I Know Places (Taylor Swift Imagines) (GxG)

it's been too long---help

I've always considered writing as a skill and passion, not as a talent. I have no talents, please don't mistake me for a talented person.

okay, so with writing as a skill, this means, for me at least, that a bit too much time away from my keyboard due to writer's block leads to MORE writer's block. I hate it. I have so many requests to write, I want to write them, but I look at how many there are and suddenly my brain blanks and I start crying because it's so overwhelming, and I have no idea what to do.

I'm so sorry for the lack of updates, I know a lot of people are waiting on their requests because so many of them they sent months ago. I've never gotten to writing them because I keep putting them off and telling myself I'll get to them later since I'm balancing social, school, and home life simultaneously.

school has been draining my creative ability so much, and sometimes, I just feel like telling my parents I want to drop out. I feel like shit most of the time because not only has school been taking all of me, there are people there who make me feel like I did something wrong to them.

my ex? yeah, she's been spreading rumours about me to her whole grade. and the girl we used to shit talk together because she's a bitch? she and my ex are besties now. my ex made a whole group chat with ten other people just to talk about me. I've tried so so so hard to be civil and to talk to her, but she just. I dunno anymore. she was my only girlfriend who my parents knew about. she was my only girlfriend my parents actually liked, and she's acting like we didn't have good memories together. she's throwing all that down the drain because I broke up with her, and yeah, I get it, I was an ass when I broke up with her. but is it really necessary to do all that? she's been calling me a fuck girl and all that shit and I just feel so horrible about myself.

and I can't even tell my friends because I have none. well, I have one close friend, K. but she has her own problems and I don't want to burden her with all my bullshit. and I have two friends from other countries but again I don't want to burden anyone. and my girlfriend? she has her own stuff to deal with, I'm just here to help. the girl I thought was my best friend found other people, and I feel like she just tolerates me most of the time

ugh

anyway

cuddles & kisses

zee