Looking for the Light Through the Darkness

Chapter 26: Trust

Point of View: Sang 

Staying curled up on the couch, I listen to the male's around me and their conversations. I can hear Mr. Blackbourne and Dr. Green off to the side talking about security and about some of my wounds. I can tell that he isn't giving away any personal doctor patient information but I feel a little uncomfortable that Mr. Blackbourne is digging into my background. Or at least trying to. 

Biting my lip, I strain to listen more as Luke and Gabriel get louder as they talk to North and Silas about where I am going to stay tonight. But Mr. Blackbourne and Dr. Green's voices go silent and I realize that they have probably noticed that I was listening. "Miss-" I hold up a hand not wanting to hear what they had to say right now. 

Taking a slow calming breath, a sound suddenly catches my attention. It is softer than anyone talking and I realize it isn't coming from a person but from a phone. Standing, I make my way carefully around the coffee table at the middle of the room and to the recliner located to the left of the couch. My shoes carefully run over the soft rug but I am careful as I rest a hand on the recliner. The fabric is cozy and I smile understanding why he had taken a seat in this chair. In the back of my mind, I can hear North and Silas quiet down and I know they are watching me but I focus on the music. Slowly running my hand up the arm of the recliner, I move to the left slightly and my hand meets a soft silky material of a shirt and I recognize a bicept. Victor tenses at my touch but I make sure to be gentle as I move my hand up his arm. I pause as my fingers touch a wire and I carefully follow it up to his ear and remove the ear phone before slipping it into my own. 

I can hear Victor huff softly in laughter as I sit on the arm of the chair listening to the soft melody of music. Allowing myself to relax, I listen to the song until it ends and smile toward the male. "What do you think?" He asks and I can't help but smile a bit bigger. 

"It was beautiful. You put a lot of emotion into this piece I can tell." I smile handing him back the air bud. 

"How did you know?" Victor asks softly and I can't help but smile looking to him. 

"There is always a hint of sadness to your work. As though something is missing." I whisper softly slipping my hand down to his and giving it a gentle squeeze. "You have loved and been hurt." I state smiling sadly as I slowly let out a held breath. "I know how you feel. That is how I can tell." 

Smiling sadly, I carefully begin to stand when I feel Victor's hand wrap around my wrist pulling me back. "You were abused?" The question hangs in the air and there is complete silence. Freezing, I can feel my mind rushing through different possible answers and I let out a slow breath. 

"I was." I admit looking to the male as his hand slowly releases my wrist. 

"Who Miss Handerson?" Mr. Blackbourne asks and I look to the male. He is across the room from where I am and I frown. 

"That is none of your business Mr. Blackbourne." I state calmly looking to him.  

"Sang please he only wants to-" I raise my hand at  Gabriel's out burst but give him a small smile. 

"Gabriel..." I whisper softly smiling to him. "Look at things through my eyes. I just walked into an apartment with a multitude of different people that I didn't think knew each other." I sigh looking to the other's taking sharp breaths. "I don't know most of you and in fact I just met one of you today." I glance to Nathan and smile. "No offense." 

"None taken." Nathan states comfortingly and I nod looking to Mr. Blackbourne. 

"I have a doctor here who has seen the scars on my body and knows some of my medical records." I look toward Dr. Green and then look to Mr. Blackbourne. "And you sir, seem to be the leader of the group. You have not shown me a single thing to prove that I can trust you." I take a slow breath and look to him. "I don't mean to be rude in any way, sir." I smile looking to Gabriel then Dr. Green then Luke then Silas and then North. "I have met a number of wonderful people because of that day. And I have met more people I would like to get to know farther." I look to Kota and Victor, to Nathan and then back to Mr. Blackbourne. "Including you sir." I smile softly. "Let me open up in my own time." 

There is silence for a moment then a soft breath of air is taken and I smile. "You are correct Miss. Anderson and I to wish to get to know you better in return. You are a very interesting and unique person." I smile feeling my cheeks flush. 

"Thank you sir." I whisper and chatter quickly ensues. Quickly, I excuse myself to go to the bathroom. Locking the door behind me, I lean against the back letting out a slow breath of air. I had been truthful. I wanted to get to know the others and I would open up in my own time but what I had to show was a lot of scars and baggage. 

Letting out a slow deep breath, I move to the sink and splash water over my face before grabbing the towel and moving back out the door. But before I can even get one step out the door I am running into someone's chest. The scent of moss and berries fill my nose and I smile as hands catch my waist straightening me before I fall over. "Thank you Victor." I smile righting myself before looking to the male. 

"Any time Sang." His voice is soft and comforting as I blush a little. Turning to leave, I feel Victor shift behind me and I pause looking back to him. "I am sorry" Victor states calmly which makes me freeze. "I am sorry for the position we pushed you into. I had no idea you were abused or about any scars... I was just surprised and I put you on the spot because of it... I never met anyone that had understood my music." 

Smiling, I shrug looking to Victor. "It's okay. I am sure most of them had guessed it anyways. I mean my scars aren't something that can be ignored." I smile nervously but I can feel Victor stepping forward and slipping his hands into mine. 

"I understand." Victor says giving my hands a comforting squeeze. "I have scars as well." He states and what he says next I will never forget. "All of us do." I can feel myself tense as I take in the information  before biting my lip. 

"All of you have been abused..." I whisper. Victor's hand squeeze mine realizing that I didn't know this and he quickly steps forward rubbing my shoulders. 

"It was very different for each of us." Victor states easily and pulls me into his chest giving me a gentle hug. "We have things to share with you as well." 

I blush again as my words are thrown back at me and I nod as I carefully pull out of Victor's arms. "Thank you Victor. I look forward to learning about it as well." Smiling, I slowly pull away and move into the living room. Curling up in my spot on the couch, I can feel North's arm slip around me and pull me close as the information swarms around in my head. 

What had I gotten into?