Until eternity

Fun! Fun! Fun!

Me and Zoe have been hanging out in the apartment and decide we want to cook up a meal and invite everyone over.

We make a list and head to the store. We decide to leave a note for Theo and Ruth letting them know of our plans.

Now that she is here I feel like I have to let them know what I am doing, considering we share the same apartment.

Zoe has already texted Miles, Ansel, Jai, and everyone else from the cast. Now that we are in full swing of filming our group has grown.

Jai is one crazy guy. He has no problem speaking his mind, and sometimes I think he should think before he speaks. (hahahaha)

Me and Zoe made it through the store without any hassle, a few girls stopped us and asked for a photo which normally I don't like to do but they were sweet.

We are jamming to the music, dancing and cooking when I decide to brake out in a solo number. Zo is whistling and cat-calling me because well we have already went through a bottle and half of wine and all modesty is gone out the window.

I'm doing my best "strip tease" number (without the strip) when Zoe gets a serious look on her face. I immediately stop and notice she is looking right past me.

I turn and there standing, for who knows how long, is Theo and Ruth. Theo has a smirk on his face and Ruth looks like she is about to burst from what she just witnessed. She doesn't look to happy.

Theo Ruth..um how long have you been standing there? I ask. Theo with his smart ass comments, tells me "Not long enough." Ruth just looks at him and playfully nudges him. I can tell she is trying not to seem upset.

Silence takes over us and all you can hear is the music, and we are just staring at each other. Zoe comes to the rescue (as usual) and says,

 "Hey guys sorry for all the racket we are making dinner for everyone and  have had a bit of wine, and well you saw the result of that."

I just start laughing and ask if they got my note. They both at the same time said yes. I ask Ruth if she would like to join us in the kitchen. She gladly says yes.

Theo is going to his room to put all the bags away, which was alot might I say, they must of went shopping.

So Ruth I ask, Do you cook? She looks at me and says she loves to cook. So Zoe gives her an apron and some instructions and we are back to the loud music, wine drinking, and dancing. 

Ruth seems a little less "free" then we are, because she is just doing her task and humming to the music.

Dinner is almost ready, when the door bell rings. Theo yells from his room that he will get the door. I'm suprised he hasn't joined us out here.

Per our instructions everyone shows up on time with plenty of alcohol. Theo comes and gets Ruth to introduce her to everyone.

Of course Miles and Ansel are sweet about the introduction, but Jai oh dear Jai. He says to Theo, "Man how did a ugly guy like you end up with a hotty like her." 

He proceeds to lift Ruth's hand and kiss it. She just smiles and says nice to meet you. Man this poor girl is gonna run for the hills after hanging out with us for one night.

She may try to take Theo with her too! Theo playfully pushes Jai away and tells him to stay away from his woman.

Everyone helps set the table and put the food out. I try to sit on the same side as Theo and Ruth so I don't face them directly.

Why, well I don't want to get caught staring at either one of them, but naturally Ansel scoots into my chair before I can say anything. So I am stuck sitting directly across from them with Jai on one side of me and Zo on the other.

Everyone is raving over the food we prepared and thanking me and Zo. I tell them not to forget to include Ruth cuz she helped.

She just smiles and says it was no big deal, all she did was chop stuff.  Just when the conversation is starting to flow nicely, Jai asks Ruth how she and Theo met.

I get a little tense because I don't want to hear these details. I guess you could say I am a bit jealous. I guess all this time I had been convincing myself that I didn't have feelings for Theo but now that she is here.

I mean for goodness sakes that last dream I had, that right there was a red flag. But denying it seemed better at the time.

Zo must sense my uneasiness because she puts her arm around my shoulder and gives me a hug, while we sit there and listen to the story of how they met, how long they have been together.

She really does seem like a sweet girl. I'm just smiling at her while listening to her talk when I glance over at Theo and see him just looking at her with a smile while she tells their story.

In that moment I decide that friendship is definitely all we can have. I mean you can tell they love each other. 

Once we are done eating and cleaning up together, we crank up the music and pull out the alcohol and get the party started.

We are all talking, dancing, and laughing enjoying each others company. Me and Zoe are just laughing away and dancing when Jai being the smart ass he is requests to be the man sandwich between our buns. 

We just laugh our asses off and pull him inbetween us and  proceed to smash him while we continue to dance obnoxiously around him. 

Everyone is laughing at us, including Ruth but Theo I glance at him and I can tell something is wrong. If he clenches his jaw any harder he is gonna break it. 

You see that's the thing with us, we can tell when the other is feeling... I don't know what's the word "off". I decide I'm gonna ignore it and continue dancing. 

We have been doing this for a few hours now, and we are all pretty drunk, well everyone except Ruth. She has more control then us obviously or she wants to make sure Theo is on his best behavior

Its 2:30 in the morning when we all decide we better call it a night. We do have to be on set at 6:00am and we can't be late. That would be very unprofessional of us.

After everyone is gone I decide to take a shower, I tell Ruth and Theo goodnight and that I'm glad she is here visiting. 

I'm done with my shower and feel really tipsy, I decide I am going to go make me some tea to help prevent the hangover I am dreading in the morning. 

I'm in the kitchen staring off into space when I hear Theo's door open. I close my eyes hoping it isn't him. I'm staring towards his bedroom when I see Ruth come around the corner.

Hey, I tell her. You can't sleep. She starts to giggle and tells me God no, Theo is out like a light and snoring his head off. I smile and tell her I'm sorry and offer her some tea.

She gladly accepts, and I pour her a cup. We are both standing there in silence when I tell her I am gonna head to my room. Just as I am walking away she calls my name.

I close my eyes thinking the worst is going to happen, but turn around with a smile and she says those frighting words that everyone hates to hear.

"Can we talk?"