Until eternity

Filming begins

Its the norm now, Theo and I heading to set together. I haven't dreamt' about him anymore, and that is good. Its made it a whole lot easier to be around him. 

I'm so used to having him around. I will admit I quit enjoy it. He just makes life easier, funnier, and not so serious. 

The world can be a stressful place, but Theo makes it much more tolerable. Hell the entire cast makes it more tolerable.

We are driving to set, and I tell Theo how excited I am to start filming. He just gives a small smile. Something seems off with him this morning, he has been awfully quite.

We've spent a lot of time together, going out to eat, sight seeing, and hanging out between all the training and I can tell when he isn't feeling like his normal self. He's been able to read me like a book since day one, it seems.  

Once we arrive on set and park. I decide to ask him if everything is okay.

"Theo?" He looks at me and I look back, I'm trying to read his expression and we just are staring at each other. "Um is everything okay? You have been really quiet this morning."

He gives a smile, and just says "Yes, I'm okay." I furrow my brows at him and ask if he is sure.  He sighs and says Yes, he is okay. 

I shake my head a little, "Okay if you say so" I tell him.

We head to wardrobe and it is a mad house. Everyone is there getting changed into their outfits. 

The vibe is awesome. Miles and Ansel are cracking jokes, while Zoe and I are giggling. Theo though is a little quite. I know something is bothering him even though he denied it in the jeep. 

I want to ask him again if everything is okay, but I don't want to put him on the spot in front of everybody.

Once we have our wardrobe, I have hair and makeup and  Theo has to go get his massive tattoo done. We got to see sketches of it yesterday. It is really impressive. I don't need to get mine done just yet. 

I start heading towards hair and makeup when Theo calls my name. I turn and look at him and he is just staring and figgiting.

I walk over to him and ask if everything is okay. He grabs my wrist and I see worry in his eyes. I remind him that he can tell me anything. 

"Shai, do you think I can do this. I mean what if the fans don't like me as Four. These movies come with a built in fan base. What  if I'm in over my head. I mean this is the biggest part I have ever taken on and....."

I put my finger over his lips, and tell him how perfect he is for this role. I let him know how many actors we had to read with to find him. 

He takes a deep breath and smiles. "We got this", he says like he needs reassuring. I shake my head in agreement and grab his hand. 

Yes we got this, I repeat and the staring continues, we are just looking into each others eyes. I decide to break the stare and reach in for a hug. 

Again I tell him he is going to be great and we are going to get through this together. As I tell him this his hold on me gets tighter.

We hug a little longer than friends should, and the butterflies come back. Just when I find myself drifting off to lala land he pulls me back to reality with those five little words. "You are a great friend"  Shai.  

And I find a part of me feeling disappointment. I just look him in the eyes and tell  him the same. With that we head our separate ways.