To be bad at being good (BWWM)

Trust Is Like A Mirror

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Vanessa's POV

It's been a month

A whole fucking month

I haven't talk to Nicole since that day in the park but I can understand why she wouldn't talk to me. It's my fault. I had plenty of chances to tell her, I had the day he drove us home, I had when they started dating, I had after that night but nooooooo I decided to do it two fucking years later

I have been seeing her at school everyday and she walks past me like we're strangers, it hurts a lot. We been best friends since forever and to just lose your best friend because of something you done makes you feel terrible

I tried everything to get her to talk to me...well everything but face to face. I feel too bad, the guilt I have about everything is horrible. If I would have just said 'Don't mess with him' and told her why all of this could have been prevented 

Then there is this Arial girl, she is fucking annoying. Marcus said she was suppose to be smart but I haven't seen that side of her yet, all she do is whine, bitch, and moan. But I have to deal with her because it's a part of Marcus's big plan to get Nicole back which I know will never happen in this life time but he's in "love" with her

Jesus, I need to go to church, I need guidance and I haven't swore so much in my life

But my life is at a fucked up point...okay that was the last on...probably

Now I need to do two things, I have to talk to Nicole face to face. It took a lot of peep talking for me to even think of doing it. The second thing, see if I can talk Marcus out of this stupid plan that he has. That is a mission on it's own, I need help

Justin's POV

I'm in love

It took me awhile to realize it but I think I am, this past month has been amazing. Me and Nicole has never been closer, that day she talked to me was the real start to our friendship but I want more then that now

I thought it was just something that would come and go, I thought maybe if we fucked then I wouldn't want her anymore but it's more then that. The more I got to know her the worse or in this case stronger my feelings had got. I know that I can't be with her because I know who I am, i'm just a guy that hits and quits

Sandy, my "girlfriend" I had already cheated on her with several of her friends and a couple different girls at school. Everyone in the school knows i'm with her but girls don't care, they really are bitches when you think about it

But not including Nicole, she's not a slut

She has me even going to all my classes with her early

Thinking about her always makes me smile, her beauty, her body, her sweet voice, shit with the way i'm thinking i'll be in the back of a classroom scribbling her name on my notebook. One time I called her name out while fucking Sandy, took a lot to convince her that I actually said her name instead

I don't even know why we are dating at this point, all we do is argue and fuck. We mind as well be friends with benefits, at least then I don't have to deal with her jealousy. She hates me and Nicole's friendship but wants to stay with me so she deals with Nicole, the way she glare you would think she was trying to burn Nicole in her seat. But as long as they don't fight I don't care

Now thinking about her again I should go out for lunch with her instead of staying in this school today

Nicole's POV

Life is good or I guess I can say that

I got one friend but lost another one, I suppose if I wanted her back I could talk to her whenever I wanted to but my pride is getting in the way. She as my best friend should have told me. I told her about my mom before she even met her and it took awhile before she wanted to come over my house again but she finally did. That's what best friends do, they tell their best friends about the good and warn them about the bad

But now that I think about it I guess she did. She told me to stay away but I never really took it seriously or thought about it. He was the first love type of thing and they say it always cuts you the deepest, I loved him. I can't lie to myself at least because I really did but if Vanessa or Justin had asked me I would never admit it, i'll never even let the words leave my lips

Marcus, he will be back soon. I don't even know where he went nor do I want to know, I just want him to stay away from me. I always thought about it though, if he came back and was back in my house I don't really know how I will react to it

Will I cry?

Will I run away?

Will I just go into shock?

I shivered at the thought as I closed my locker. I don't plan on finding that out willingly if anything I will try to avoid it as much as I can. Part of me knows that Marcus is one of those people that are just in your life forever once you meet them, I hate that

I make my way to my next class slowly, one that has Vanessa and Justin in it. Usually me and Vanessa would sit together and joke through the whole hour but not anymore since we last talked, she still sits next to me anyway. I walk in and I was surprised to see Justin already there but not as surprised to see Vanessa there too. I wave at Justin and he waved back with a smile, it made my heart jump a little

Oh no.....no no no, I don't like him right, it was just a stupid crush

I mean he is very attractive but no, I am not a home wrecker and he probably doesn't even want me in a relationship type of way 

I sit down at my desk and can feel Vanessa looking at me but I ignored it of course, I can be a cold and unforgiving bitch when I need to be. It's her fault anyway that i'm like this to her. I could just forgive her but she should have told me about him

The class went by slowly without me talking with Vanessa, I really did miss her and I know in my heart we will be friends again but i'm not ready to forgive her yet, I guess I need time to gather my thoughts. Lunch finally came and I was walking with Justin and Sandy, I don't know why he bought me when he was going with her too

We all were about to walk out the school when Vanessa walked up to us

"Nicole, can we talk?"

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