Coming Out - An Emon Fanfic

Chapter 28 - Losing

Ethan got out of the car and walked away. He breathed heavily and tears ran down his face. He closed his eyes, hoping he would feel Simon's hand on his shoulder, pulling him back. He prayed for Simon to run after him, to apologise and make up. He wished for them to be back together, but nothing happened. Simon didn't go after him, he didn't stop Ethan from walking away.

Simon sat in the car and watched Ethan walk away. He was perfectly still as he watched the boy he loved leave. Ethan never looked back, he walked at a normal pace and looked like he was finally at peace. After Ethan disappeared Simon let it all out. He screamed and shouted, crying and hurting. The boy he loved had left and Simon let him. 

"Ethan? Hun, what's wrong?"

"Nothing. Can I just be alone for a while?"

Ethan's mum nodded and left. He had finally come home at 1 in the morning and was quite drunk. Ethan stared into the bathroom mirror which had been replaced. He winced as he flashes of the incident whizzed past the new mirror. Splashes of blood were in the sink and floor when he looked down. He blinked a few times and rubbed his eyes, they were gone.

Suddenly, Ethan lurched forward as a wave of sickness came over him. He let it all out and washed his face, panicking. He screamed quietly as he started vigorously scrubbing his arm, the marks glowing a bright red as he scratched with his nails. He started sobbing loudly as he dropped to the floor, holding himself, his breathing growing short. He was having a panic attack.

Simon sat in his hotel room with a bottle in his hand. He took another sip as he stared into nothing. He felt empty, like he was worth nothing, like his life had no meaning. His boyfriend had left him, the first person he truly loved and he had let him go. He was ashamed of being gay, of loving another male. That was why he had lost the boy he loved, because he was ashamed of being who he was.

"Ethan? Ethan! Oh hun, we were so worried." Ethan's mum cried as Ethan finally came back to life. He was unconscious after the panic attack and had been sleeping for a while. He tried to sit up in his bed but his arms gave way as he fell back onto it. "Don't stress yourself Ethan, you have to rest for a while." Ethan's mum quietly said.

Ethan's dad stood next to his mum with an expressionless face. "What happened?" His dad asked emptily. "I... I..." Ethan started crying as he remembered what happened. No one had accepted him and Simon and everyone who did accept them had given up, even the couple. All Ethan's sexuality did was cause problems, he felt like a disease. The person he loved so much had given up on them being together, they went through so much only to be broken apart in the end.

He cried as his mum patted his back. His dad stood motionless next to his mum. "Mum... Dad... I... I don't want to be gay anymore."

A/N

I'M BACK!!! I've missed you guys a lot. It's so boring here all I do is write. Anyways, I hope you guys enjoyed that chapter and are liking the book so far. It's actually really sad and I hate myself for making all this happen to Ethan and Simon. I'm sorry for making you guys sad too. Thank you for bearing with me while I was gone but I'm back now! I'm not sure if my uploads will be consistent or not but we'll find out soon, hopefully I'll keep on updating as usual. Thank you for reading this book and supporting me!

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