Bradley's Little Sister ((Connor Ball The Vamps Fan Fiction))

Chapter 42

Well today was the first session with this new therapist and honestly I was super nervous!!

I mean therapists always creeped me out - I mean you're telling a total stranger every detail of your life. It kinda creeped me out idk about you

"Why are you so nervous?" James asked. I got the boys to take me there as they also had to go to a meeting and the place everyone was meeting at was just down the road from the therapist.
"I don't know. I mean therapists creep me out and remind me of my past wayyy more then I'd like them to " I admitted "you're going to be perfectly fine. I'm sure of it" Brad comforted me.

The boys dropped me off and left.

It felt so weird walking through these doors again.

"Ashleigh-Rose?" A young lady walked into the waiting room so I went off with her.

I literally told her ever detail about my life and I'll admit by the end I was practically bawling my eyes out.

"Okay so the main reason you pretty much hate yourself is because of your boyfriends bands fans?" She asked and I nodded "would you mind explaining a little more?" "Every little thing I do they hate on it. I change my hair colour - they hate on me. I change my nose ring - they hate on me. For gods sake I can't even hug my boyfriend without getting hate from them" I said "why do you think they hate on everything you do?" "I don't know? I've tried to figure it out many times but I can't think of a reason why they would. I don't mean to sound self centered I just - I've never done anything to them. There's nothing I've done that could've made them hate me to death" I honestly said "maybe they just don't like the fact that you and Connor are together" she said "but they hated on me before Connor and I started dating".

After a while neither of us could figure out what theyd really hate me about and it gave me anxiety not knowing.

Soon later the session had finished and I knew that Tris and Con were waiting outside but I really didn't want to see them.

I had black makeup running down my face. I had red puffy eyes still. I had hair over my face trying to cover it. Basically I looked so disgusting I didn't even want the boys to see me.

I went outside and as soon as they saw me they came running over.

"Are you okay? What's wrong?" They asked "I'm fine. I just. I realized how terrible my life really is" my voice cracked and I had to stop myself from crying again which caused them to hug me as tight as possible.

We got home and everyone was playing football outside.

I was about to join them but Connor stopped me first.

"Hello" I raised an eyebrow slightly smiling at him "hey" he laughed at me "what's up?" I asked him questioning why he pulled me over here "you do know that your life isn't terrible right?" He asked "that's the thing. It is" I admitted "it's not. You're beautiful. Your personality is amazing. You're surrounded by people who love and care for you. What else could you want?" He asked "honestly I'd like my family to accept you. Your family to accept me and the fans to shut the fuck up" I told him "I know I know but besides that" he smirked "id like my boyfriend to stop being an idiot" I laughed "yeh that's not gonna happen" he laughed "sadly I've known that for 14 years" I smiled at him "you look pretty when you smile" he said "no I don't. Stop lying" I tried to hide my smile "who am I kidding you look pretty all the time" he said.

We stood there for a minute in silence before I asked him something

"Why me?" "What do you mean?" He asked back "cmon you could literally have ANY girl in the world and you choose me? I'm not beautiful, my fashion taste is terrible, my hair looks like it was cut by a three year old, my face is covered in freckles and acne and well nothing about me is perfect. Not even close!" I said "seriously? I've said it before and I'll say it until you finally understand. You are perfect. Maybe not to everyone but you're perfect to me. I love everything about you and I mean everything. Even your left little toe which for some reason is always a different colour to the others" he made me smile "you really notice all those small things about me?" I asked "of course I do! I've noticed that you only wear bracelets on your right arm and how you use your left hand to do your lipstick even though you're right handed" he said "you do pay attention to the little things" I smiled "like I've said before I love everything you do and how all your imperfections make you perfect. You'll forever be the most perfect girl in my eyes. I love you princess" Connor said causing me to smile "I love you to" I smiled