It had been a few days since the trip to London and as much as I loved mum and was upset about how she felt and what she wanted to do , I had more important things to worry about at the moment.
Brad, Connor and I were all sitting in the waiting room since I had to get another ultrasound for the twins to check up that they were healthy and all that so of course Connor would come along, they're his children also but Brad came along cause we thought he'd want to see them as he's actually super excited for their birth!!
"Ashleigh Simpson?" The nurse person asked as we were in the waiting room so of course we get up and follow her
The closer we got to the room the tighter I held onto Connor's hand!!
"It's okay darling. You'll be fine" he reassured me "I know I just can't stand the memories" I told him quietly.
The nurse had started talking looking at the computer screen and all that when all of a sudden she had a confused expression.
"I'll be back in just a second sorry" she excused herself from the room
"What is she doing?" I asked starting to get worried "I'm sure it's nothing" both of the boys said at the same time "you're probably right. But why would she just leave? Something mustn't be right!" I said "cmon princess you need to stop worrying. I'm sure everything's fine" Connor tried to comfort me but I knew he was doubting himself also!
"Hello guys. I'm Dr Compton we haven't met before but I'm a specialist in ultra sounds" this guy walked in with the other girl.
"Please just give us a second. Feel free to take the goop off your stomach. We'll be back in just a second" he said as they, once again, left.
"I know I shouldn't be but I'm honestly freaking out right now! What if something bad has happened?" I honestly couldn't calm down! "I'm sure it's nothing ash" Brad said.
"We have some news about the babies that we think you should know. Unfortunately it's bad news. Remember that accident involving you fainting and being brought in hospital? Well turns out that it effected one of the babies and you've had a miscarriage. But you've still got one healthy baby. Sorry this has happened" she said and I was immediately in tears!
We got home and I still had red puffy eyes!
"Ash! What's wrong?" Everyone in the living room asked "nothing's wrong! Everything's aye okay" my voice cracked as I was about to burst into tears again! "Are you sure? You can always talk to us" chloe said "Yeh I'm sure. There's no reason for anything to be wrong" my voice cracked again "it's going to be okay Ash" Connor said and I was bawling my eyes out into his shoulder again!
"What happened?" Everyone ran over "I really don't wanna talk about it honestly" I admitted before going to to mine and Connors room.
It wasn't long until Connor came up to comfort me
"Have you told them?" I asked him "no. I'm more concerned about making sure you're okay" he sat down next to me "I don't even know why it's effecting me this much" I admitted "it's going to be okay though. You've got to understand that princess" Connor held onto my hand "I understand. I just. I dunno I can't even think straight right now. I just want someone to come out and say that this is all a joke" I sobbed into his shoulder "so do I darling, so do I. Sadly that's not going to happen though. Look on the bright side - there's still one yet to be born" he tried to smile "I guess you're right" I said as he wiped the tears from my eyes "cmon did you wanna come back downstairs?" He asked "Yeh I'll come down in a sec. I'm just going to take off my makeup. Can you explain to them what happened please?" I asked him "of course. Anything for you" he kissed my cheek before he went downstairs and I went to take off my makeup.
"Why aren't you as sad as she is?" "Trust me I am. But I'm not showing it as much to comfort her" I heard Connor say as I was about to walk downstairs "awe that's so cute" Shelly cooed to him "you really love her don't you?" Brad asked him "you have no idea. I just don't want to see her so heartbroken and sad" I heard Connor say and I immediately ran down the stairs and sat down next to him attacking him in a hug. "You heard all of that didn't you" he laughed at me "you bet. I love you too" I said to him smiling for the first time in about 2 hours
"So, when were you planning on telling the fans?" Aurora asked "I dunno" I looked at Connor "whenever you feel like telling them. It's up to you princess" he held onto my hand "not just yet. I still need time to process the news" I smirked "like I said, whenever you feel like it" he kissed my cheek which caused me to blush.
The boys were doing a live stream since they couldn't really tour at the moment so they decided to do more twitcams in the mean time. And for some reason they did the twin cam in mind and Connors room instead of Tristan's like they usually do.
As always I didn't want to be in it so I was sitting behind the computer doing my own thing
"Cmon ash. You don't have to be in the twit cam but at least come sit next to me so I'm not a loner" Connor asked "fine but I don't wanna be a part of the twitcam" I sat next him "I love you" he quietly said looking at me "I love you too" I quietly said cuddling up to his side.
They were answering questions like always and it wasn't long until there was one that involved me in a way.
"How are the twins going?" Bradley read without realizing what he was reading until he finished and I looked at Connor trying so hard not to cry.
"Did you wanna tell them now?" Connor quietly asked "I don't want to but I guess we should" I said quietly "okay let's just skip that question" Brad said "no Brad it's okay. We'll just tell them" I said
"The twins are. Well. They're not. I mean" I kept stuttering "I can't do it can you say it please" my voice cracked as it does when you're trying so hard not to cry but you can't keep it in anymore! "Anything for you sweetheart. Well there are no longer twins. Instead there's just one baby. We only found out earlier today" Connor awkwardly said as he was trying to make me feel better also.
That's when the twitcam chat section went completely crazy!!!
'What happened?' 'I'm so sorry' 'how do you know?!' 'Please tell me you're joking' 'are you okay' they all came in one after the other every 0.1 seconds
"Can we please not talk about it right now?" I said "whatever you want princess. It's going to be okay, you know that" Connor held onto my hand "I know but I always doubt it when people say 'it's going to be okay' as I've heard it almost everyday since I was 13 and now I'm 18 it's still not okay. I know this is completely different to cutting but I always doubt those words. Even though I know they're true this time" I said to him still in tears "stop worrying princess. It's not good for you. I promise it will be okay this time. We've still got one beautiful baby. It may not be twins but at least we've still got one. You need to relax. A lot has happened today and I know relaxing is the last thing on your mind but you've got to. I love you and I'll always be here for you. Forever and Always" Connor quietly said as the others were still doing the twitcam "i know I just don't know how to. There's way too much happening right now and I just can't relax" I said "sure you can. Just do something that doesn't involve you thinking too much" he said "in that case then, can I please use your phone?" I asked "whatever you want" he handed it to me "since when do you have a password? What is it?" I asked him "since the guys last got into my Twitter. And it's your name idiot" he laughed "but that doesn't work" I said as it denied 'ashleigh' "no, it's your full first name" he said "awe I love you so much. Forever and Always Connor" I said and with that I took a billion selfies on his phone.
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