ONIKA
My body's internal clock naturally rose with the sun. Some time between 5-6:00am, I woke up like I did every day. Except I wasn't in my own bed.
It only took a second for all my memories of the night before and the call with my mom to come back to me. I felt the same as before, if not worse about everything. I had to go to class and stay on top of my work, so I couldn't let myself get stuck in my head about it.
It wasn't until I was about to get up that I realized how Bey and I were positioned. Her body was against mine and her arm was fully around me.
I knew if she wasn't gay I wouldn't have thought anything about it, so I tried not to. It wasn't a big deal.
I had to get ready for class so I tried to slip out from under her arm but she just pulled me right back into her. While still half asleep, she mumbled, "Stop moving."
Did she know it was me? I whispered back since it was way too early. "Bey, it's Onika. Let me up, I need to get ready for class."
"No, you're warm and comfortable." She adjusted herself but made no move to let me go.
I softly laughed, "Stop. I need to go to class."
She groaned and then finally moved her arm so I could get out of bed. "Fine, whatever." It seemed like she was still half asleep so I didn't know how aware she was.
I got out of bed now that I was no longer being held and went into the bathroom to take a long shower and get ready for class.
Getting dressed felt like a lot more pressure for the first time since I got on campus. It seemed like I took one step forward and two steps back with my confidence. Everything all of a sudden felt too revealing.
Despite it being summer, I put on a sweater with blue jeans and Birkenstock clogs. I felt like I needed to be fully covered.
When I left the bathroom after getting completely ready, Bey was fully awake but still in bed scrolling on her phone.
I didn't say anything to her because again, it was way too early, but she spoke to me first. "Was I dreaming it last night or were you crying?"
"Uh.." I started to pack my bag so I could avoid facing her. "I was crying a little."
"Want to talk about it?" I appreciated the fact that she wasn't trying to push me to.
"Maybe after class. I just want to be focus right now and not think about.. any of that."
"Alright." She yawned and I heard her get out of bed. "I'll see you after class."
"Have a good day. See you." I looked back just in time to see her walking to the bathroom.
While she was still in the shower, I left and went to get breakfast somewhere on campus before making my way to class. I loved waking up early to be able to do stuff like that.
I tried to play complete attention in my class so I didn't check my phone until after my two back to back classes and saw a text from Bey in our groupchat.
ROOM 912 😸
Bey 🥰🩷: anyway want to get food and study later?
yessss :
Kelly 😁: sooo rob and i have to go to this extra credit thing for our class that we have together
Bey 🥰🩷: lammeeeeeeeee
Bey 🥰🩷: onika we can do it without them fuck em
Robyn 🤩: damn god forbid we try to get a good start to the semester???
