UNRAVEL

Chapter 49

Six years

Paulit ulit sa isip ko ang boses ni Adaline.

Six years

Six fucking years.

Hindi ko maisip kung anong hirap ang pinagdaanan nya sa loob ng sampung taon. Anong sakit ang dinulot ko sa kanya.

All because of me.

I ruined her.

I broke her.

All of her misfortune is because of me. I caused it, every fucking bit of pain and suffering.

I gently touch her wrist.

I'm sorry. . .

"Hmm Officer"

"I-i'm h-here. I'm here Princ-"

"Don't g-go. No, no please don't leave me. I. . . I-ll chan-"

"Shh I'm here now. I'm here now Xime. It's just a bad dream. Wake up. I love you" hinalikan ko ang noo at mga mata nya. Pero hindi sya agad nagising.

"I love you. Mahal na mahal kita Xime." paulit ulit na bigkas ko.

"Officer?"

"Princess"

"You're still here. I thought it's a dream" hinalikan ko muna sya.

"Hindi po. Ahm sabi ni Adaline you need to drink this medicine" kinuha ko ang bigay ni Adaline.

"Ahh. Akin na" inabot ko sa kanya at agad naman nya itong ininom. Medyo mahaba na pala ang buhok nya and. . . .

"You look mature" nasabi ko bigla, mas lalo lang syang gumanda sa paningin ko. Ngumiti lang sya at tinignan ako

"It's been 10 years for me. Of course I'll look different. I'm 30. . . . I finally caught up to your age." And I'm not happy about that.

"Your green eyes are brighter" I said as I caressed her neck, slowly closing the distance between us. I wanted to kiss her again.

"Would you prefer it darker?" She said with a bitter smile.

Sun exposure can cause eyes to darken, so. . . .

Hindi na ako sumagot at hinalikan na syang muli.

"Y-you're. . . Beautiful. I I-love everything about you" I whispered between each kiss

Dahan dahan ko syang pinahiga. I settled gently on top, careful not to hurt her. Not wanting to break our kiss.

"C-can I?" I asked

"You don't need to ask. I'm still yours. I'm always yours. J-just. . .  Turn off the lights. And don't ask anything" huminto muna ako sa paghalik sa leeg nya. I looked at her.

"Please?" she said quietly, almost begging, and it broke my heart deep inside.

Pinatay ko lahat ng natitirang ilaw. Sinara ko din lahat ng bintana. May konting liwanag padin dahil may araw pa sa labas but it's not enough to see clearly. Not enough for me to see everything.

"Tell me if I'm hurting you"

"I'm not fragile Leigh"

"Still. Tell me if I do something you're uncomfortable with" Hinawakan niya lang ang pisngi ko, tumango naman siya. I kissed her gently, held her hand, and lightly touched her wrist, but it felt like it startled her.

"You're safe now. I love you" I whispered. I kissed her wrist before taking my clothes off.

"Do you want me to?" I asked while looking into her eyes. I'm asking about her clothes. If it's okay to take it off. She's hesitant at first. Pero sya nadin ang nag alis nito.

I settled gently on top of her again. I started with a kiss on her lips, then her cheeks, her temple, her neck, and down to her collarbone. My hands moved softly, caressing every inch of her like I was trying to memorize her.

But when I touched the side of her waist . . .It hit me so hard. I almost cried. So I started to count in my head, trying to hold myself together.

One

Two

Three

Every count felt like a knife sinking into my chest. It hurt so much that I started kissing each part of her body where I’d counted. Gently kisses like I'm scared of even touching her. Afraid to hurt her.

She just kept playing with my hair, gentle and quiet. And that’s when I knew, I was already crying.

Four

When I counted five, and then six with my hand on her ankle, I lost it. I started crying so hard I broke down and hugged her

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Xime. It's all my fault."

"Shh stop. It's not. Continue please. Don't stop. I want you. I . . I need you. Please make love to me." I looked at her, my tears falling onto her cheeks. There was still sunlight in the room, soft and warm, just enough for me to see her face, barely, but enough.

She didn’t need to ask twice. I kissed her, not soft like before, but desperate, it felt like a lifeline. I needed her too. It wasn’t just a kiss, it's our survival.

"I love you" I kept on whispering.

She pulled me closer, her hand slipping gently into my hair. She didn’t say anything, didn’t have to.

I kissed down to her neck, her collarbone. My fingers slid slowly down to her body until I found her spot that I've been longing to touch. Her hips shipted toward me, desperate for more. I almost lost myself when I heard her moan.

"L-leigh. . . Please"

"Please what? Hmm?"

"Ahh- hmpt"She’s holding back her moan, but I want it louder.

I slipped two fingers into her and she grabbed my hair. I slowly moved my fingers in and out.

"L-let me hear you Princess. Please" I begged.

"Ahh f-faster." I did. The sound of her moans was enough to remind me that she's real. Not a dream, not hallucinations.

"You're so beautiful Xime"

"J-just shut up. Kiss me." So demanding. That's why I love her.

Muli ko syang hinalikan sa labi. Rough and desperate, my fingers still moving in and out of her, while my other hand grabbed her breast. Oh how much I wanted to taste it.

I looked at her pleading. Tumawa lang sya ng mahina. Mukang alam naman nya ang gusto ko, she smiled at me giving me permission. So I kissed her breast first before putting my mouth. She moaned more loudly now. She's close so I moved my fingers faster.

"Ahh D-don't stop. I'll kill you if you aghhh-" She's so beautiful. Oh how i love her. Her voice, everything about her.

One more push and she just pulled me up me to kiss my lips. I stopped my fingers just briefly, feeling her release.

"I love you" she whispered.

"Oh I love you more" I whispered back.

"But we're not done yet Princess" I said smiling. I slipped my fingers into my mouth, tasting her.

"Who said we’re done?" And I just laughed.