Mistreated (Editing!)

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Tailand's P.O.V

I walk up to her door feeling nervous. I know she ain't up this early so I didn't bother trying to knock. I put the rose and box of chocolates in her mailbox and walked back to my car. I had to keep asking  Isaac to tell me where she was. I figured she moved away and wouldn't tell anyone, that's the mood she's in. When I found out, I started looking too. Me and Isaac kind of split up. He looked over south, southeast, southwest and I practically looked everywhere else. When he found out, I just knew. When I called him he was.. stand offish, I knew he knew something. It took me forever to get him to tell me but he finally did and made me promise to not make a scene.

I know it all seem soft but there comes a point  where all that shit don't matter no more. All I want is her...I can't have no one else. I can't sleep straight, all I can think about is her, nothing is the same at the house..every time I come home from work I have to keep reminding myself that she won't be there dancing to music and cleaning or cooking something like she usually is. It's like I can still feel her in my bed... hearing her breathing...sometimes I wake up hearing her voice and then my heart aches because I know that she's gone.. I've never felt like this before... it's not a feeling I like but I at least learned something. My mom...foster mom used to tell me every heart ache is a lesson to learn from, if you don't learn from your pain then you went through everything for nothing. 

I learned that honesty is extremely important in a relationship. Honesty turns into trust and without trust, shit, that ain't a relationship. In other words, If I was honest with Audrey in the first place about my feelings for her, or how I felt about whatever we argued about then we wouldn't have all these damn problems. I thought I could just ignore the whole little whoop and everything would be coo, past is in the past right? Naw, that shit don't work, run away from your issues and they take a shortcut and cut yo ass off at the middle of yo path..

 Speaking of that.. I decided, I'm going to find my real family... I can't keep running from all the pain in my past. And I can't just sit here feeling sorry for myself when I finally have the choice get what I've always wanted... a real family.

 Which is also why I'm here.. I'm not giving up on what I want... and that's Audrey.

I pull off and head to work.

Audrey's P.O.V

 I wake up to my alarm clock. I sit up and turn it off sighing. 

"Ugh" I say holding my head. I look around at all the balled up tissues covering the bed remembering last night. Fuck him....he made me cry..

I push and kick the blankets off me and walk out of my room heading downstairs. I shouldn't have to explain myself to everyone, this is how I decide to handle my problems... I'm not trying to hurt anyone... I pause. Well maybe I did do some things out of spite but... I've been through a lot and it's just too much to see their face and talk to them...everytime, everything just keeps replaying and it makes me want to punch them in the face..

I get downstairs and head towards the kitchen to fix me a bowl of cereal... ugh Saturday mornings are the best! I fix my bowl and go to the living room. I don't exactly have a couch yet. Just like a little coushin chair that I used to have in my room. It's perfect for me though. I turn on the T.V and turned to the cartoons. Is it bad that I'm still using my mom's internet and T.V?

Oh well, nobody's gonna know.. I eat my bowl of cereal and watch tom and jerry beat each other up. I love this show!

A few short episodes later, I get up to stretch. I need some real food now.. I go back to the kitchen and start making me bacon, an omlette, and toast. Once I get done I sit down on the couch again and eat that still watching the rest of the cartoons.