BEY
The first thing I noticed when I woke up was that I was waking up alone.
I felt around my bed for Onika but I didn't feel anything so I was forced to open my eyes. She was nowhere to be found.
I could see that the sun was still rising through the blinds, so I had no idea where she left to that early.
She was an early bird so I didn't think too much about it and laid back down because I didn't have any classes until noon.
I usually didn't see her at all before I went to class so I wasn't surprised when I didn't, but I was a little thrown off she wasn't there when we got back either. We'd established routines by this point, so it was odd to come back and not see her. I texted in the groupchat again, specifically to see if Onika was okay, because she was the only one who hadn't texted in it the entire day.
Still no response.
When I hung out with Robyn and Kelly, I mentioned it to them and they said they hadn't heard from her either.
She was grown and probably studying or something so I tried not to seem crazy and just let her be. We didn't have to talk 24/7, but it just wasn't normal for her.
The first time I saw her that day was when I was in our room talking to my little sister before bed. She walked in quickly with her head down and grabbed a couple articles of clothing before quickly walking out again. It happened so quick, I didn't get the chance to do decide what I was going to say, if I was going to say anything at all.
Huh? That didn't even make sense to me. She was here and just avoiding me?
I immediately went to go text my groupchat with just Robyn and Kelly, because I was lost.
houston hotties 😛
why's she in your room? is she good? :
kells 💛: idk she just said she wanted to sleep in here
huhhhh!?!?????? :
for what :
rob 🧟♀️: 🤷🏽♀️
kells 💛: she said she didn't want to talk about it she just wanted to sleep in our room
kells 💛: ofc i said yeah because she seems... idk
rob 🧟♀️: like a scared traumatized puppy
????? :
i'm so lost :
wtf happened????? i have to be the one :
she's avoiding
kells 💛: idk but i'll try again talk to her it doesn't seem like she keeps her feelings in for long
idk :
i'm just going to gts :
goodnight yall :
I exited out of the groupchat, even more confused than before.
Nothing made sense to me, but she clearly needed space so I was going to give it to her. It felt weird especially since we spent the last two nights together, but I let her be and didn't try talking to her for the rest of the night.
Once I said goodnight to Solange and closed my eyes to go to sleep, I was left with nothing but a racing mind. I was trying not to overthink, but it seemed impossible not to.
