Bradley's Little Sister ((Connor Ball The Vamps Fan Fiction))

Chapter 12

We got back home and saw Natalie's car parked outside.

We walked in to see her sitting on the couch with the boys.

"How the fuck did you get in our house?" I asked "it was unlocked when we came around and we let your sister in" Tristan said and I walked upstairs "hey where are you going?" Nat asked "to get my charger. My phone is almost dead" I explained "can I ask you something?" She asked "you just did but sure" I smiled walking up to my room "what's wrong with brad? What happened to your face? And would you like good news or bad news first?" She asked "he found out Liz was being paid to date him, got into a fight with a bitch and she slapped me and good" I said "aw so sad, should've slapped her back and mums out of hospital" Nat said and I couldn't stop smiling.

We went downstairs and I sat with Connor and James on the couch while Nat and Brad talked about something. Probably to do with mum.

"Would you rather loose a foot or loose the internet?" James asked "foot" I said straight away "what? But your foot is a part of your body where as the internet is just a random thing we use to connect with other people" he said "I'd have to say foot as well" Tristan agreed with me "yas" I high-fived him "you guys are crazy id rather my foot" Connor said followed by James agreeing.

After talking about feet and wifi brad called my name from up in his room so I jogged upstairs.

"You know the bad news?" Nat asked "uh yeh" I said confused "well we've decided that we should tell you rather then keep it a secret" Bradley said gesturing me to sit down "so I told you mums out of hospital but when I said that I meant. Mum has. She" Natalie stopped "no. She didn't" I said softly "she passed" Natalie said and tears streamed down my face faster then ever before "no. Please tell me your joking. Please, no" I said "I'm so sorry darling. I got a call this morning at 8 saying she passed. I'm sorry" Nat said as I laid on Bradley's bed crying into his pillow.

I soon stopped crying and walked downstairs into the living room where everyone was sitting.

"Aw m'love are you ok?" Connor asked as I sat right next to him "no" I got out placing my head on his side.

The guys ended up putting a movie on and I just sat there still shocked about what had happened but I guess I should try to be positive about it since brad and Natalie were trying so hard to do the same for me.

I thought about all this stuff with mum and how she had passed and it reminded me of when I tried to kill myself at school.

~FLASHBACK~

"Slut" the bitchy bully said to me as I walked passed.

"Hey. I was talking I to you. Get your fat ass over here now" she yelled so I did as she wished.

The whole thing ended in her almost killing me and me in a coma for 3 weeks.

I got out of hospital and stupidly went back to school taking her shit again.

"Slut" "whore" "ugly" "bitch" the words flowed through my mind as I was looking at my reflection in the school bathroom mirror. Today was it that was the day. September 15 2013. The day I decided to end my life. Also known as my 16th birthday.

I got the razor and pills and cut my wrists and thighs and everything then took a few pills and fell to the ground as the bitches walked in seeing me die so they joined in helping me. They kicked my throat and chest and head but a girl aged 13 had walked in as the girls ran out.

"HELP HELL. SOMEBODY HELP" she yelled out the door trying to help me. "Please. Just leave me" I got out but she attracted a small crowd.

They saved me somehow and promised not to tell my family but let me go home claiming I felt 'sick' and I haven't been to that school since. Or even near it.

~END OF FLASHBACK~

I ended up crying just thinking about it and I really wanted to tell someone what happened that day but I couldn't tell anyone.

"It's ok darling" Connor rubbed my cheek with his thumb "I know" I said weakly "she was very sick" Connor said and I nodded "that's not what I'm crying about" I said into my hands and someone stopped the movie.

"What's wrong then?" Connor asked and I sat up.

It was time to tell them. I needed to.

"Con and James know I cut for a little while recently but that actually wasn't the first time" I said.

I knew if have to tell them now.

"Show me" brad said so I showed him the 3-4 on my right arm not even that bad.

"Anyway. Last year I tried to kill myself. There I said it. I've been keeping it for some time now and there. I tried to kill myself in the school bathroom. That's all I'm telling you guys. Well that and I feel trusted enough to show you and be able to walk around here without make up on" I said grabbing a damp cloth running back to the boys.

I took the make up off my arm and the color drained from brads face. Every single scar. All of them. We're easy noticeable.

"That's what's wrong. I don't feel ok with telling you all the details but Bradley. If you can find it in your heart to forgive me I want to explain later what happened" I said and brad just looked down.

I waited a few minutes and then talked to him.

"Brad. Are you ok?" I asked "why would you want to kill yourself?" He asked sounding annoyed "I told you I'd tell you later" I said weakly "just tell us all" he said annoyed "I don't want to" I said starting to sound annoyed "were you even thinking? What the fuck was going through your mind when you tried to fucking kill yourself?" Brad yelled at me "I was thinking the only thing keeping me alive was you. My brother who was always there for me. Your the reason I'm not fucking dead. I thought you would be able to understand. I guess not. Your just going to abuse me about it. Well fuck you too Bradley" I yelled at him, tears rolling down my face as I ran up to my room.

I grabbed a pen and paper and wrote a note 'gone out. May or May not be back tonight. And brad this is for you' I wrote letting some of the blood coming out of my fairly new cut fall on the paper. I stuck it on my door and left.