Matthew Healy, George Daniel and 5SOS preferences.

9//He Dies// (G.D-M.H)

George:

As I re-read the letter that I received, tears flood my room. My soul mate had left the world last night. Even though we broke up 3 years ago, I still thought about him every night before bed. About his life and maybe his wee family that he could have formed.

George's mum phoned me saying He had committed suicide by downing over 32 anti-depressants. She also talked a bit about the letter he wrote for me. She came around to say sorry and I guess just a wee shoulder to cry on.

His funeral was in 6 days as Georges mum wanted to take him back home to be with family before he gets buried.

"Dear George."

"I will love you forever. Even though what you did was wrong, we all fuck up in life. I'm sorry it had to come to this and I fucking should have been there. I know you told me not to blame myself but I just cant help myself. Fuck, i'm sorry. You're probably up there watching me cry as i write this apology letter that I can't even give you. This is so fucked. I am going to actually miss you George and I know you loved me. I'm sorry for throwing my insecurities at you and blaming you for everything. If that night didn't happen, then I wouldn't have to watch you get dug into a hole, Danes I love you, remember that. Forever will. Your mum came round, i guess she just needed a shoulder to cry on. Matty seems alright but i guess its the calm before the storm, you didn't have to do this George. You really didn't. It was selfish. You could still be here if it wasn't for me. Fuck. I'm sorry. I will love you no matter what. You better watch me up there and i want to see you sitting next to me holding my hand at your funeral. I love you George. Always have. Always will."

George's funeral is today. He looks great in his tux. I give him his letter as I sat back down. Tears form in my eyes as I locate Matty in the crowd of people scurried around him, watching him get dug into the ground.

He was probably just as hurt as I was and I felt bad because I was one of the reasons he had done it. Matty comes over to me and gives me a reassuring kiss on the cheek and sits by me as tears form in my eyes.

"I'm so sorry Matty, I'm so very sorry." Small sobs escape his lips and he pulls me in to a tighter hug.

"It's not your fault love. It's no ones fault but himself." A reassuring smile slowly fades as he is pulled down into the ground.

"I love you George." I look up to the sky with tears in my eyes. "Always have. Always will."

Matthew:

*ring ring ring ring*

"Hello?" You hear a recognisable voice.

"Lou? Is that you" You wonder why Matthews little brother is calling. The two of you had a fairly close relationship as you would always take him out because Matty would be on tour with the boys.

"Y/n have you seen the news? Mums in a state." You scan the lounge to look for the TV remote quickly turning it on. Denise didn't cry often but this must be serious if Lou is telling me she's in a state.

"Former member of The 1975, Matthew Healy is killed in a car crash. George Daniel, Ross Macdonald and Adam Hann are in critical condition in a hospital in Manchester and Matthew Healy was killed on impact." The tears stream down you face as you see flashes of yours and mattys relationship. This can't be happening. It's just a dream which I will wake up from soon.

You do your best to pinch yourself and come back to reality when you realise you're not dreaming and it's all real. It hits you even harder.

"L-L-Lou, I'll be over soon." You say over the phone, tears streaming harder and harder the more you think about it.

"Okay y/n, be safe. We will see you soon." You drop the phone as you continue watching the news report.

"The car hit a truck and had flipped 3 times after landing on the roof crushing the poor driver and leaving the rest in critical care in the Manchester hospital." You quickly gather clothes of yours and throw them in a bag. You search the table trying to find your keys. You unlock the car and start it up.

You turn the radio up a little bit as a distraction. Robbers quietly plays in the background of you driving when you burst into tears. The song was made purely for yourself and Matty had written it with you a few years back.

"I'm so sorry Matthew. Its all my fault." You look up at the sky praying that you would get the slightest sign that it's all a dream.

You turn up to Denise's house and Lou comes out to comfort you as you pull in. You run to Louis and squeeze him tightly. "Mums not doing very well y/n." He looks at you with tear stained cheeks.

"Y/n," you're greeted in by Denise. "I'm so sorry mum." Matty use to tell you to call her mum because she practically was and it just stuck.

"Don't be sorry darling. I'm sorry for you too." The two of you cried for a little longer. You then go to the hospital and break the news to the rest of the band. They all broke to pieces. Especially George.

That's the day your whole world came to a complete stop. Everything just didn't make sense and for once in your life you just cried for a week straight.