Until eternity

A kiss is worth a thousand words

Theo POV

I noticed Shai hasn't come back from her little break. I wonder if I should go look for her. Maybe she is feeling a little embarrassed.

That scene was pretty intense, it was just like the first time when we had our screening together. I remember  like it was yesterday.

I was so nervous going into the audition. I wonder if they could tell. When I first laid eyes on Shai, I knew she was special.

When she smiled at me, its like a sort of calm came over me. Right then it felt like I had known her for a lifetime. 

And today after this scene, it felt the same, I wasn't nervous at all. I could tell she was a little nervous, and I wonder why.

Maybe its because she doesn't like to disappoint people. I knew I could calm her down though. Its like we have this thing between us.

We can both tell when each other nervous, angry, sad, or any other feeling people try to hide. That kiss though

That kiss was so intense, it didn't feel like I was kissing a stranger. It felt like I was kissing, well I don't know how to describe it or maybe i'm in denial of what I really think.

Don't get me wrong I love Ruth, we have been together for so long and she has always been supportive of me.

She has told me how much she loves Shai too. We both think she is a great person. I just got to remember to be professional.

I want to be Shai's friend, heck I already feel like she is one of my best friends. 

I can tell when something is bothering her, its like I can feel it inside me. I know there are things in her past she doesn't want to mention, I just hope doing this kissing scene didn't bring back some of those bad memories.

Neil and everyone is still hovered around the monitor watching are scene over and over. Everyone keeps talking about the chemistry.

I let Neil know I'm gonna take 5 and he tells everyone we can have a  30 minute break. So I go look for Shai.

As I get closer to the exit, the door is propped open a bit and  I hear two familiar voices, its Shai and Zoe. I decide to stand near the corner and listen before heading out there

Yes, I am being nosy. Why? I do not know, but I don't want interrupt their conversation. So instead I resort to spying. Wow how bad does that sound I tell myself.

Zoe: Shai sweetie what is wrong is everything okay?

Shai: Oh Zo, I don't know. After that kissing scene I felt all kinds of crazy inside me. I felt like I couldn't breathe, I had to get out of there.

Zoe: Oh Shai, I'm sorry, but why. You guys did great, it was like you where made for each other. It didn't look like you all where acting at all......

Zoe: Oh my, Is that it, is that why you felt that way. Um Shai don't be mad but are you developing feelings for Theo?

Shai: Zo, I don't know what is happening.  Every since I met Theo, I've been having those dreams you know. The one I told you about. But now they have changed, instead of him being taken from me, its like we are brought together, and everything is perfect till I realize he isn't mine, and he has Ruth, and he smiles and walks away and I wake up in a mess. And to top it off me and Ruth have been hitting it off you know. She is such a sweet girl, and turning out to be a good friend I don't want to ruin it.

Zoe: Well, Shai I...I don't know what to say, except I'm here for you. I understand how you can be feeling this way. I mean you guys have been together non stop, since we started this thing and well its only natural to feel some sort of connection with people.

Shai: Seriously Zo a connection; maybe its infatuation. I mean the guy is everything any girl could want. He is kind, loving, smart and not to mention good looking... (starts giggling)

Zoe: No kidding the guy is easy to look at.  (hahahahaha) but seriously Shai, are you gonna be okay. You know I'm here for you if you ever need anything. Not to be a downer but we still have 3 more movies to film.

Shai: (I'm thinking to myself) I can't let Zo know that I am in love with him, I mean that is crazy, how can you fall in love with someone so quickly.

Zoe: Hello earth to Shai, are you in there?

Shai: I'm sorry I was just thinking, hey listen Zo thanks for being such a great friend, and so understanding. Usually people just want to gossip, but I can tell you are genuinely concerned for me. I love you for that. I'll be fine though. I just have to remember I am a professional and I can do this. Theo is one of my best friends and I don't want to ruin that.

Zoe: Hey how come he gets best status and I get great friend. 

Shai: Oh Zo you know what I mean, your one of my best girl friends too. Now come on we got a movie to make.

Shit! I better pretend I'm coming to look for them or they will know I've been spying. I bust through the doors acting surprised.

"There yall are, I've been looking for you. Neil gave us a 30 minute break which is probably down to about 10 minutes now, being as I couldn't find yall and let you know."

What's up, where have yall been? All the while thinking to myself real smooth. If I don't get this babbling under control Shai is gonna know something is up.

We where taking a smoke break Zo says. I needed some air and saw Shai heading towards the bathroom so I asked her to join me after. 

Shai looks at Zoe with a small smile. I just tell them, right on, right on. Well we better get back to set. We have a few more hours of filming before we are free.

Shai hasn't said much, Zoe has been doing all the talking. I don't know how I feel about what was said when I was spying.

They head off ahead of me, when I stop at the restroom to clear my head without being noticed.

Frankly listening in on the conversation, I regret it now. Shai is a great girl, but I have been with Ruth for so long. What am I saying. Like this is up for debate.

Maybe its my fault she feels this way. Maybe I have been leading her on. But I also feel; apart from my natural flirtiness, that we have known each other for a lifetime.

We both can tell when the other isn't being honest, or when something is bothering them. Its like, its like I don't know. Maybe in another life we were one.