and me watched a movie on Shuichis laptop that he usually take with himself all the time. The bus arrived and we got in. We were gonna drive for like 2 hours so we continued to watch the movie with headphones. I leaned my head on his shoulder. The rest of the drive was nothing special, but i could feel myself getting more nervous.

After we arrived and we're outside of the bus my body was shaking crazy and I couldn't control it. We were slowly walking to my village, to my house.
„everything is gonna be fine.."

„I..I know" I said hesitantly. Shuichi took my hand and so we walked together. After about five minutes we arrived. The house looked old and creepy since no one has taken care of it. The garden was a mess. „Woah.." Shuichi said quietly, „I didn't expect for the house to so big." I smiled a bit. „My Mom always loved to have a lot of space.." I said quietly and we both went to the door. I took out the dusty old key. My hand was shaking but I put the key in the lock and turned it twice. I stood for some seconds. Shuichi didn't say anything. He just stroked my back to comfort me. I felt pathetic. I couldn't even open the door in some seconds. I don't know how long we stood there, but it felt like forever. After some time I then breathed in and out deeply and pushed the door open. A dark anteroom was to be seen. I stared inside for a while before taking a step into the house. The wood creaked under my feet. It was just as I remembered. A whole closet, a big mirror on the wall and the long carpet on the floor. I looked into the mirror which was a bit destroyed. Shuichi stood beside me. „Is there a way to turn the lights?" he asked softly and I nodded. „Yeah..but i don't know if it will work.." I went to the light switch and tried to turn the light on. to my surprise it actually worked. I blinked a few times to get used to the light. I smiled at shuichi and then looked around. It was still beautiful, even though it was abandoned. I slowly went to the door of the living room and looked at Shuichi. He nodded and went beside me. I opened the door. And the comfy old living room came to sight. I smiled softly and looked around. Shuichi looked at the wall and went to it. I looked at him confused before I saw the photos on the wall. I froze for a moment. I had completely forgotten that they still existed. I walked to the photos. „Is..that your mom?" he asked softly and pointed a photo of a woman holding a baby. I nodded. „Yeah..that's her." He smiled and put the photo of the wall and held it next to me. „I-I can see where you got the looks.. Y-..You look just like her Kokichi.." I looked at him with a bit of a surprised look and looked at the photo. He was right. I nodded. „Yeah..haha.." I suddenly felt his hand going through my hair. I looked up and smiled a bit. His hand went to my cheek and he wiped a small tear from me that I didn't notice coming from my eye. Shuichi then kissed my forhead and tried to hide his blush. Shuichi still wasn't really used to being with me but I could understand him, since i also wasn't used to being together with him. I blushed softly and laughed. I then put the photo in my bag and looked at the others. I pointed at some. „That was my first day at primary school" Shuichi looked at it and chuckled softly. „You..look the exact same, just happier and smaller.."
I looked at him confused. „I'm happy with you shu.." he looked at me. „I meant healthier." I pouted a bit but then nodded. „Guess your right.."
I continued to tell Shuichi some stories and pointed at photos. Shuichi then took one of me while I was building a snowman. „I'll take that one." „Huh? Why?" He smiled gently and put it in his bag. „just cause..I..I don't know..it felt right." he went through his own hair embarrassed but I just hugged him. „Okay~" he hugged back. „How about we continue?" I broke the hug and nodded. After seeing all the photos and after talking with Shuichi and hugging him, I felt more comfortable. We both continued to go through the house until we arrived at the room of my parents and my room. „I-In wich should we go first?" I asked shuichi. „That's your choice.." I sighed and decided, that we should go to my room first. As we went in, I saw all my toys and stuffed animals. I gasped and quickly picked up a stuffed animal that looked like a cat. „That was my favorite!! Mister Kitty. I completely forgot about him."  Shuichi smiled and sat down in my bed. My room was very colorful. I smiled and sat down next to him. „I remember her telling me goodnight stories with my father." Shuichi looked at me comforting. „What stories did they tell you?" He asked and put an arm around me. „Always a made up story with animals since they were my favorite..they always ended up with them going to sleep. Heh..I always had like twenty stuffed animals in my bed..they almost couldn't see me." I laughed a bit sad even though I tried to hide it.

„My parents also always told me stories about animals" Shuichi answered. „Really?" He nodded. I smiled and stood up to search around my closet. „What are you searching for?" „For my box. I always put some drawings and other things in there. I want to take it to the dorm with me.." Shuichi nodded and helped me search for it. After looking around the whole room we found it under the bed. I smiled and opened it. „Yup..it's the right one." I said quietly and put it into my bag. I then took shuichis hand. „I need your hand..before we go to their room." „What about the office-? „I won't go in there.." I said quietly and then went to the door. He nodded understanding and I looked up at him pleading him to open the door. After some seconds of pleading shuichi gave in and opened the door. We entered the big bedroom. I looked around uncomfortably and held shuichis hand tightly. It looked so empty..
„You okay?" Shuichi asked me worriedly.
„Yeah I am..don't worry shu."
I looked through everything, wondering if I would find anything from my mother. And I did. I found a letter from her to me. I looked at it suprised. „Do you think I should open it?" I asked softly. „Well..on the envelope is written that you can't open it until your 18.." His word made me listen up more and I quickly turned the envelope around. He was right. „But why would she write a letter for me when I'm 18?" I asked confused. Shuichi only shrugged, so I decided to respect my mothers wish and put it in my bag without reading it.

After exploring the house for like four hours we went to the garden and sat down on a bench. I leaned my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. „I feel relieved.." I whispered to him. „It makes sense..you finally faced your fear.." I nodded and wanted to continue to rest my head on his shoulder but he stopped me from it. „Hey kichi..I just want you to know that you can always talk to me..okay?" „Huh? I know that Shumai-"

„I know you do...but..I just wanted you to know that you can tell me everything.."
I laughed and kissed him softly.
„No need to tell me. Your always the first person I talk to.."
He blushed but smiled back and hugged me tightly. How much I love this guy...
„Where should we sleep today? Since you..said you want to go to the graveyard tomorrow.."

Of course he would remember that.

„We could sleep in the house..but I'm not sure if I would get any sleep here.."

Shuichi looked at me.
„We could rent a hotel room for the night."
I liked that idea and quickly nodded.

„That would be nice.."
He nodded and so we stood up and walked to the hotel...

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Sooo I hope you liked the chapter, it was longer than usual so yeaaaaah. I can't believe how far we already are. I mean..soon it will be finished!! Also thank you guys so much for the 1,30 k reads!!

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