Looking for the Light Through the Darkness

Chapter 23: Pleasure Turned Painful

Point of View: Sang 

Finishing up lunch, I wave goodbye to Kota as Silas and Gabriel take me to the car. Slipping into the front seat, I smile softly to Gabriel and thank him for opening my door before I click on my seat belt and relax into the seat. Resting my head back, I breath in Silas's scent as he slides easily into the driver's seat and he places a hand on my knee squeezing slightly. "Tired?" He whispers and I nod a little smiling softly. 

"Yeah who knew you could get a work out from shopping." I smile looking back toward Gabriel who is trying to fit all the bags in the back of the car, all the while grumbling to himself about how he wanted to stay longer. I giggled and Silas chuckles beside me, turning on the car. 

"If we had gone to another store not only would Sang be broke but we would have to pay for another car to fit everything in." Silas states easily and I giggle even harder as the car starts to move and the rush of air from my window hits my face. Curling up a little I smile relaxing and letting the air sweep my hair off my shoulders and wrap around me in a warm hug. 

"Hey Sang?" Gabriel's voice is comforting and soft as he whispers to me. I nod a little letting him know I am hearing him and I can hear him chuckle. "We are back in town Sang. We need to know where to go." Bolting up straight I hear Silas and Gabriel chuckling harder in the back and I smile slowly settling back into my chair. 

"What street are we on?" I whisper clearing my throat of sleep. 

"Twenty-eighth street." Silas states and I feel Gabriel's gentle fingers slipping into my hair and playing with it putting it into a different style. Smiling, I quickly direct Silas down the street and to the flower shop, stepping out of the car easily, I give them a slight wave and Silas says he will stop by later to pick me up. Nodding, I give them a small smile and move into the flower shop. Instantly the scent of lilies rush over me and I am wrapped up in a hug. 

"Where have you been?" Avery whispers rubbing my shoulders and then she must have spotted my injury when she starts to pull me by my wrist into the back room. "What happened? Did those guys hurt you? Are you being pressured into something? Are you being safe? You remember what happened last-" Instantly I pull my wrist out of her grip and I look directly toward her. 

"Enough." I state in a deadly silence and I can hear her suck in a sharp breath. 

"I know you don't like to talk about it Sang. But he hurt you." Avery whispers stepping close to me and wrapping me up into another heart wrenching hug. "I will always protect you. I am not going to let that happen to you again." She whispers into my ear making my shutter hard as I recall the memories of her screaming out my name from that night. Tears start to burn my eyes and I can feel myself shaking harder an instantly wish I had the other's around me. 

"Ave... They are not like that." I whisper looking to her as I hold back more tears. "They make me feel safe. Someone.... someone broke into my apartment last night." I whisper as more tears slip down my cheeks and I can feel Avery tense around me. "They trashed the place and destroyed everything..." I forced myself to let out the held pain inside of my chest. 

"It couldn't have been..." I can feel my heart drop in pain as I think of him once more and the tears are uncontrollable now. My breath catching in the horrible sobs, I sink into her arms unable to control the flashbacks of pain and Avery instantly takes control moving me to the couch when I hear the door open. 

"Ave we need you at the front desk there is some-" Marc's voice instantly cuts off and I hear the movement as he rushes over but I instantly pull away. 

"GET AWAY FROM HER!" Avery screams at Marc and the visions of my mother erupt on top of my flash backs of him. Stumbling I rush out of the room and through the flower shop. The scents instantly rush over me so once I reach the front of the shop, I am unable to smell the sweet scent of berries and the soft scent of moss until I am stumbling into a chest. 

"Sang?" I almost am unable to place the voice through my fear as I pull away when I realize it. 

"V-Victor?" My sobs wrack my body cutting my voice off and suddenly I feel Victor closer a comforting hand on my side stepping closer. But fear takes over instantly and I pull away trembling hard not wanting to be touched. 

"Is something wrong? Why are you crying? Are you hurt?" Victor's voice is calm and soft pushing away the painful memories of my mother but I am still unable to fully calm down. 

"J-Just a-a litt-ttle sh-sh-shaken." I manage and quickly bring my fingers up to my lips trying to calm down my sobbing. 

There is a moment of silence and I continue to hide my mouth from view as I try to regain composure. "I'm sorry I can't stand here while you cry." He whispers softly approaching and pulling me into his chest and I can easily feel his well defined body against mine and I crumple. Instantly giving in, I sob hard into his chest and cling to the soft satin shirt trembling hard. "Shhhh..." He whispers gently rocking me from side to side just as Silas had when I had met him. 

Sobbing harder, I tense when I hear the door to the back open and Victor places a hand on the back of my head keeping me in the crook of his neck. "What happened?" His voice is dead serious and I can smell the soft lilies and tea mixed together. 

"She got scared." Avery stays in a chilled tone stepping toward me, obviously still nervous of Victor, but Victor keeps his arms around me in a protective manor knowing how uncomfortable I feel. 

There is a moment of silence and I hear Avery let out a rough breath. "Stop with the looks and give me Sang." She states stepping forward and placing a hand on my back which instantly causes her to pull back. "Sang." She says my name in a sharp breath and suddenly I realize that I don't have my protective wrap on and I jerk away from Victor and away from everyone bolting to the door and onto the street. 

Letting out short pained breaths, I run down the street and barely stop in order to wait for the light to change. I don't slow down until I realize I am in front of my building. Panting hard, I rush up the stairs to my apartment but the second I reach the door I realize that there is nothing left. Tears running down my cheeks again, I stumble back pressing my back against the wall and slide down to the floor. 

Sobbing hard, I lean forward and hide my face in my knees unable to contain my pain any more. I had suffered for most of my life and I thought that everything was okay... that I should be able to forget... but I had to remember that he was still out there. That he could find me and hurt me more than I've ever been hurt before. 

Sitting on the floor for what seems like hours, I slowly pull myself together enough to get a calm couple of breaths through my chest. Pulling myself up off the floor rubbing my now very puffy and sore eyes I make my way back down the stairs and slowly begin to walk. The sound of traffic allows me to focus on something as I move silently through the streets. 

I allow my mind to travel else where with each step I take. I think of my sister back at home with my father and smile at how happy they probably are at home. I think of the boys and hope that they are doing well. I even think of my new step-mother and I just let out a slow calm breath. How I wish I had a family to lean back upon. 

Walking around, I slowly realize where I am and I freeze. I stand outside of Gabriel and Luke's apartment on the far side of the city and I can't help but cry once more. I had gone to the one place I felt safe and it wasn't even someone I had known for long. Walking up the steps, I slowly knock on the door and hear movement on the other side. 

"We need to fucking find her! She was fucking crying and you let her walk out of there without anyone to follow her! Fucking hell" Gabriel yells in the background causing me to flinch and I bite my lip nervously. Who was he yelling at? 

"Everyone is looking for her!" Another voice yells out angrily when suddenly the door opens and the scent of vanilla washes over me. Placing the voice I instantly freeze and tense knowing I am in full view of everyone in the room. 

Why was Mr. Blackbourne and Victor here?