Endless Conflict

40| What If

"Wow, that's so full on." Katie breathes out through the phone to me. Brent was now asleep on the couch with his head placed on my lap. He was so tired so I let him but in other circumstances it might have been different. His head was actually pretty heavy.

"I know right." I replied to Katie. I had rung her once Brent was asleep, I had told her a shortened version of the story Brent had told me. Katie hadn't vomited half way through though.

"Aren't you scared." She says quietly and I can hear the fear in her own voice. To be honest, I don't know if I'm scared. I know I should be, after all that that man has done to Brent's family I should be scared but I'm not. I think that if your so in love with someone things like that don't seem to matter. When you love someone like I love Brent you aren't scared, all you feel is joy. You feel safe in their arms and comfort as well. So no I wasn't scared.

"No." I say out loud to probably reassure myself more than Katie. I can imagine Katie's face now, her little nose scrunched up in confusion. If I was with her she would probably be physically trying to shake some sense into me.

"There is something wrong with you." She says in disbelief and I can't help but smiling.

"Anyway, how's Todd and Sam?" I ask her genuinely curious. It feels like I haven't seen those guys in ages. Of course I haven't seen Sam for longer because of what was going on in between us. It still annoyed me and nagged me at the back of my mind, but really if a friendship could possibly break down that easily than it just shouldn't have been. I missed Sam, I really did but there wasn't much I could do. The only way I could get him back would be to break up with Brent and that wasn't happening.

"Todd's great, but Sam I haven't seen since you guys had your little fight." She says. It wasn't really I fight but more like a disagreement that could separate us for life. Oh no Georgia, happy thoughts. Think happy thoughts, like rainbows and ponies, ooh and unicorns! Okay, your just weird girl.

"Wait, you haven't seen him at all?" I ask her.

"No, not at all." She tells me.

"Not at all?" I ask.

I hear her sigh loudly before replying, "Your going to be mad at me but I'll tell you anyway."

"Wait! So you have seen him?" I ask.

"Yes." She sighs.

"Okay, continue." I prompt her, if she's seen him I just want to know what he looked like or if he was alright. Just because he didn't want to be friends didn't mean I didn't still see him like that. I still cared and I always would.

"I saw him with Mark Georgia," she tells me, "and the funny thing was, he looked happy." I can't help but feel a little let down or like someone has dragged a knife down from my heart to my stomach. He went to Mark, the one guy he knew I hated. The one guy and he went to him.

"Are you serious?" I breathe out quite calmly through the phone.

"Yes, I'm so sorry." She tells me.

"No, you don't have to be sorry." I reassure her. "I just can't believe he'd do that to me." I start to vent. "I mean I know he didn't want to be friends anymore but he could still have the heart to," wait, what am I thinking? He didn't want to be friends so why would he even have the heart to do anything for me. In fact, what he did clearly showed that he didn't have the heart for me. He said that he loved me but then he just left me and I know what you thinking. But you have Brent, so it doesn't matter. But it does, I lost my best friend. The guy who always made me smile and laugh, he was always there for me. And now not only had I lost all that but I'd lost the trust with him now.

"Georgia? Are you still there?" I hear Katie asking.

"Yeah." I reply and then I ask her, "Do you think me and Sam will ever be good again?"

I wait patiently as I hear the other end of the line go silent, "Hopefully you do." She finally tells me. "He's a nice guy and you guys had a great friendship, it's sad that you guys would lose all that over just this little bump."

"It's not little to him though?" I remind her. It was his crush or the girl he loved running of with his best mate. If you looked at it from that point of view I could see his pain.

"Yeah..." Katie starts but then I can lightly hear her door bell ring. Weird, unless it's Todd. I mean it's only weird because it's about one in the morning. Yeah, we'd been talking for a while.

"What was that?" I ask her.

"It was the door bell." She says as confused as myself. "There must be someone at the door, I better go get it." She tells me.

"At one in the morning?" I question her cautious for her safety.

"It might be one of mums friends." She suggests.

"Oh okay, well just be careful and I'll talk to you another time." I tell her.

"Okie Dokey!" She says cheerfully and I can't help the smile that lights up my face.

"Bye Katie!" I sing and she sings a goodbye to me.

I can't help the feeling though that it's not one of her mums friends at the door. I can't help but feel that fear the overtakes me. I mean, what friend would come to her door at one in the morning unplanned? What if she's walking herself right into a trap?