Until eternity

Goodbyes are never easy

We make our way into the lobby and the guys are joking around, laughing, and shoving each other that is until they see us.

They stop dead in their tracks and me and Zo both say, "Stare much." Miles is the first to say we look hot, and of course Ansel adds a "Smokin'" and Theo well...

Theo is just staring at me like we are the only two left in the room. Miles shoves him and tells him, "Geez James, take a pic it'll last longer.

He starts to blush, and tells us we both look stunning. Must be the proper British coming out in him.

We make our way into the party and its decorated with all kinds of photos from our time shooting.

I get emotional just thinking about how it all began. How I've made friends for life. I can't imagine going a day without seeing any of them.

I'm glad my next film is with Ansel, it'll be like having a piece of home with me. You know because I will be having serious Divergent family withdrawels.

I'm lost in a photo of me and Theo when I start seeing "us" flash before my eyes. From the day we first met till now.

I close my eyes as I hold the photo in my hands, and I hear a whisper in my ear. "Shai, baby you okay?"

Its Theo and I'm pulled from my thoughts. I turn and look at him and give him a simple yes and no response.

He takes the photo from my hands and rubs it with his finger. "You know Shai, for a long time I felt like my life was at a stand still and everyone and thing was just passing me by."

When I walked into that audition room and saw you, its like I woke up." I smile at him and he tells me, "Cheezy I know, right." I sound like I'm giving you a line.

I giggle a little and tell him, "Yah you do, but I wouldn't have it any other way." Just as Theo is gonna say something else Zo runs over and yanks me to the dance floor.

Sorry Theo I get the first dance as she pulls me away. Theo just nods and heads to the bar with the guys.

Zo and I are dancing away when the guys come over and join us. Its one big party and we are all having fun. We've all started drinking and I'm feeling the buzz.

Its a cycle of dancing, drinking, talking, shaking hands, hugging. I'm glad its a private affair. We don't really have to worry about fans, or paps tonight.

Every time me and Theo think about stealing a moment alone together someone shows up and pulls us in opposite directions.

You know I'm a big believer in signs, and I'm starting to think the universe is working against us.

Its about 3am when I decide I'm ready to go. I've had a little to much to drink and everyone else doesn't seem to be slowing down or ready to go so I decide I'm gonna sneak out.

I should tell Theo I'm going, but he is hanging with the guys and looks happy. I send a text to Zo.

Tired heading home, See you in the AM xoxo S-

Love you, take the car service. Text me when you get there. *Hugs- Z

Just as I'm shuting the door to the car, Theo reaches his hand in. "You didn't think you could sneak out without me noticing, did you."

"Sorry Theo, you where having fun, I didn't want to take you away from the guys." He hops in the car with me, and before I can say something he says.

"Shai, I'd rather be with you. We haven't had much of a moment to ourselves all night."

I lean on his shoulder and he kisses my forehead. We make it to our place without anyone noticing us. It is 3am after all.

I head to the living room and take off my heals. I hear Theo turn the radio on and he comes up to me and asks me to dance with him.

I smile and don't oblige, I know our time is limited and in his arms is where I want to be right now.

I giggle and comment, tragic love songs huh..He responds with "seems appropriate for the situation."

He pulls me close to him and we sway to the music. Neither one of us are talking yet I can tell we both have so much to say.

I look up at Theo and he has tears in his eyes. I reach up and put my hand on his cheek and he leans into it.

Theo, I...us...so much to say and the words don't come out. I start to get teary eyed and Theo pulls me in and whispers.

"We are gonna be okay. We will get through this. I'm here, I'm always gonna be here," He re-assures me. Its like he can read my thoughts and it brings more pain then comfort.

Pain because we were not suppose to be like this. There never was suppose to be an us. Especially since he already had an "Us" with Ruth.

I take a step back from Theo and walk over to the big window. "Theo, how can you say we are gonna be okay." This only ends one of two ways, and someone is going to get hurt.

I feel him walk up to me, and he turns me around. He staring deep into my eyes, and says,

"Its you, its always gonna be you. No matter what road we take. It'll always be you. And I know it sounds cliche because I've been with Ruth so long and....

Before he can say another word I pull him in for a kiss, and just like that we get lost in each other. Theo sweeps me off my feet and carries me to my room. Slowly he lays me on my bed and proceeds to lean in for a kiss.

He slowly starts kissing me, careful with every touch, every move, like its our last time. I slowly whisper Theo's name as he starts to kiss down my neck.

I start to undress him as he proceeds to do the same with me. He doesn't stare at my naked body, only deep into my eyes.

It feels like time has stopped and we are the only to moving. He slowly whispers my name as we start to make love.

Its euphoria with every kiss, every stroke, every touch and I don't want it to end. Theo has become the air that I need.

As the feeling starts to intensify I begin clawing at his back, and before I know it we both reach our max.

Our sweaty bodies lay entangled in each other, like two vines on a fence. He continues to stroke my hair "whispering I love you."

I get as close to him as I can and whisper "I love you too." Together we fall asleep entangled in each other.