First Crush, My Forever

Chapter 19

"Nice conversation starter Dani." Taytum says with a laugh as she looks at me over her wine glass. I roll my eyes playfully as I tuck one leg under me and wait to see if she will answer. "As long as I can remember, yes, I knew I liked girls. I never thought any boys were cute, not even when I was little. What about you Dani Howard? Did you always know you liked guys?"

I take a big drink of wine as I narrow my eyes at Taytum which just causes her to laugh. "Umm, I grew up in a very traditional minded family and neighborhood. Liking guys was what was instilled as the normal. I really never thought about girls liking girls until I was in high school and that was after a party I went to. There were probably lesbians in school with me all along but if they were they kept it very well hidden."

"That party I was at, we were playing truth or dare and when it was one of my close friends' turn she picked dare. Her dare was to kiss me. We had all been drinking and it was just a quick peck on my lips. We all laughed it off and I never thought anything about it again. I definitely didn't feel anything for her. Sure I would look at girls and think they were pretty sometimes but I just assumed that was normal. I figured all girls did that. I had never been around anyone gay, at least as far as I knew, until my little sister came out to our parents." I stop talking as I get lost in my thoughts.

"Is that it?" Taytum finally asks as she pours herself another glass of wine.

I shake my head. "No. I was expecting my parents to disown Nic, kick her out or something but they didn't. They were shocked but they told her that it was her decision and she was still their daughter. They said they would love their children unconditionally no matter who they like. After that we moved here to San Antonio and have been here since. Nothing within our family changed except for the fact my sister is a whore. She doesn't really date, just sleeps around. I don't think she will ever settle down." Taytum laughs and I start laughing too. Once our laughter dies down I continue.

"My sister tells me everything because we have always been best friends even with the five year age difference between us. She tells me about her hook ups even though I don't want to know. Even with everything she tells me about how amazing her sex life is, I have never thought about being attracted to another woman until..." I stop myself before I say anything else.

"Until what Dani?" Taytum asks as I take a sip of my wine and glance at her.

Taytum is watching me with her blue eyes and dear God is she sexy. I think it's safe to say I am bisexual or maybe I'm a late in life lesbian. I don't know but I do know I have kissed her twice now and I want her. It feels like my throat goes dry as realization truly hits me so I swallow the rest of my wine and pour myself another glass as well.

"Taytum?" I ask as I lock eyes with her again and she seems to be looking into my soul.

"Hmm?" Taytum questions as I watch her lick her lips.

"Will you kiss me?" I ask as I set my wine glass down and shift closer to Taytum.

Taytum sits her wine glass down, reaches up with her other hand and gently swipes her thumb across my bottom lip. She leans forward closing the space between us and her eyes drop to my parted lips then back up to my eyes. She lightly brushes her lips against mine and it feels like the weight of the world and all my troubles just melt away. Our mouths move together slowly as we take in the moment. I part my lips and allow her to take the lead. We are slow and gentle and her tongue is like silk when I feel it sweep against mine.

I smile against Taytums lips as one of my hands rests on her hip and with the other I grab hold of her shirt. Her other hand slips around my back and she moves closer to me. As our kiss grows more passionate my heart is beating rapidly and suddenly I feel like the temperature in the room has increased. I feel like I am on fire and desperate for her touch. Slowly I lay back on the couch pulling Taytum with me and her legs straddle each side of my body. I feel the slight pressure of her body on mine and it sends a flutter from my stomach to between my legs.

I have never kissed someone with so much passion before. The kiss alone ignited a fire inside me. Taytum pulls away slightly for both of us to catch our breath because we are both breathing heavily. I look into her eyes and notice her blue eyes have darkened and her pupils are dilated. I pull Taytum back in by the back of her neck and crash our lips back together. She traces my bottom lip with her tongue then slides her tongue between my lips again and I moan into her mouth. I wrap my arms around Taytum's shoulders and roll my hips against her. She kisses down my jaw to my neck and lightly grazes her tongue against my skin. I gasp as she reaches my sweet spot where my neck meets my shoulder.

I moan as I grab Taytum's shirt trying to pull her closer. I roll my hips against her again as she lightly sucks on my neck but careful to not leave a mark. Being this close to Taytum and feeling her against me like this is almost intoxicating. I pull her lips back to mine and moan softly as my tongue explores her mouth in a passionate kiss. "Taytum, touch me." I whisper.

Taytum groans as she pulls away from my lips, breaking our kiss and rests her forehead against mine as we are both breathing heavily from our kiss once again. "Dani... I can't."

"Touch me... please." I beg because I want her so bad. "It's... it's been a little over four years. I want you Taytum, I need you to touch me."

Taytum holds herself up and looks down at me." Dani... trust me, I want you too. God, do I want you but not tonight. Not like this and not with KK upstairs. I respect and care about you and your daughter to much. I want it to be special and I don't want you to have to be quiet. I want to be able to hear you be as loud as you want." She moves off of me and sits back on the couch with her chest heaving as she takes deep breaths to calm herself down.

I take the opportunity and climb onto Taytum's lap. I place soft kisses across her jaw as I work my way to her lips, capturing them in a deep kiss that makes my own head spin. I pull away and caress her cheek. "How are you so perfect? You always know the right things to say."

Taytum laughs, "I'm not perfect Dani but like I said, I respect you and I honestly want our first time to be special because you deserve that and so much more. I want you to feel like the most beautiful, cherished and loved woman in the world when I make..."

Taytum's words are cut short when her phone starts ringing. I move off of her lap so she can get to her phone since it's on the coffee table. "It's my mom," she says as she answers it.

"Everything okay?" I ask as Taytum ends the very short phone call.

Taytum smiles, "yeah, they were just making sure I was okay since my car was at the house but I wasn't there. I should probably head over though so you can get to bed and get some rest."

I smile as I cup Taytum's cheek and pull her down for a kiss. She smiles against my lips and when we pull away, we both have a smile on our faces. "Goodnight Dani, dream about me because I know I will dream about you." Taytum softly says as she places a quick peck on my cheek.

"Goodnight," I whisper back as I follow Taytum to the door. She throws me a wink as she closes the door behind her causing me to giggle and feel giddy like a teenage girl with her first crush. I lock the door then lean against it as I bring my hand up, touching my lips.