Until eternity

In another life

Theo POV

There's this quote that I can't get out of my head lately, it goes like this..

"I don't know how it is you are so familiar to me-why it feels less like I am getting to know you and more as though I am remembering who you are. How every smile, every whisper brings me closer to the impossible conclusion that I have known you before, I have loved you before-in another time, a different place-some other existence. "

 I love to read. I love learning knew things. I came across this quote the day I found out I got the part of Four, and for some reason I can't seem to forget it.

I'm starting to realize it reminds me of Shai. You know ever since I met her its like, its like I've known her for a lifetime.

Usually when you meet someone for the first time, you are a little reserved, guarded so to speak. You want to feel each other out before you entirely open up to them.

With Shai though, there was this instant connection. When I first looked into her eyes a calm came over me.

Like I knew her, like I didn't have to impress her. Different then when I met Ruth. We didn't connect the way me and Shai did.

Don't get me wrong I love Ruth and I think if we didn't take the time to be friends first well, I don't know what would of became of us.

But Shai, she is different. I feel this instant connection, like magnets. There is something about her, and part of me is a bit guarded.

When Shai isn't with me, its like I crave her presence, not in a sexual way, or  that I want to cheat on Ruth, but she just calms me, she makes me feel like everything is always okay.

Me and Ruth well we have been through some rough patches before, we have always managed to come out of them stronger, and I love her with all my heart.

I used to miss her all the time when I would be off filming movies, but lately I've gotten comfortable without having her constantly by my side. I love that she is here visiting me, but I know I will be okay when she leaves in a few weeks. There was a time when I hated being apart.

Its like she was a security blanket for me. You know, telling me how to dress, act, and always giving me advice.

You could say she has coached me through life, and I'm grateful for that. Despite what people think, I haven't always been so outgoing. I was really shy and reserved. I guess you could say Ruth helped me come out of my shell, or rather helped me be the person she thought I should be.

But Shai, when I am around her, I feel like I could do or say anything and she will be right there by my side, no judgement.

Hell, she would probably be right there with me in what ever crazy situation I put myself in, cheering me on.

I'm starting to feel really guilty, because I want Shai to always be around me, she is beaming ray of sunlight, and she makes me want to be a better person.

She has grown to be my best friend, and I don't ever want to loose that. Maybe I am in denial of something but when you meet some one as great as her, you don't want to do anything to ruin it.

I hear a banging on my door window, and realize I've been here staring into space, I haven't even left the parking lot.

I roll my window down, and Zoe is sticking her head in asking if I zoned out. Shai stands behind her with a little smile on her face.

"Shit, I must of been daydreaming, or night dreaming for that matter." I say with a little laugh. Zoe being her outspoken self tells me, "Damn Theo I think Shai here is rubbing off on you." 

Shai just starts to laugh, and I get that feeling inside me again. I offer to help them get in the car, and they oblige.

Zoe was carrying her and Shai's things because she is still on the crutches. Zoe gets in the driver's seat and as I shut the trunk, Shai stumbles right into me trying to go around the passenger side.

She starts yelling Shit, shit shit, my ankle while laughing. I immediately scoop her up and set her on the back of the car checking her bandage and ankle.

She insists that she is okay, and I see Zoe grinning through the rear view mirror. With out permission I scoop her into my arms and carry her over to the passenger side and set her gently in the car. I go and get the crutches and put them in the back seat.

I look at Shai, and then Zoe and tell them to be careful and have a great night. Zoe just smiles and winks at me, and Shai well I notice she is a bit flushed in the cheeks.

I tell her to be careful and not rush on those crutches, she smiles and reaches up and kisses me on the cheek, thanking me for helping her.

I see it in her eyes as soon as she pulls away, she regrets doing that. Like if she just realized what she did.

I clear my throat and tell her no problem and shut the door, I stay in that spot until I see them drive away.

I lift my hand to my cheek and close my eyes for a minute. Shai, what are doing to me?  I think to myself in that moment, that "She may be the death of me, and I of her."