Coming Out - An Emon Fanfic

Chapter 37 - Helpful Words

"Simon?" Vikk said, concerned as he walked into the room to find Simon sitting on the bed, crying.

"He told me to leave him alone. He doesn't want anything to do with me." Simon quietly said, his voice breaking. He massaged his forehead as tears ran down his face.

"Simon..." Vikk walked over in front of Simon and crouched down to his height. He moved Simon's hands away from his face and held them, rubbing his thumb on Simon's palm.

"Simon... You have to understand. Whatever happened left Ethan with scars, mentally and physically. He's trying hard to patch up those scars, to make them go, but scars stay. They take years to fade away, it takes time and energy. You have to have the energy to forget what happened to cause those scars. That's what Ethan's trying to do, and he's achieving it. But you being around him, or entering his mind; it causes his scars to darken and come back, it causes them to open up and spill the blood of those bad memories." Vikk quietly said in a comforting tone. He looked into Simon's eyes with honesty and care.

Simon looked at Vikk, confused. "Are you trying to say I should let him go?" He whimpered.

Vikk looked away from Simon's gaze and nodded. "I'm sorry Simon, but you need to understand Ethan's side of things. The things that happened hurt him horribly.
Maybe you should help him forget it all and move on, maybe you should move on."

"No. No! I'm never giving up on us! You might've, but I never will. I love Ethan and only Ethan, and I know deep in there; he still loves me! I don't care if you give up, you've given up on us before and we... We were fine!" Simon yelled, moving his hands out of Vikk's grip. His eyes were red and his throat was sore from all the crying. He uttered the last sentence quietly - it was a lie. They weren't fine. They fought and abandoned each other.

Vikk shook his head. "We won't give up on you two Simon. But I feel like your causing more harm than happy feelings. Just... Before you do anything drastic just think of what you're doing to Ethan and the people around you."

Simon calmed down and thought for a while, then he nodded his head and gave Vikk back his phone. Vikk gave him a small smile and took his phone, standing up and getting ready to leave the room.

"Vikk?" Simon got hold of Vikk's hand before he could walk away. Vikk turned and looked down at Simon with a small smile. "Thank you, for everything." Simon quietly said with a smile. Vikk smiled back widely and nodded. Simon let go of his hand and let him leave. He laid down on the bed and fell deep into his thoughts, analysing the things Vikk said.

Vikk was right, Simon was hurting Ethan by trying to contact him. But if Ethan just opened up and accepted Simon again, they could be happy. They could go back to how they were, a beautiful couple. And this time Simon was determined to not let anyone get to him or Ethan, they would ignore the remarks and looks. They would push on and love each other, nothing mattered as long as they had each other. Simon couldn't give up, not yet. He had to keep on trying.