To be bad at being good (BWWM)

Trust Is Like A Mirror (Part 2)

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Vanessa's POV

"Please Nicole, how many times do I have to say sorry?" I felt like a broken recorded, I honestly can't count how many times I texted her sorry over and over and over again but still got no reply from her

"Sorry doesn't change anything. I will just make you feel less guilty" she said while walking out the front door. I can't just let her go, it took me way took long to build up this confidence to talk to her and I can't just waste it

I walk through the doors too and scream out "HEAR ME OUT! I know I should have told you but hear me out and if you don't want to talk to me ever again I will understand. Just one more chance"

She was staring at me and so was everyone else that happened to be in the parking lot, nosey bitches "Fine" she finally said after just standing there "We can talk but if I feel like it's bullshit then i'm leaving" I see Justin walk up to her and they we're talking for a moment before she went to his car, Sandy came up to me smiling "Your coming with us" I don't understand this girl, she's fine with me but hates Nicole. I rolled my eyes and followed her to the car

Now this was probably the most awkward car ride I ever been on, I was sitting in the back with Nicole and of course she wasn't talking to me and with Sandy in the front she wasn't talking to Justin leaving the back silent for the most part. But the awkward part came when Sandy started talking about what she would do to Justin once they were alone, she must have thought the radio was loud but not loud enough   

That girl is all kinds of freaky

We finally get to a chick-fil-a and have lunch there, which was quiet again since we just ate our food. It was time to go back to the school once we get back to the car but I stop Nicole from getting in

"Move"

"Look, you said you would hear me out and all you have to do is listen to me"

She was silent and I took that as my sign to continue

"Marcus told me that he loved you, he said you were different from the others and I was stupid enough to believe him at the time. I tried telling you to stay away from him but you didn't want to believe me, then I saw how happy you were with him and how you were able to break it off when you wanted to. I thought everything was fine" 

I take a deep breath before going on

"Your always able to handle yourself and you did. I didn't know someone would get hurt and I am so sorry it's all my fault" My vision got blurry and I feel tears going down my face, it never really registered to me that Marcus killed a innocent person until that day in the park. The guilt that I felt was strong, knowing that I could have just told her earlier could have changed many things that happened

I was now full blown crying, I was going to lose my best friend because I couldn't speak up. Suddenly I feel arms around me as if someone was hugging me

"Vanessa shut up, its not your fault. I should have listened" That only made me cry more, she didn't even think it was my fault but I knew it was. I don't know how long I was standing there crying on her but I finally stopped. My eyes are all red and swollen now, I hate crying and I don't usually cry. Only for the people that I care about

Nicole let go of me and smiled "It really isn't your fault, you didn't hurt anyone and I forgive you" Yes I got my friend back. I leap and jump on her "We're best friends forever and ever and-"

"Please get off of me" I hear a muffled voice say and realized that it was Nicole as I hop down and let go "Sorry I got a little excited but I just remembered something I should tell you"

"Yeah what is it now?"

"Marcus told me that he will be coming for you soon"