First Crush, My Forever

Chapter 30

  I have been miserable the past two weeks without seeing or talking to Taytum. She had text numerous times and came over during the two weeks but I never responded or answered the door until yesterday morning. I cried so much after telling Taytum what happened between us was a mistake and that I regretted it. That is the farthest from the truth but I was trying to protect her. I am trying to protect her. She is so close to graduating and I do not want her to jeopardize that plus I have my daughter to think about.

  KK has been constantly asking where TayTay is and I just keep saying she is really busy with school. It's hard not to think about everything that's happened, especially when Taytum lives next door and I constantly see her if she is outside. It doesn't help that I'm always looking next door in hopes that I will see her. She wasn't there last night and she still isn't. I am not stalking her I just want to catch a glimpse of the woman I'm in love with but can't have, especially now. I know Taytum probably hates me and honestly, she has a right to.

  It's currently 2:45 pm and even though it's cool out, I'm sitting outside on my front porch while KK is drawing with chalk on the driveway. Suddenly I hear a vehicle coming down the road and glance in that direction only to see a car that's identical to Taytum's. I feel my heart start beating fast as I hope that it's actually her. I take a glance as the car passes in front of my house and pulls into the driveway next door. I watch as the beautiful woman occupying my mind gets out of her car.

  Taytum looks in my direction and offers a forced, tight smile. We lock eyes but it doesn't last long as I hear my daughter yell TayTay and take off running next door to Taytum. She quickly looks at my daughter and a big genuine smile graces those wonderful lips as she looks at KK. She yells KK as she scoops my daughter up with her left arm and places her on her hip. God, she is such a natural when it comes to KK. I feel my eyes starting to water because I want this for my daughter. I want her to have a loving family with two parents. I want her to have someone that treats her like she is theirs even though she is not and I want someone that looks at me the way Taytum used to.

  I look down and wipe my eyes and when I look back up Taytum is already watching me with a frown on her face. KK squirms to get down and she carefully places her down on the ground. KK grabs Taytum's hand and starts pulling her in my direction. Once they reach me, my daughter starts bouncing up and down. "Mommy, can I show TayTay what all Mimi and Poppop got me? Pwease?"

  I glance at Taytum and she just shrugs her shoulders. "Sure baby if she's not busy."

  KK smiles as she looks up at Taytum, "she not mommy, I asked her already." I glance up at her and watch her smile at my daughter. KK pulls Taytum towards the front door and the beautiful woman happily follows but not before looking back at me. As Taytum opens the front door to my house I hear KK say "mommy has been sad. I try to cheer her up." She glances at me again as she opens the door and they go inside. I sigh as I get up and pick up the chalk then go inside as well. After putting the chalk up I head to the living room, sit down on the couch and grab my book. I pull both of my legs up and start reading while KK is showing Taytum what she wants to show her and no doubt talking her ear off.

  About an hour has passed when suddenly the doorbell rings. I mark my page, put my book down and go to the door. I open the door and my sister is standing there leaning against the door frame. "Hey big sis!"

  I roll my eyes and open the door more. "What Nat?" My sister walks inside and I eye her curiously as she goes straight to the living room. Nat sits down on the loveseat and takes her shoes off as I make my way back to the couch. "What's up with you Nat and why are you walking like that?"

  Nat starts smiling like a mad woman and I already know I probably will regret asking her that. "Where's Kadence?"

  "She is upstairs with Taytum showing her everything that mom and dad bought her the other week."

  "So I will finally get to meet the babysitter. You have talked about her and she has babysat for a while yet I've never met her. Is she hot? Anyway, oh my God D, I had the absolute best sex of my life last night." I shake my head because I really don't want to know. "Don't say a word, you know I always tell you about my rendezvous."

  "And you know I don't want to hear about them yet you tell me anyway. Are you ever going to stop having one night stands?"

  Nat shrugs her shoulders, "I don't know and I know I usually never sleep with the same person again but the one last night I definitely would. I wish I would have gave her my number. Ellie basically fucked me until I passed out. We had both been drinking and were a little tipsy but damn. She was frustrated over some woman she liked that was a bitch to her. I think the woman just used her but I offered an ear and finally told her she could take her frustration out on me and she did. Three hours of amazing sex so I am sore today."

  "Did you say three hours?"

  Nat nods her head. "Yes, three hours. Now what are you so down in the dumps about?"

  I swallow then take a deep breath. "I... I did something I wish I wouldn't have. Two things actually and I don't think I can ever forgive myself." Nat motions for me to continue. "I... I slept with Chris."

  I am startled and jump in my seat when I hear Taytum's voice from the bottom of the stairs. "You did what Dani?" I didn't even know she was there.

  "Ellie?" Nat says as Taytum walks further into the living room.

  "Natalie?" Taytum says as she looks at my sister.

  I whip my head around and look at my sister then back at Taytum as soon as it registers what Nat called Taytum. "You slept with my sister?" I angrily ask.

  "You slept with Chris?" Taytum shoots back.

  "Wait, this is Taytum?" Nat asks as she looks between Taytum and I.

  "Yes, now shut up Nat. Answer me Taytum. Did you sleep with my sister?" I ask with tears forming in my eyes.

  Taytum looks at me with eyes full of hurt and sadness. "Yes but I didn't know she was your sister."

  I scoff, "thought you didn't do one night stands?"

  Taytum takes a step forward and through gritted teeth says, "and I didn't think you liked Chris like that but obviously you do or you wouldn't have slept with him."

  I stand up and walk up to Taytum. "I don't like him, he makes me sick but I did it to protect you."

  "What? What are you talking about to protect me?"

  I close my eyes and take a deep breath then open my eyes and look at Taytum. "Chris has pictures from the day in my office when I kissed you. He was threatening to go to the Dean with them unless... unless I slept with him. So I did, to protect you and my job because I do have a daughter to provide for."

  Taytum shakes her head and starts pacing but stops and looks at me. "I don't need your protection Dani. You should have talked to me before making that decision. It involved both of us. We could have figured something out. When did this happen?"

  I feel my heart pounding in my ears and my eyes start tearing up again. "The S-Sunday... after our date."

  Taytum clenches her jaw and shakes her head. "KK is down for her nap and I change my mind, I'm done babysitting and I'm completely done with you." Before I can say anything Taytum is out the front door and gone.