You saved my life

Chapter 46

Kokichi pov:

Its been a while since we came back from the visit. I was lying in my bed, wondering when i could ask him to visit the graveyard of my family with me.

It felt weird. I was so happy...i was scared to loose it all again. Thats why i became more clingy over the time. But Shuichi didn't really seem to mind. Another reason why i love him so much.

Right now, we were all sitting in the schoon cafeteria minding our Business. The others still didnt know that we are together and i was starting to get impatient. I was feeling so clingy and i just wqmted to hug shuichi all the time. Right now i was looking at my phone with shuichi together.

"Is there a reason that you two sit so close all the time..?" Kirumi asked kindly and looked at us confused. Shuichi blushed a bit and looked at me. We quietly stared at each other for a while.

"Its obvious why." Miu said and lookef at everyone. Kaito seemed to agree but the other didnt understand.

"Are they.." kaede started but shuichi quietly interrupted her.

"Yes..we are."

She and Kirumi started to smile and then gratulated us happily. I smiled sheepishly and just let them talk. I could feel how shuichi held my hand now and quietly started to read a book. I blushes just a tiny bit and then started to discuss some things with Miu.

After that i went to my room and sat down on my bed. I looked at my phone and saw how i got a message from my therapist. "Hello kokichi. Where you already at your old home as i told you you should?" The message said and my chest tightend a bit. No. I didnt. I didnt want to. "No. I didnt have time to" i wrote him and then put my phone away. I wanted my life to be better. I wanted to be healthy again, but the thought of going to the house..was just..uncomfortable.

I sighed and looked at the clock. I decided, that i need to have a walk to clear my thoughts. And so i did the exact thing. I went outside and took a waök in the forest. The fresh air clearing my mind and making me feel comfortable. I waled for about 30 minutes. While that i met a old woman who was very nice. I dont know why, but she told me a bit about her life, about how lonely she was. I understood her. After listening to her she wished me luck on my future and gave me a weird looking ring. I kept it in my jacket and went back to my dorm. But before i entered it i turned around and walked to shuichis dorm. I knocked on it softly and he opened it. I smiled and greeted him softly.

"Hi" i said quietly, fidging around with my fingers. Shuichi noticed that i looked a bit nervous.
"Everything okay?" He asked softly and took my hand softly. I nodded and smiles a bit. "Yeah. I just wamted to ask.if you would..go to my old house this week.."

"Your..old house?"

"Yeah..you know..where i lived as a child..."

He looked at me suprised and then nodded. "of course ill go with you kichi.", he said and kissed my forehead gently,"You Sure you are ready though?"

I nodded, making sure he understood how serious i was. He then also gave me a small nod before hugging me softly. I let out a small hum and hugged back. I could feel how he drew circles on my back, making me melt. This guy..gosh.

"You are too sweet shumai."

He smiled and then kissed my forehead once again. "Im not as sweet as you are kichi"

I giggled a bit and broke the hug. "yeah yeah right you softie. No one is as sweet as you are."

Shuichi smiled fondly and looked to the side.
"When..you say so.."

I was happy that he agreed to go with me. No. I was more than happy. He always made me feel special. "I wish i could Show him how much i truly love him" i said to myself and then did the homework while i stared at the photo in the necklace. "How did i get so lucky?" I thought and smiled softly. I was not reqlly focusing on the homework but i was just so distracted. I didnt know why.

I then heard a knock on the door and quickly closed the necklace. I opened the door only to see kaito standing there. I looked at him confused.

"What Do ya want?" I asked him. "Hey i..gosh i dont know why im asking you, but have you like..any tip for a date?"

I blinked a few times. Was he trying to ask maki out? I laughed. "Well, you dickhead. Just Do sth you both like. And if you go to a Restaurant then go to one that has her favourite food. But dont ask me. I dont date girls." I smirked and he rolled his eyes. "Of course you dont, you gay asshole."

I laughed and he sighed.
"Remind me to never ask you something again."

"Got it"

He nodded and went away. I was so confused why that idiot asked me out of everyone. I closed the door and then went to bed, thinking about the visit to the house. It worried me and the uncomfortable feeling came back. I turned around in the bed trying to get any sleep but i couldnt.

It was midnight and i gave up. I stood up, went outside and went to Shuichis room. He actually gave me the second key, so i unlocked the door and saw how shuichi slept on the bed. He looked so cute. I locked the door and then went to the bed.
I smiled and lied down beside him and put his arms around me. I buried my face into his chest. He was so comfortable and my worries were gone in seconds. I sighed and fell asleep peacefully..

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Sooo that was the chapter. I know it wasnt the best but im reaaally tired.
Anyway i hope you still liked it either way!!~